U can grieve and still live life. U can miss loving someone and love others. You can hold onto the good moments and simultaneously the bad moments. You can take the learning from a person you let go off and use it for the better. You can love someone and they may not be the right person. You can wish someone the best and love them from a distance. You can think fondly of someone and never talk to them again.. mysteries of the world…
The thing about having depression hit before I was even a teenager, is that I have no idea who I am. I have no memory of what it’s like to live without anxiety, depression, and eating disorders.
I have no idea who I am without these disorders, they’ve defined my entire life.
The song begins with "I sit and watch you", followed by her thought process while watching her lover read.
She’s wondering why she's doing all these things and they're still not good enough for him. Then she’s asking him in her head, "If I left, would it matter to you? Believe me, I could do it." And yet the song ends with the same line: "I sit and watch you."