I just got back from the airport. I put my girlfriend on a plane to Orlando, she’s going to Harry Potter world with her family. I don’t know whether I’m really that sad that she’s gone even if it’s Thursday night and she’ll be back by Sunday or if it’s just the manic high I’ve been riding today but I’d like to believe it’s because I miss her.
I came home and took our new puppy for a walk. Grabbed a beer out of the fridge and heated up arguably the worst General Tso’s I’ve ever had and looked around at my apartment, it’s not a mansion by any stretch but we do alright in our little place. It’s funny to think this time last year, I was most likely in or just out of one of the shittiest relationships I’d ever been in.
I went from a self hating bipolar loser to having my own car, place, an incredible partner and a bug eyed little hob goblin who thinks I’m the greatest thing since tennis balls. It wasn’t easy but I guess growth never is. Even when I’d catch myself in the middle of a nasty down cycle thinking to myself “This is it, THIS is where it all falls apart.” It never does.
That was always the thing with my bipolar, I never thought I’d live to 25. I never thought I’d have any of these things. I figured either I would’ve killed myself or some bad decision I made would do it for me.
Now I’m looking down the barrel of 30 in a month, it feels like playing catch up some times. I’m just getting into my first place and shit and I have friends who are selling their second home and figuring out where they’re going to vacation, Tahoe or the Pocconos. I remind myself to keep moving because what happens to them doesn’t matter, only that I keep going.
So I don’t know what’s next, I know that I’ve grown so much and that all I can do is keep going.
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RX-78GP02A Gundam “Physalis“
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a lil scribble of what it’s like to be a mercy main
i like hiding behind The Big
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Batman has Nightwing and Robin…you have us.
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WARHAMMER: ‘Curse of the Wulfen’ - by Wonchun Choi
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Rock the galaxy in the name of Slaanesh!
does anyone know the author?
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How do I use this thing again?
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Instapics ♛ on We Heart It - http://weheartit.com/entry/215068833
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Some days, I feel like I’m just spinning my wheels. I need to get out of here.
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Regret runs through me.
I am no one, I am nothing,
I am a man of defeat. what's left for me?
Whats left for me?
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Feels like no matter what I do there’s never enough time and there’s never enough money.
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