I need to get out of here

I have never made any type of post like this and it’s going to be long and annoying but I just can’t fucking take this anymore. I’m Sophie, I am a 19 year old latina girl who has been living with an abusive man double my age for the last couple of years after running away. I feel trapped here and I have no means to leave safely at all. I’m mentally ill and on disability which doesn’t leave me with any room to get away from him and he is extremely controlling even when it comes to money and what I should have to owe him for living with him.

I have no family to lean on and the friends I did have, he has cut me off completely from them. He’s smashed my phone when he got paranoid leaving me with nothing and no one. He monitored my phone and my social media so I have had to make separate accounts to try and hide him from seeing what I post. Not only that but he is racist, he hates women, believes in white supremacy, thinks that all girls should only be with men and give themselves to men whether they want to or not.. it just goes on and on and never stops. He always talks about genocide, thinks women ask for too much, ect. He has actually gone to jail in the past for assault. He threatens me with violence if I don’t do the things he asks for all the time and my mental health has gone downhill since I came here. There are so many things that have happened that I can’t even talk about.

I am always being taken advantage of, threatened, manipulated into sex, into giving him money, just so that I won’t be out on the streets with no where to go. This type of life is making me want to kill myself if I can’t get a change soon but I am terrified of the thought of leaving him. I want to get a restraining order so that he can’t come after me, but if I do that I will have no place to live because I can’t afford the apartment I live in if he’s not here. I need help getting out. There is no way I can afford to pay a deposit, pet fee, and first months rent on a cheaper apartment with the income and type of life I have right now. He knows about how much money I bring in a month, and with my bills and everything I have very little. I know what I need is a lot, my goal is around $500 dollars even though that won’t begin to cover it, I don’t expect much help at all. Even a couple dollars I have that I can hide from him will hopefully add up.

I was at risk of being homeless when I met him because of leaving my family. I thought that because he had issues too that he was a good person at heart but I can’t take the way that he treats me anymore, it has only gotten worse. If you don’t believe me, or think I shouldn’t be asking for this kind of help or think this is all my fault just block me. I have had too many people act like I am over exaggerating or that I’m crazy. I will just block you.

EDIT: PLEASE DO NOT SEND MONEY TO MY PAYPAL EMAIL. SEND IT TO THIS DONATION POOL INSTEAD. Someone told me I could lose my disability and that’s all I can survive on. One of my friends offered to make a paypal gofundme type thing. I would be so grateful if you could reblog this version instead. The link is here https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/86vaWfffaD Please let me know if you sent a donation and need a refund so you can put it in the pool. I am scared of having too much money in my account.

I know a lot of you guys don’t want to reblog those posts about the wildfires in Greece because they’re too long, so I figured I would make a shorter post for y’all. 

Here is a link on how to help and what the current situations are, and here is a direct link to the fundraiser.

As someone who has personally been affected by fire, I would really appreciate if y’all could sb this??

Happiness Will Come To You.

You can only reblog this today.

I'd care if the person I reblogged this from committed suicide.

Reblog this from anybody. literally. ANYBODY. even if you dont like them or even know them that well. YOU COULD SAVE THEIR LIFE.

this is the money dog, repost in the next 24 hours and money will come your way!!

You shouldn’t have to spend so much money to get a life-saving device like this; here’s how to bring that number down a bit.

If you would like to help

It seems that not even my attempts to get money from freelance work is enough and well I am cornered, to the point I kind of live in the ER. LMAO.

Long story short, I have had lots of issues including hepatitis A, chickenpox (at adult age), kidney issues, etc. Currently, I have Fatty liver grade 3 Gastritis Irritable Bowel Syndrome PCOS An apparently non-lethal arrhythmia Hypoglycemia (recently diagnosed) Severe anxiety and depression (Mild case of PTSD and hypochondria)

Doctors recently started to question whether I have a metabolic syndrome. 

In the next few weeks, I am gonna be having to go through lots of tests and medicine, too plus psychotherapy. I live in El Salvador, it’s a poor country, health care is non-existent, my mother is already in debts because of my medical expenses of the last 6 years…I mean she gets 500 bucks a month… and also no insurance so well… 

If you would like to help out a bit, only a bit, then

https://www.paypal.me/alycans

Anything counts, reblogs or even words of encouragement. Thank you. I will appreciate anything with everything I am.

Jackpot

i’m seeing a lot of people reblogging suicide hotlines and this is just a reminder that this is a suicide help line that works like a text-based instant messenger for people who may need to talk to someone but have trouble/are uncomfortable making phone calls

Losing this court case could ruin the rest of my life

An accident has left me bedbound, and compensation could be MY ONLY CHANCE to escape LIFELONG NEGLECT.

ONLY 3 HOURS LEFT to raise **$850** for legal fees. Without compensation, I could risk HOMELESSNESS & DANGEROUS NEGLECT throughout THE REST OF MY LIFE.

Five years ago, a fall down a staircase left me confined to bed for life.

I now need 24 hour care that I can’t afford. [Medical reports].

I could suffer severe dehydration if carers don’t provide food/water to my bed; homelessness would kill me and I can’t rent without paid cleaning.

After the accident I’ve so far NEVER been more than months from risking homelessness or serious danger.

Whether I receive compensation for a lifetime of healthcare will depend on payment of legal fees.

Delays could: lose my compensation case, and require me to pay $20,000+ in Defendant’s legal fees. It would also RUIN THE REST OF MY LIFE.

PLEASE DONATE HERE Counter must reach: at least $43,685 AUD To excl. expended old donations

Recurring donations for my care can be made here & must be **registered at this link**.

Funds raised are managed on behalf of the recipient by The Developing Foundation (ABN 58903560400)

dont support industries that are driving animals to extinction thank you!

Reblog if you're not homophobic

Every url that reblog’s will be written in a book and shown to my homophobic dad. 

since it’s black history month, i think this black lesbian deserves to not have to live in the same place as their abusers so help me out

Shit No One Told Me About My Period

I knew the basics before I got it, but I had no clue…

* The blood wouldn’t necessarily be red. When I first got my period, I spent a few min looking at my underwear wondering how I shit myself. I didn’t know the blood could look brown, or be thick.

* That tampons weren’t a good idea yet. I was 10 or 11 when I got my first period and physically smaller than an adult woman. My first attempt at inserting a tampon was very painful and unsuccessful. I wouldn’t use them until I was around 14 or so.

* That when you use pads the blood can get on your bottom and I’d have to occasionally clean off the toilet seat after using it.

* That getting your first period DOES NOT mean you’re fully developed and fully able to bear children. I could have technically gotten pregnant at that age, but I was still a child and pregnancy would have put my life in danger because I was still physically immature.

* That it wouldn’t be regular for another few years.

* That very painful cramping is NOT NORMAL once you reach your 20s and is cause for concern.

* That the blood and tissue you pass can look chunky or stringy and not like blood from a cut.

* That stress can halt your period for months BUT

* That doesn’t mean you can’t get pregnant

Feel free to add your own

Boys are allowed to be feminine and that includes trans boys, pass it on. Girls are allowed to be masculine and that includes trans girls, pass it on. Nonbinaries are allowed to use feminine or masculine expression, pass it on.

To any suicidal followers I may have: This is a sign to not kill yourself. You are loved and the world is special because you are in it. Keep holding on.

Reblog this when it’s on your dash. You will save someone’s life.