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mydigitalpen · 3 years

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you were not the angel i thought you were

love has proven to be my world's greatest mystery

always the thing that's out of touch

always just out of reach

in my family, divorce is dinner conversation

as easy as solving the morning crossword puzzle

so while everything in me should have wanted to run,

i wanted so badly to find a love that would make me stay

i've heard some things about love-

love is kind

so when you kissed me and i tasted the poison on your lips,

i wiped it away and kissed you back

love is patient

so i let you come and go as you pleased

and every time you called for me,

i was your dead man crawling

love is pain

so when you pulled out your knife,

i smiled because you kissed it before you dug it in

and as always,

i mistook the pain for butterflies

love is generous

so i gave you everything i had to offer

until there was nothing left

i was not expecting you to look me in the face

and ask for more

above all, they say that love is beautiful

so i looked at you through my rose-colored glasses

and told myself that you loved me

because when it was good,

it was great

because it was always good

until it wasn't.

eventually i started to see

why sometimes packing your bags and calling it quits

is easier than

tearing a home down just to rebuild it

and in the end, i think i realized

maybe it was never me who was confused on what it means to love

maybe that was you

maybe it's been you all along.

-@mydigitalpen

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