the disordered urge to spiral out of control and lose a ton of weight in a short period of time and horrify everyone and finally have everyone care about me and scared for me

Does anyone also have this thing that they binge in their dream and then feel like shit but then realize it was just a dream and get relief.How fucked up is my brain?!?!

It's a vicious cycle of me getting depressed, binge and then get crazy about how I gained 2 kgs, then starting to starve myself and then getting more depressed because I have no energy and cant do anything because I'm starving and then the depression and starvation make me binge again and this only gets worse

I hope this is true because I hate myself all the time and get so much anxiety from not getting anything done.

If you were actually "just being lazy", then it wouldn't bother you this much that you're not doing what you're supposed to do. Being lazy is comfortable. Struggling to get something done is very different from not caring to do it.

such a p*ssy...are you gonna cry now because your scars burn? ohhh, you're so fucking pathetic!

A flat stomach isnt enough, I want a concave stomach.Perfect isn't enough, I can go beyond perfection

my friends were lending me a dress for a wedding and when I was trying it on they told me I looked terribly thin, they told me I looked sick and I secretly enjoyed every second of it, I know it isn't true but it's nice to hear

omg yessss

My favorite not binging technique;

"I can have it if I still want it tomorrow", then going to bed. Most the time I don't continue wanting it, orrr I can plan it into my calories for the day 🤷‍♀️

I can fast for days but the moment I start eating I eat everything in sight. Why is this a thing :/

can we talk about how our ed makes us do disgusting stuff like puking in a trash bag in your room and hiding it until you find a way to throw it away?! Can we talk about how 2 muffins and two donuts and a chocolate bar feels like the end of the world? How fucking disgusting

✨reblog to get skinny legs✨

ignore and the wizard will skidaddle over your skidoodles

went out partying last night. threw up twice, but it was only alcohol and drinks because I hadnt eaten. Am I the only one feeling satisfied to see my stomach is free from food😅 oops. Well my friends then forced me to eat fries but that was okay. Theres also a party tonight and I'm not gonna eat today. Already 2 kgs down :) I have to stop smoking weed cus it makes me binge so hard, before falling asleep I fantasized of a caramel mcsundae, a cheeseburger, chocolate muffins, sushi and I really wanted to go out, buy all of that and eat it. Thank god when I got sober I didnt have that urge anymore. Also my friends have EDs too/ recovered from EDs. Soo coffee and a cigarette is a valid breakfast option, I love that when I am with that friend/crush and we just do that as if it was a normal thing to have for breakfast.

alcohol is a coping mechanism. yes?

14 hours into my fast. I didnt get any sleep last night. I'm so fucking anxious to go to my internship, theyre probably mad at me for calling in sick too late these last days. I hope they'll excuse me. I hope I'll do alright without sleep and food. Pls nicotine and caffeine save me

I just want to cut and starve myself until I die because I know that I deserve it and it would make everything better for anyone

like yes things suck but at least ur not 15 again

I've been binging like crazy, I cant believe what I did.. I literally gained 7 kgs!this is the end of the world oh god! Alright, starting to fast now.. at least 36 hours.