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I love this Sai! Great job as always✨💕 I needed this and I miss Merhayes so much

Broken - Merhayes

pairing: meredith grey x cormac hayes word count: 1360 words request: yes/no prompt/summary: Here’s a prompt for you have a happy day although this prompt is kinda angsty lmao: Hayes gets into an accident after an argument with Meredith. He wakes up in the hospital with Meredith by his side, but gives her a silent treatment because he is still angry☹️ warnings: implied cheating and mentions of car accident a.n: i had this lying around in my asks for a while so i'm very sorry to the anon who asked for this but i hope you still enjoyed if you see this

Cormac’s fingertips drummed against leather of the steering wheel as he sat at a red light. Meredith Grey was going to be the death of him, he would swear by it. He’d known before they’d started dating that Meredith had a fiery personality. They’d locked horns more than enough times when he had first started working at Grey-Sloan. Never enough for them to stop talking though. Nothing that didn’t blow over in a few hours. They were both stubborn but eventually, the fire would die down and things would go back to usual.

Today was the first time that Cormac knew that he needed to get away from Meredith. He didn’t even want to try and sort things out right now. All he could see was red and he knew the best thing for him right now was to remove himself from the situation. So, he’d left her house, gotten into his car and just drove.

It had been two months since he had started dating Meredith. Two months since the timing had finally been right, their kids fully onboard and Cormac had found the courage to ask her out again. He had been sure she was going to say no. Why would she even want to say yes? They had tried before, and he’d been the one to break things off after Austin began to suffer with panic attacks.

She’d said yes though. And Cormac was stupid enough to know that they couldn’t just pick up where they left off. He’d known that Meredith had been seeing someone before and he couldn’t blame her. They weren’t together, she was a free agent. What mattered most to him was the fact that they’d both managed to find their way back to each other.

The past two months had flown by, even better than when they had first been dating. Austin had still been apprehensive when Cormac had spoken to his sons but the signs of him having a panic attack was no longer there. He was more willing to open up and talk to Cormac about what had been worrying him and his father was able to assuage the fears of forgetting about or replacing Abigail.

Things had taken a turn today though. He’d gone over to Meredith’s for lunch. She had been grabbing some plates from the kitchen when her phone had buzzed on the coffee table. Cormac hadn’t meant to look at it. He wasn’t that kind of guy. The type that needed to check on who his girlfriend was messaging, who wanted access to her phone. It was just a glance over when it buzzed, and he wished he hadn’t because what caught his eye was two heart emojis.

Cormac Hayes may not have been as young as he once was. His kids reminded him of that at least once a week when he tried to decipher their sentences, using words he wasn’t even sure were in any kind of dictionary. But even he couldn’t misread what a red love heart, two red love hearts, meant. He wasn’t that out of touch.

He couldn’t tear away his eyes from the message at that point. At first, his head began to rationalise that it could easily be one of the kids. But he was sure none of them had a phone just yet, although Zola had been pestering her mother for one over the past few weeks. Next, his eyes had caught sight of the name at the top of the message.

Nick.

Nick, as in the guy Meredith had been seeing before? The transplant surgeon. Cormac had taken a deep breathe, trying not to jump to conclusions. He hadn’t read the rest of the text. Guilt already setting in as he felt awful for looking in the first place. He placed the whole thing to the back of his mind when Meredith had come back in with food and lunch had gone well until she had picked up her phone. She’d been engrossed in the messages, barely paying attention to Cormac as she smiled down at the lit-up screen.

It had gone on for half an hour before Cormac finally asked her what was going on. Meredith immediately raised her hackles, getting defensive at his simple question. And it just seemed to explode from there. Both of them stood up from the sofa, voice raised and unpleasantries exchanged.

Cormac hadn’t wanted an argument though. He just wanted to know what was going on. To understand if he was getting his wires crossed but instead, Meredith bit at him quickly and it had hurt. She’d yelled and asked if he didn’t trust her. What was the point in them being together if he didn’t? He’d tried to explain that he did trust her but this wasn’t the first time she had ignored him for her phone when they’d been spending time together. When the yelling had reached a crescendo, Cormac knew that he had to leave.

And that was what had bought him here. Sat at a junction. Waiting for a red light to turn green so he could just get further away from Meredith’s house. Cormac wasn’t usually one to run away from his problem. Aside from the fact that he did run to Switzerland with the boys after Irene had died… but that had been a very different circumstance. Usually though, he would try and work things through. Try and reach a solution. He just couldn’t bring himself to stay in that house with Meredith any longer.

She infuriated him to no end. Making it seem like it was his fault all along. Cormac had wanted a few simple answers. He hadn’t been aggressive or confrontational in the way he had asked but Meredith’s defensiveness had rubbed him up the wrong way. If he had hair to pull out, Cormac would have lost half of it by now.

The sound of a blaring horn had pulled him out of his thoughts. The next thing he felt was an impact to the side of the car and then nothing. A rhythmic, and slightly

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A rhythmic, and slightly annoying beeping, were the first things that Cormac heard. He kept his eyes shut tight. His head was banging and his body ached like never before.

“Boys, could you please turn off that alarm if you aren’t going to wake up,” he just about croaked out.

“Sorry to disappoint but it isn’t an alarm. I can mute the machine though, if it’s bothering you.”

That voice definitely didn’t belong to Liam or Austin. Slowly opening his eyes, Cormac winced slightly as he got used to the lights in the room befoe looking to his left where the voice had come from. Sat on the edge of the chair was Meredith, looking like she’d just gone ten rounds in a boxing ring.

“I’m so glad you’re okay! Bailey called to say you were in an accident and-“

“What are you doing here, Meredith?” Cormac quickly cut her off.

Slightly stunned, Meredith stumbled ovr her words for a minute before answering. “Cormac, you were in a car accident.”

“I understand that but I don’t know why you’re here. You said that you were done.”

“Cormac, I-I didn’t mean that and you were just in an accident and-“

“Could you please just leave?”

“I’m sorry?”

Cormac may not have fully been able to remember the accident that had landed him in a hospital bed but he did remember the argument he had with Meredith that lef him to being in the car in the first place. His anger and upset at her had still not subsided. He didn’t care if it sounded petty or childish. Right now, he did not want Meredith Grey in his hospital room.

“Just leave, I don’t want you here, Meredith.”

With Cormac not giving her any kind of eye contact, Meredith knew he was deadly serious. Not wanting to cause him anymore stress and feeling hurt at his reaction at seeing her, she grabbed her bag and quietly left the room without saying another word. Her heart breaking in the process.

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jowwdii · 2 years

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Sksjsksjamsks💕✨💕 This is sooooo cute🥰😍

Men in Green - Merhayes

pairing: meredith grey x cormac hayes

word count: 1091 words

request: yes/no

prompt/summary: cormac introduced meredith to the sport he loves warnings: none that i can think of

a/n: it feels like forever since i've posted a merhayes fic so i hope you all like it. eventually i'll get around to watching the lastest season but everything i hear about it doesn't fill me with hope. as usual, my ask box is always open to requests with any shows/films that i reblog

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“Remind me, why am I awake at 6 AM on a Saturday when it’s my day off and the kids are with Amelia and Maggie?” Meredith rubbed her eyes with the sleeves of her old, ratty Dartmouth t-shirt. She’d pulled her hair up into a ponytail, sleep still evident in her eyes.

She had fully been planning to sleep in until eleven. That was until she heard incessant knocking on her front door. Panicking that something had happened to the kids, Meredith had thrown the sheet off her and ran down the stairs. Her anxiety eased when she saw Cormac on the other side of the door. Bright-eyed and dressed in a green top that she had never seen before.

“I did tell you yesterday evening…”

“I was half asleep yesterday evening,” Meredith whined as she made her way into the living room, falling back on the sofa with her eyes closed.

When Cormac didn’t answer, Meredith propped herself up on her elbows, turning around to see him in the kitchen. “What’s in the bag?” She eyed it suspiciously as Cormac pulled out two plates from the cupboard.

“Waffles and coffee because I know you’re useless without caffeine in the mornings.”

Meredith perked up a bit at the mention of caffeine and shot Cormac a grin before sitting up properly. Balancing the plates and two takeaway cups of coffee in his hands, Cormac walked back into the living, passing Meredith her breakfast.

“As much as I appreciate the sugar and caffeine, I would love it more if it was in three hours.”

“You really weren’t paying attention yesterday?” He arched a brow.

“Sorry,” Meredith gave him an apologetic smile. “I was just exhausted after surgery, I can’t even remember getting into my bed.”

Cormac shook his head, smiling. “You don’t need to apologise, I could tell you were exhausted yesterday.”

“Thanks… so are you going to tell me why you’re here then?”

“I will if you wouldn’t mind passing me the remote?”

Curious as to what in the world was going on, Meredith handed over the remote and watched as Cormac flicked through the channel before finally settling on one.”

“The Six Nations?” Meredith squinted at the screen, “What is that?”

With a huge grin on his face, Cormac turned to face her. “One of the best championships for the best sport in the world.”

“Which would be?”

“Rugby,” he responded matter-of-factly.

“Is this one of your Irish things?”

Cormac rolled his eyes before settling back on the sofa. “It’s a world thing, America just doesn’t do that good in it for the country to care.” He watched the screen with a grin on his face as the Irish national anthem finished and the men in green and red dispersed across the field.

“Okay, so what team are we supporting?”

After giving her a pointed look, Cormac looked at his top.

“Ah, yeah, okay. The guys in green then…”

“If you support the Welsh, we’re going to have an issue.”

“No no! Go Ireland!” Meredith gave a half-hearted fist pump.

She’d never been particularly interested in sport. Derek loved his golfing and fishing but thankfully, she hadn’t had to be a part of any of that. And now, Cormac was sitting in her house watching a sport she had no clue about. Maybe he wouldn’t notice if she fell asleep. Placing her empty plate on the table, Meredith cradled the cup of coffee in both her hands as the whistle blew. Watching for a couple of minutes, her brow furrowed as she tried to figure out what was going on.

“So, this is kind of like American football?”

Cormac looked at her incredulously. Meredith had never seen him look so offended. “This is something like American football!”

“The ball is the same shape and they’re throwing it around.”

With one eye still on the match, Cormac sighed and began to explain the many differences and intricacies of rugby. Much to Meredith’s own surprise, she found herself actually interested in what Cormac was saying. As she carried on watching the first half of the game, Meredith found herself enjoying it more now that she knew what was going on. When the whistle blew and the 30 men started to make their way off the field, Meredith was slightly disappointed.

“Is that it?”

Chuckling, Cormac turned to face her, giving her his full attention. “That was just the first half. They’ll have a 15-minute break and then they’ll be back out.”

Meredith then began to flood with him with even more questions, knowing that neither of them were going to be missing anything. There was a sparkle in her eye as she got more excited about the sport and Cormac didn’t even manage to bite back a grin. He hadn’t been expecting Meredith to be this invested in the game, but she had a genuine interest in what was going on and it made his day. Being able to watch rugby felt like a small part of home.

“Did you ever play, when you were younger?”

“Oh yeah, was on the school team and the county team for a bit. Played while I was at university as well.” Meredith saw his eyes glaze over slightly as he thought about those days again. “Rugby… it breeds a family. A band of brothers or whatever other clichés that you want to use. It taught me a lot.”

“You sound like you miss it.”

Cormac shrugged, “It’s been years since I last played. When I moved to the US, there weren’t any clubs near where I was and even if there was, I wouldn’t have had the time with residency and then the kids came along.” He shook his head, pulling away from the feelings of nostalgia. “I tell you what I miss most though. Actually going to a rugby match.”

“What’s it like?”

“It’s just the most amazing feeling. The atmosphere in the Aviva Stadium at full capacity… it’s just something else entirely. Completely electric. You don’t need to know the guy sitting next to you and by the end of the match, you’re talking like you’ve known each other for years. Doesn’t matter who’s supporting who. You’re there for the love of the game.” Grinning, he clasped his hand with Meredith’s. “I’m going to have to take you one day.”

“I like the sound of that,” And she meant it, 40 minutes of rugby and she could understand why some people were so obsessed with sport. “Now, shush, they’re about to start up again!”

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jowwdii · 2 years

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YAY!!! Post it please im sooo deprived of Merhayes 😭

May or may not have a Merhayes fanfic I just finished

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jowwdii · 3 years

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Taking mine, but it’s been promised to another

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jowwdii · 3 years

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two chapters in less than a week??? who is she??

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28060395/chapters/86144167

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jowwdii · 3 years

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Minnesota - A merhayes story

Hey, so this my take on episode 3 and what I think should’ve happened.

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Meredith is back from Minnesota after accepting the offer of Dr. Hamilton. Even though she has to let go of the role of residency director, she’s happy that she’s giving it back to Richard. She was excited on this new journey she was doing whether it be flying back and fourth from Seattle to Minnesota, she knew that this was right. However, she didn’t count on bumping into Nick, her former patient, but with this encounter she figured out that when it came to her having feelings for him, they were gone.

They had a conversation about what was happening in their life and she mentioned Hayes. She said that they have been dating for a while, but had to break things off because of his son Austin, but she was hoping that when he’s adjusted to the idea that his dad is able to date, that she’s be his first option, just like he was for her.

Flashback:

Nick: “So you’re holding on to something that you may not know may work out?”

Meredith: “Yeah, he’s the one that helped me when I was in the coma. He told me to fight for my kids.”

“I see now, so there isn’t really a chance for me then, I suppose?”

“I’m sorry, but we connect on a level that I haven’t felt in a while. It’s like we both know the pain we’ve been through, and my kids like him. And every time I’m with him it’s like my world is that much better.”

End of Flashback

As she’s walking down the hallways, she hears that heavy Irish accent that just makes her stomach burst into butterflies. She already talked to him about Minnesota, but she failed to mention that she went on a “date” with Nick. She was planning on telling him today and that it was nothing more than that. That she saw that he was her endgame.

As she’s walking towards his way, she notices him talking to a red head, Megan Hunt. They were laughing, and it made her jealous, however; she had to push back her feelings since they weren’t together. She wasn’t expecting it, but Hayes is a really attractive man, so she should expect every girl at the hospital to jump at him.

Meredith: “Hello”

Hayes didn’t expect her to be back so soon from her trip from Minnesota, but he was happy about it, he was thrilled. Being able to just see and smell her scent was every thing he needed to make his day.

“Grey, I didn’t expect you to be here so soon”

“Well, here I am. Hey, Megan”

“Hey, Meredith. Hayes and I were just talking about my abdominal wall transplant, and how I think it’s my own idea that won you your Harper Avery. Well anyways I’ll see you guys around, I have to go talk to Owen”. As she left, she patted Hayes’s shoulder which made Meredith a bit more jealous, hoping her poker face would hide her actually true feelings.

However, Hayes, knew something was up since he knew that she didn’t say anything after. Plus he saw her face once Megan touched his shoulder. He chuckled at her.

“What’s so funny Hayes?”

“If I didn’t know any better, I’d say your jealous Grey.”

“Me, jealous? Never. Plus you’d guys would make a cute couple.”

“Oh really, well I was planning to ask her out for a drink. What do you think, Grey?”

As he said that, her face turned red. She didn’t know what was coming over her. All she knew was that she didn’t like the idea that Hayes would go on a date with someone else .

“Can we talk somewhere privately, Mac.”

Once he noticed that she used his first name, he knew something was up. It was like his stomach dropped, hoping that it wasn’t bad news. He was still grappling with the idea that he was going to see her less after she told him that she accepted the offer and that she was going to fly back and fourth every week.

“Let’s go to my office.” He said as he motioned her to follow him. It was dead silence as they were walking towards the elevator heading towards the Peds Floor where his office was at. He was thinking about the things she could tell him. Whether it be she met another man over there, or if she’s done waiting for him.

As they head towards the office he finally asks:

“Grey, is it something I should be worried about”

“Yes and no, well I don’t know. Just hear me out and you can decide for yourself.”

As he opens the door of his office to let her in, she’s starting to get more nervous and she’s now thinking if this was the right way to go. She was so close into not telling him anything, but he already shut the door, so there was not going back.

“You seem anxious Grey. Do you want a drink?” As he was pulling out his half empty bottle of Irish whiskey he had in his drawer. Maybe this would help ease the nerves and the tension all built inside of her.

“Yes, I’d like that.” As he pours the drinks into the foam coffee cups he usually steals from the attending lounge, she’s just taking in his presence. Even though she’s staring at him, she’s in awe of the man he is.

“So, what’s the thing you needed to talk to me about?” He finally asks while handling her the drink.

“Well….the thing is” she states before taking a big sip from the cup he just gave her.

As she’s finishing her story about Nick and her response to saying how she’s wouldn’t be with him because there was someone else, that someone being him, was a big relief to Hayes. He understood that no matter what, he made an impact on her , as much as she did to him. He understood what happened and just had a big smile on his face.

“So that’s that. I hope you’re not mad at me Mac.”

“Why would I be mad, Meredith. You just told me that I am the person you want and turned down a guy who is plain simply also in awe of you.”

As he’s saying that, he’s moving a bit closer to Meredith, trying to close the gap in between them, since they were talking standing up. She noticed the small gesture and she did the same .

“Look Mer, i know it’s hard not being together cause of my son Austin, and it’s that much painful for me than it is for you, but once I get this situation sorted through, I hope you say yes to me giving you a proper dinner date.”

“I would love that, Cormac.”

As they are both looking at each other eye to eye, with the gap closed. He took his chance to seal the deal. He cupped her face with his hands and gave her a kiss, something that he wanted to do forever. Stunned by the kiss, she melted into his arms. As the kiss started to take its turn into being a more passionate one, his hands on her waist, and her hands around his neck, he pulled away, knowing that if he would’ve let it keep on going for a bit longer , things would’ve heated up and they’d be on the couch of his office fully naked. She also realized that and just sighed.

“I hope it’s not too much longer, until I get to call you mine, Grey.”

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jowwdii · 3 years

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PREACH!

when it comes to seasons 16 and the new season 18 of greys anatomy, I have some things to say ….

I understand that they’re hyping up the idea of Mer and Nick but it gets to the point where it just feels forced , like I wouldn’t be mad that they were dating back in season 14-15, but they didn’t have him back and it’s like why have her go back with someone where she’s already interested in someone else.

My issue comes with the fact that they built up merhayes for legit two years and the fact that they just threw away that concept makes it so tiring because it just seems like they’re just recycling the fact that she hasn’t found her Derek replacement. The thing is, Derek is Derek and there’s no one like him, they might as well have her end with someone that understands that even though she lost someone that meant so much they wouldn’t be able to replace them and they accept the fact. Which is why I always rooted for Nathan and Hayes. They understand that they both lost people who they considered they’re “Derek” they would never expect their lover to fill that spot.

When it comes to Nick, it just seems like they’re trying to find another Derek when that can’t happen. Just have her be with Hayes because at the point they actually understand each other, get each other, but also the fact that they’re able to be independent. When it comes to Nick, it just feels like a creep when he knows so much or tries so hard to get her attention and what not. Like sir it wasn’t cute camping out her hotel room or even being at the hospital where she is potentially going to work for in order to cure Parkinson’s.

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THIS FIC PATCHED MY HEARTBROKEN MERHAYES HEART A BIT💕

Hi there! I hope this prompt finds you well💕: Hayes missing Meredith and calling Her every night while he was away for a weeklong conference.

I'm finally back to writing! This is a nearly 5k fic and I really hope you guys enjoy

These Days Are So Long When I Call You My Home - Merhayes

Day One

Meredith sighed, slopping back into the chair in her office and checked her phone for the 30th time that day. Cormac was leaving for a week-long conference in New York. It was the longest they would have been apart since they’d gotten together, and Meredith hadn’t realised how much she was going to end up missing him. He’d popped down to her house yesterday night to say goodbye but that already felt like weeks ago. Meredith had grown used to having a cup of coffee in the mornings with him, whether that was at the hospital or one of their homes, she was used to him trying to sneak a kiss in whenever he saw her in the corridor. His presence in her life had become a constant that she had looked forward to each morning she woke up.

With some determination, Meredith placed her phone down on her desk, face down. She hadn’t felt like this in a long time. That feeling of longing, of wanting to be around someone, the feeling of safety where you were in their proximity.

Realising that there was no point in fighting against the feeling that continued to well inside of her, Meredith picked up her phone, found Cormac’s number and hit call. She only had to wait for two rings before a smooth, Irish lilt filled the line causing every bit of tension Meredith was holding in her muscles to release.

“Meredith, is everything alright?” Cormac’s concerned tone immediately made Meredith feel guilty and stupid for calling him.

“Hey, no no, everything is good, sorry.”

“It’s okay, I just got a bit worried when I saw your name on the screen. I thought you’d be at work.”

Meredith bit her lip; she was at work and there wasn’t a problem so was she really going to admit to Cormac why she had called? “I am. I finished up in surgery, so I came back to my office and… I miss you.”

There. She had said it. It was out in the open now. There wasn’t any point hiding things from Cormac, he had the knack of knowing exactly what was going on in her head without her even having to say anything.

“You know that I’m still at the airport, right? In Seattle?” From the mirth in his voice, Meredith knew that he was grinning right now. She wasn’t going to hear the end of this from him but right now, she didn’t care.

Sighing, Meredith kicked off her trainers and walked over to the sofa, tucking her feet under her as she took a seat on it. “I know, I know… It just felt weird. Not having you there when I woke up or seeing you at work this morning. I didn’t think I would miss you this much but it’s like losing my right arm or something… It’s stupid.” She mumbled the last part.

“It isn’t stupid, Meredith because I’ve been feeling the same. But it’s seven days and when I get back, you, me and the kids will all go out and do something together. I’m pretty sure Austin was on about a circus that’s coming into town, we can make a proper day of it, the seven of us.”

If anyone had told Meredith Grey that she would be part of a family of seven back in her intern year she probably would have laughed in their face. Now, the thought of the seven of them all bundled together around a dinner table, spending days out together, was enough to make her smile. Finding a way to blend their two families together hadn’t always been easy, but over the course of the past few months, the kids had begun to share a relationship and bond that only siblings could have and they’d more than warmed up to their parent’s other half.

“I like the sound of that.”

“It’s a done deal then.”

In the background of the call, Meredith could hear a cracking female voice as Cormac paused for a moment. “That’s the call to my gate. Sorry, Mer, I’m going to have to go.”

“Have a safe flight and please text when you land.” Flying was something that Meredith was never going to feel comfortable with and there was just as much anxiety coursing through her when someone she loves was boarding a plane. She knew that she wasn’t going to feel completely at ease until Cormac’s plane had landed in JFK and she’d had a text from his as confirmation.

“I promise I will. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Day Two

As she untangled her braids that had been carefully formed on the top of her head, Meredith made herself comfy on an unabandoned gurney pushed against the wall of a deserted corridor. She knew that the surgery would be risky, the patient had gone in knowing exactly what the statistics were but that never really lessened the blow of losing someone on the table. Crossing her legs on the gurney, Meredith let her head fall back against the wall and closed her eyes. All she wanted to do right now was go home and squeeze her kids tight, but she still had another four hours left of her shift.

The feeling of her phone vibrating against her thigh nearly made her groan. She just needed five minutes of being on her own before she had to step back into the shoes of a surgeon again. This job didn't work like that though and Meredith was well aware. Slipping her phone out of her pocket relief immediately washed over her when she realised that it wasn't a page and instead was her boyfriend texting to ask if she was free to call. In a split second, she had hit the facetime button, needing to see his face.

And there he was, soft smile, sleepy eyes, wearing a white shirt.

"Hey, bub," the stupid nickname that had started as a joke to wind Meredith up had now stuck. Whilst she used to yell at him to stop, the endearment now brought a smile to her face.

"Hey, how are you doing?"

"Exhausted and missing you." Meredith couldn't help but laugh at Cormac's small pout.

“Only five more days.”

“Aye but the days are dragging, can’t say that this conference is the most interesting thing in the world.”

“I thought you were looking forward to this one.” Cormac had been ongoing on about the International Conference for Paediatric Brain Injury for weeks in the run-up to this trip.

“I still am but the past two days haven’t given me any new information. Tomorrow should be better though.”

Meredith nodded along as he spoke, trying and failing to stile a yawn. “How’s your day been? Did the surgery go alright?” Concern laced his voice. Meredith had texted him that morning about the surgery and he knew that it was a tricky one/

“It… He didn’t make it…” Meredith squeezed her eyes shut, her voice a whisper.

Cormac winced, he could hear the pain, see the exhaustion in her body. He wished for nothing more than to be able to hold her right now, but a video call was going to have to be what he settled for.

“I’m sorry, Mer, can I do anything?”

Meredith shook her head a tired smile on her lips. “I’ll be fine. My shift is over in a few hours and I’m just gonna head straight home and watch a movie with the kids.”

“Well, there are two new tubs of strawberry ice cream in your freezer for you lot to enjoy.”

“I thought I ran out the other day.”

“You did and you complained to me about it the entire way home from work so I made sure you were stocked up before I left.”

It was things like that, the small day-to-day things that could easily be brushed off that made Meredith fall harder for him.

After another five minutes, their call was interrupted by an emergency page.

“I’m gonna have to go, they need me at the Pit.” Meredith was feeling a little more rejuvenated after being able to see Cormac. Her chest no longer feeling so heavy

“Go and take care. I love you, bub.”

Meredith had slipped off the gurney and had begun to make her way to the Pit, “I love you too, I’ll text after work!”

Day Three

Cormac finally shut the lid of his laptop, laying back against the pillow. The conference had definitely ramped up compared to the past two days and he’d found the day go by much quicker. He’d made note of all the papers he wanted to read into after going to some poster presentations and listening to a few talks. He’d started the on the list after he’d had dinner.

It was 9 PM now and he knew that back in Seattle, Meredith should be done with work and back home. He hadn’t expected to miss her as much as he had over the past three days. He had grown accustomed to getting through life with just himself and his boys and as they had gotten older, he’d grown used to having to do more things by himself. With Meredith entering his life though, Cormac had found that there were now fewer and fewer things that he had to get through by himself. He now had someone that he was able to lean on and he wasn’t sure he could go back to the way things were.

Pulling his phone off charge, Cormac rang Meredith straight away. The disappointment began to well in him as the phone continued to ring.

“Hey!” The sound of Meredith’s voice immediately perked Cormac up.

“Mer, hey. I hope you’re not busy?” He was slightly worried that he’d caught her in the middle of some time with her kids, although he was pretty sure they all had some kind of extra-curricular activity going on tonight. He pretty much knew their schedules off by heart at this point.

“No no, I think the boys are good for a minute.”

“The boys?” Cormac asked slightly confused.

“Austin and Liam came around earlier, they needed some help with homework so we’ve been sat at the dining room table for a little while now, but I think we all need a break. I forgot how much I hate AP World History.”

Cormac chuckled, “Yeah, I’m glad I got out of that one. I hope you don’t mind the boys coming down?” He’d rang them this morning before they’d gone to school and had texted them frequently throughout the day to check up on them, not that he got replies very often.

“No, I told them they could come down while you were away if they needed anything. I just hadn’t expected them to take me up on the offer.” Meredith was still worried that the Hayes’ boys didn’t like her and were just putting up with her for their father’s sake.

Cormac chuckled, “You know, I think there are days where they like you more than me. They definitely think you’re cooler than me.”

Scoffing, Meredith shook her head, “I mean… it’s not like that a high bar to reach…”

“Ooft, you do wonders for my ego, Grey.” He gently teased. “Seriously though, they love hearing about your surgeries and your awards. They think you like some kind of surgical Rockstar.”

Musical laughter filled Cormac's ear as Meredith remembered a time when Christina had said something similar during their residency. Surgical rockstars, surgical royalty, isn’t that what they had all aspired to at the start of their careers? They wanted those accolades from award governing bodies and medical journals but somehow, knowing that two teenage boys thought that of her meant so much more to Meredith.

“Meredith, could you help me with this trig question?”

Cormac could hear the voice of his youngest. He was pretty sure he had taught them not to yell when people were on the phone. He was glad that. His boys had become so comfortable around Meredith though, evident by the fact that they’d gone to her house without him even being there.

“Yeah, be there in a second. Do you guys want to talk to your dad?” Her voice sounded more distant as she pulled the phone away from her ear.

There was a little mumbling before Meredith spoke again, “The boys want to talk so I’m gonna give the phone to them for a bit.”

“Sounds good, I’ll text you after if they don’t give the phone back?” Knowing his kids, they’d be in such a rush to get off the phone that they would end the call before even asking if he wanted to talk to Meredith again.

“Yeah, sounds like a plan to me.”

“I love you, Mer.”

“I love you too.”

Day Four

Cormac made a swift from the ballroom of the hotel. They’d rearranged the furniture, laying out white clothed tables for a dinner organised by the convention. Another networking opportunity and the chance to get a fancy meal that the attendees didn’t have to pay for. It definitely wasn’t something to complain about. Usually, Cormac didn’t mind the dinners. Most of the time, the nights would be filled with mindless chatter and whatever whiskey they had at the bar. Tonight though, he was out of his seat the minute dessert was finished.

The night hadn’t started off badly, just like most of the other conference dinners. But then he saw Felix Cavanaugh in the crowd before coming to sit opposite him. Seeing him had made Cormac’s body go numb, his breath catching in his throat. It was a face he hadn’t seen in a while; one he hadn’t thought he would see anytime soon. Cormac and Felix had been in the same residency class and had grown to be good friends. Whilst Cormac had pursued paediatric surgery, Felix had moved towards neuro. Eventually, their specialities had them moving to opposite coasts after finishing their residency. At first, the two of them had kept in touch but after Abigail’s diagnosis, Cormac had cut off contact with most people, his sole focus on keeping his family afloat and his wife alive.

Both men had been in shock to see each other but whilst Felix had been excited, Cormac had a sense of dread filling him. News about Abi hadn’t exactly been widespread, and Felix had come in asking a whole manner of questions about work and the kids and Abigail. When Cormac had told him what had happened, he saw the look of pity on Felix’s face, and it was too much to handle. The feeling of grief began to overwhelm him, the room suddenly felt too small. For three courses, Cormac had managed to keep a plastic smile on his face, the chats with Felix had basically drawn to a close and Cormac dashed to his room the minute that he was able to.

He tugged the tie off his neck, unbuttoning the top two buttons of his shirt, hoping that he would find it easier to breathe. Sitting on the edge of his bed, Cormac rubbed his hands across his face. His eyes were burning, jaw clenched. The feeling of grief never completely left but it had been a long time it had hit Cormac this hard, like a sucker punch. He reached for his phone in his trouser pocket, calling Meredith without a second thought.

“Hello?” A groggy and confused voice answered the call making Cormac feel guilty.

“Mer, sorry, I didn’t mean to… Did I wake you up?”

“Huh,” Meredith blinked a few times, pushing herself up and leaning on the pillows against the arm of the sofa. “Hey, sorry, I kind of took a nap after work.”

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you. You go back to sleep; we can talk later.” The apologies feel in quick succession out of Cormac’s mouth.

“No, it’s okay, honestly. I’m awake, if I sleep anymore, there’s no way I’m getting to sleep tonight. Is everything okay?” Fully awake, Meredith was able to register the distress in her boyfriend’s voice.

“I-I don’t know,” hearing the crack in his voice was enough to make Meredith’s heartbreak and panic set in.

“Do you want to talk about it?”

Cormac rubbed his eyes with the heel of his palm. He didn’t want to cry, not right now. He wasn’t sure he was going to be able to start if he carried on. “There was this guy at dinner, I did my residency with him…” Once Cormac had finished telling Meredith everything he felt as though he had exhausted every energy pool within him. His throat felt dry and scratchy and at some point, tears had begun to stream down his face, and he didn’t even bother wiping them away.

“Cormac…”

“I’m sorry. I feel awful coming to talk to you about this but… I didn’t know how else to go to.”

“Please don’t say sorry. I’m glad you came to me; you should be able to come to me about things like this.” They’d spoken to each other a lot about Abigail and Derek in the early days of getting to know each other and whilst they weren’t brought up in conversation as often these days, the two of them still shared the same kind of loss. “There are still people that come into the hospital asking for Derek and every time it happens it feels like someone had taken all the oxygen out of the room. I know that it can feel like reliving the worst parts of your life.”

“I hate it, Meredith. I hate this feeling and I wish it could stop.” Meredith had never heard his voice sound so small, so childlike and she wished she could do something to protect him from those feelings.

“I know, I know. You know I’d do anything to take this away from you… Can I do anything?”

There were a few moments of silence down the line which made Meredith even more worried.

“I’m just exhausted, Mer. I want to sleep but I can’t… when it’s quiet, everything just plays around in my head. I get it to calm down and it feels like something is crushing my chest.”

The feeling of helplessness was not one that Meredith was akin to. It wasn’t very often that she faced a situation where she had nothing in her arsenal to help with. In the end, there was only one thing that Meredith was able to come up with.

“How about I stay on the phone with you. I can read you a medical journal so it’s not quiet and you can try and get some sleep. And if not, then you know that I’m right there for you.”

“I can’t ask you to do that… the kids…”

“You aren’t asking me to do anything, I’m offering, and the kids are with Maggie and Winston for ice cream.”

“Are you sure?” Cormac had already begun to kick off his shoes and crawl under the covers. He didn’t even have the will to change into pyjamas.

“I’m sure, you comfy?” Meredith reached for a journal on top of the coffee table and flipped to the last dog-eared page. “Because this is a good one.”

“I’m comfy, and Mer?”

“Hm?”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Day Five

A day off on the weekend was like gold dust. 24 hours where Meredith was able to spend time with her kids without having to worry about pages or school drop-offs. The four of them alongside Austin and Liam were sprawled out across Meredith’s living room floor watching Jurassic Park.

It hadn’t taken long for Cormac to eventually fall asleep last night but even then, Meredith stayed on a little while longer to make sure that he wasn’t going to wake up. She’d kept her phone within reach and on loud all night. They’d text since she had woken up and Cormac seemed to be feeling a little better, but Meredith knew that it would take a few days for the sinking feeling of grief to dampen down to a more manageable level again. Not being able to be with his kids probably wasn’t helping either.

With the kids entranced with the film and Liam keeping Bailey entertained with dinosaur facts, Meredith felt the muscles in her body finally relax. Domestic comfort wasn’t something that she had thought would be in her life back when she was young, but she was now lucky enough to experience that kind of love and comfort every day when she got home. A serene smile was placed on her lips as she looked at the five kids under her care.

The ringtone from her phone pulled Meredith out of her thoughts though. Zola swivelled around to give her mum a quick glare. “You said no phones during films!”

“Sorry, Zo-Zo, it’s just Cormac.”

“Da?” Liam looked up from his conversation with Bailey.

“He’s facetiming if you all want to come over here.”

Suddenly a gaggle of kids was upon her. Ellis had clambered onto her lap, Liam and Austin had sat behind her on the sofa and Bailey and Zola were sat on the floor on either side of her. Once they were all in place, Meredith accepted the call.

“He- Oh wow!” Cormac eyes widened and a large grin spread across his face when he saw all of the kids.

“Hey, guys!”

There was a blur of hi’s, hello’s and how are you’s as all of them began to talk at the same time making Meredith and Cormac laugh. In the end, Meredith decided to let each of the kids take the phone to talk to him, passing it to Liam and Austin first. Ellis was the last one, who was happily chatting to Cormac about the new dress her mum had bought her for a talent show.

“Do ya mind if I talk to your mum for a bit, sweetheart?”

Ellis gave it some thought before finally nodding her head. “Okay, bye-bye, Mac!”

“Bye, Ellis!”

Ellis passed back the phone to Meredith and crawled off her lap to join the other kids. All of them were again engrossed in the movie. Meredith got up out of her seat and wandered into the kitchen.

“Hey, how are you feeling today?”

Cormac gave a half-hearted shrug. “Eh, okay, better than last night.” He sighed, “Thank you for everything.”

“You don’t need to say thank you, it’s what I’m here for.”

“Mom, come on! You’re missing the best part!” Bailey’s voice was loud enough to be heard throughout the entire house.

“You’ve been summoned?” Cormac chuckled.

“I should go before he starts a riot.” Meredith had learned to expect the unexpected when it came to her kids and Bailey was sometimes in an entirely different ballpark.

“I’ll leave you to that, I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Day Six

“I just can’t believe how well the kids get on.”

After coming back home after a late-night finish, Meredith had text Cormac just to let him know that she got home safely. She hadn’t expected a text back asking if she was up for a phone call. He had stayed up, waiting for her to come home since they hadn’t had a chance to talk that day.

“Would you rather them be at each other’s throat?” Cormac asked.

“Could you imagine? No, thanks.” Meredith rolled onto her stomach on her bed. “I guess I just wasn’t expecting them to slot into everything the way they have. I mean, I know that they have their small arguments but…”

“Feel like it just came too easily?”

Meredith murmured in agreement. Nothing in her life had ever come easily and it had felt strange that something as big as this had been so straightforward. She gnawed on her lip as she thought about all the ways this could go wrong.

“Hey, I can hear your gears turning from here. Please don’t give into to the thought.”

“The thoughts?” Meredith raised a browed, temporarily forgetting all the catastrophic situations that had been playing in her mind.

“The dark, twisty thoughts.” He had taken the phrase that Meredith had used to describe the early days in residency. “Don’t give into them. Let’s just be thankful that for the first time in a long time, something has been easy.”

Processing his words, Meredith slowly agreed with him. “I guess so.”

“Isn’t life a little nicer when you aren’t trying to guess what’s going wrong?”

“I’m sorry but since when did you become a beacon of positivity and sunshine?” Cormac wasn’t exactly known for his positive demeanour in the hospital.

He chuckled lowly, “I guess that’s what love does to you.”

“Oh gosh,” Meredith rolled her eyes. “Please, I don’t think I’m going to cope if you become all lovestruck and mushy.”

“I thought you’d like lovestruck and mushy.”

“Brooding and moody seems more my type these days,” she teased.

“Moody?” Cormac feigned offence.

“Uh, do you not remember the way you were when you first started?”

“Well, there was a certain doctor there than insisted on pushing all of my buttons.”

It was something that they constantly teased each other about. Whilst it had surprised them both when feelings had begun to develop, everyone around them had been waiting with bated breath for them to get together.

“I stopped think about the future after Abigail passed,” Cormac voice had dipped. “Stopped hoping and living. I was just in survival mode. Trying to get through one day at a time and just making sure that the boys were okay. You put everything I knew on its head. Made me feel like it was okay to be happy again. My world stopped crumbing when you entered my life, Meredith Grey, and between the two of us and the kids, we’re rebuilding it again.”

The silence down the end of the phone call had made Cormac think that Meredith had gone to sleep but then he heard quiet sniffling. “Mer?”

“You’re an idiot who makes me cry.”

“An idiot that you love though?”

“Yeah, for some unknown reason…”

Day Seven

Meredith had been praying the entire day that an emergency wouldn’t come into the pit. Usually, she would love the adrenaline rush that came with a full Pit and back-to-back surgeries but not today. Cormac was meant to be landing this evening and she was rallying the kids down to his house so that they could all have dinner together. The day was passing by unbearably slowly though. Even surgeries that flew by seemed to be agonisingly long.

Two surgeries in and lunch done, Meredith had walked back to her office. Her afternoon rounds didn’t start for another twenty minutes so she had some time to collect the files that she needed and update a few charts. Checking the time on her watch, Meredith realised that Cormac should be at the airport by now since his flight would be taking off in an hour.

Entering her office, Meredith slipped out her phone from her lab coat and rang Cormac. Turns out she couldn’t wait until he got back home to talk to him.

“Hey, Mer.” Meredith still couldn’t understand the effect that Cormac’s voice had on her. The way it made her feel calm and safe.

“Hey. Sorry, I know you’re going to be boarding your flight soon, but I just wanted to hear your voice.”

“Missing me?” He teased her, a cockiness in his voice.

Meredith huffed out a breath, “You know, I could just put this phone down?”

“Aw, come on now. You don’t want to do that; I promise I’ll be on my best behaviour.”

Scoffing, Meredith walked over to the window, her free hand in her coat pocket. “Fat chance of that happening.”

“I’ll have you know that I can behave when I want to, you just bring out the worst in me. Always have and always will.”

“So, this is my fault?”

“Oh, completely and utterly.” He chuckled before softening his tone, “What are you up then?”

“Still at work, this day doesn’t want to end.”

“Anything exciting happened?’

“Well, the cafeteria changed the dressing on the salad… not sure if I like it or not though.”

“I’m surprised you even went for the salad.”

Crinkling her nose, Meredith grimaced. “It wasn’t out of choice; it was one of the only things left.”

Laughing, Cormac shook his head. “Of course, don’t know why I expected anything else. What are you up to now then?”

“Hiding away in my office. Rounds don’t start for a little while yet and I just wanted to call you.”

“It won’t be long until I’m back.”

Sighing, Meredith rand a hand through her hair, “It’s long enough and knowing my luck, I’ll be pulled into surgery just before it’s time to go home.”

“Could be sooner than you think.”

Meredith jumped as she felt a kiss placed on her cheek, almost dropping her phone out of her hand. She spun around; a grin painted on her face the minute she saw her boyfriend stood in front of her.

“What are you-? I thought- How are you here?”

Cormac brushed a stay hair out of Meredith’s face, “I got an early flight out. There weren’t any other talks I needed to stay around for, so I didn’t see the point of spending any more time away from my family.”

Meredith would never admit how her heart skipped a beat when he called her and her kids’ part of his family. The momentary shock now gone, Meredith wrapped her arms around Cormac’s neck, inhaling the woodsy scent of his cologne.

“I’ve missed you so much,” she mumbled into his shoulder.

“I’ve missed you too, bub. You have no idea how much I love you.” He squeezed her, holding her close.

“I love you too.”

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Thoughts on Grey’s Anatomy: 18X01

SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

I was really excited for the Premiere and I have never been so disappointed in my life. It took me a few days to write this review because I’m just so unimpressed. I feel like the only interesting parts of the Season 18 Premiere were the Meredith and Hayes FaceTime call, Levi in that outfit and Jo with that hair, and the interviews. That’s it. I mean Teddy and Owen’s two weddings were interesting if you’re a Teddy and Owen shipper, but I never have been so that didn’t really do anything for me.

The pacing of the episode was super slow and it was just altogether boring. There were also just so many inconsistencies. For example, Teddy and Owen originally planned to get married at the park with just Megan, Farouk, Evelyn, Leo, and Allison which doesn’t make sense because prior to their break up they were talking about planning their dream wedding. Now they finally get married and Richard didn’t even know about it? They asked Megan to fly in, but they didn’t tell their friends at the hospital after they just all attended Maggie and Winston’s wedding two weeks earlier?

It’s also not clear if Meredith knows that they got married which is weird because she’s the main character of the show and was an integral part of Owen’s previous two weddings one of which was held at her house. Also, Amelia and Link weren’t there and it’s not clear if they even knew about the wedding which is weird because Meredith, Amelia, and Link were all present when Owen proposed to Teddy at Christmas at Meredith’s house and they are all co-parenting Leo together.

While I appreciated the shift to a lighter tone and that they chose to have this season exist in a post-COVID alternative universe where we can see the actors faces again without the PPE and return to escapism the Premiere didn’t pack the punch I was expecting. The premieres are usually super shocking and action packed and this one just wasn’t. It was just boring and all of the most interesting stuff happened off camera during the two weeks between the Season 17 Finale and the Season 18 Premiere which is just stupid.

I saw the priest getting hit by one of the cyclists coming a few minutes before it happened based on the promo and the context of the scene and there wasn’t a big shocking event like there usually is. The pace of the Premiere really felt off to me. My friend Amy who I watch with every week described it as the pacing you usually associate with a nice stroll through a moonlit garden. Fine for episode two or three or a connecting episode but not the Premiere. I feel like they really misjudged what fans were looking for and I’m hoping that they do the work and course correct now that the Premiere has aired and the completely dismal fan reaction as come out.

One of the few bright spots for me was the introduction of Peter Gallagher as Dr. David Hamilton. I love him as an actor! He’s great! His recent roles in Grace and Frankie and Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist were fantastic! I was super excited when I heard he was coming to Grey’s. I like Dr. Hamilton so far and I’m interested to see how his relationship with Ellis and Meredith having dreams about her mother following her battle with COVID will play into the story this season. While it would be interesting to see Meredith work in Minnesota temporarily like Cristina did back in Season 9, I don’t want her there permanently. Seattle is as much a character in the show as any of the main characters we’ve come to love, and something would be missing for me if she moved.

To be perfectly honest, it doesn’t make much sense to me for Meredith to move to Minnesota permanently when she only knows a few people there. Who would watch her kids? If she’s going to move to me, it makes more sense for her to move to Kansas where Alex is or Switzerland where Cristina is. Her kids have already lost their father and so many other caregivers and Meredith has stuck it out in Seattle for so long after everything that’s happened that her moving to Minnesota for me would be bonkers.

Also, where were her kids in the Premiere? All of the interviews that came out prior to the Premiere talked about how Meredith’s focus at the beginning of the season would be on her work and her kids, but they were nowhere to be found in the Premiere and it’s not clear whose watching them while Meredith is in Minnesota. The interviews also made it seem like Meredith and Hayes would still be circling each other at the start of the season with quotes about how timing hadn’t been on their side, that they still needed to have an official drink and go out on a date, and that while Meredith wasn’t looking for a relationship one might find her.

That had literally nothing to do with the Premiere we saw whatsoever! The kids were MIA and it turned out that Meredith and Hayes started dating off screen following Maggie and Winston’s wedding and we didn’t get to see ANY of the firsts they talked about so much over the last two seasons. So stupid. The Premiere was a total rip off. I hate that Nick Marsh is back and I’ve never gone from liking a character and an actor to hating them in such a short period of time ever. My God. I’m so pissed off about this. What the hell were they thinking? Why did they think we would want this at all?

Don’t get me wrong, I loved Nick Marsh as a character and Scott Speedman’s portrayal of him when he first showed up in Season 14. I was all ready for him to be Meredith’s next great love and I was on board. But then he disappeared and was never heard from again and it was reported that Speedman wanted to take a break from TV for a while so I mourned the loss of what could have been and moved on. I sat through the out of character nonsense that was the DeLuca storyline in the belief that eventually that storyline would end, and Meredith would get a real proper love interest that made sense and would be her post-Derek endgame.

So, I was really excited when they introduced Hayes and I have really come to love his character and his budding relationship with Meredith. I feel like I’ve been waiting forever to finally see them go on a date and I am super pissed off that we didn’t get to see it. I would have loved this storyline with Nick if they had introduced it at any previous point in time, but now after they’ve spent so much time setting up Meredith and Hayes it’s just infuriating. I feel immense rage over how they handled Meredith and Hayes and Meredith and Nick’s storylines in the Premiere. I’m so angry. The whole thing just made no sense. That Premiere should never have aired. It never should have gotten past the draft stage. It was that bad. The first date and all of the firsts that come with a new relationship are the most exciting parts of a romantic storyline for me and I love seeing all of that on screen. They hyped Meredith and Hayes’ relationship up so much and even had the two of them talk about ‘firsts’ and dating after death so for their first date to happen off screen along with Austin’s panic attacks and bad reaction to his Dad starting to date again is just such a rip off.

I have stuck with this show through thick and thin and for them to reward that loyalty by having the most interesting parts of that storyline happen off screen while showing a bunch of stuff on screen with other characters that they could have just told us about? So ridiculous. I was so excited for this season and now I’m just angry. I’m hoping that they are building to a big mid-season finale where Meredith is going to return to Seattle and by that time Bailey will have helped Hayes out with Austin and the two of them will finally get together on screen but I’m starting to feel like every time I get invested in one of the Meredith’s new love interests, they pull the rug out from under me and I’m getting really fed up.

In other news, I’m not too surprised that Megan and Riggs broke up off screen only because Virgin River, which I love, just got picked up for two more seasons and I imagine Martin Henderson is busy filming that and it looks like Megan is going to be around for a while and they had to explain it somehow. I loved Meredith and Riggs together and I hated how they ended that storyline so I’m not sad about them breaking up off screen.

The Premiere also broke my heart over Amelia and Link’s storyline. It’s just so stupid. It’s drama for drama’s sake that’s all it is and it’s tired. When did marriage become so important to Link? In the span of a few months, he went from being totally fine with not getting married and checking in with Amelia every few weeks on how she felt to convincing himself that Amelia wanted him to propose so he did so at her sister’s wedding and used her dead brother’s children to do it. Amelia’s right the whole thing was super messed up and manipulative and she was right to say no.

Link decided marriage was important to him and that fostering Luna would be totally fine without ever talking to Amelia. Yes, Amelia should have shared her thoughts with him too, but he also should have paid attention. Now their otherwise healthy relationship is over because she doesn’t want to participate in an archaic ritual that involves signing a contract and exchanging vows? That’s just stupid. I hope they find a way to work it out and get back together because I really like them as a couple.

I like Dr. Michelle Lin the new Head of Plastic of Surgery that Bailey and Richard are looking to hire. I thought for sure after that photo of the other guy made the rounds on social media that he was going to be the new Head of Plastics, but then he said that he doesn’t do “free” and I knew he was out. I’m excited for there to be another female surgeon of colour on the show as the gender and racial balance on the show has been more white and male as of late and I think Grey’s is at its best when you have a roughly equal number of women and men and as many different races being represented as possible.

I think it makes the storylines more interesting and authentic and personally gives me more characters that I can identify with. This new doctor seems driven, determined, and could have a potentially interesting dynamic with Richard and Bailey. She’s also giving me some Cristina Yang vibes and I’m all for that. I love Cristina. Always have. Always will. That being said, I’m a bit confused as to where they are going with Jo’s storyline as I thought for sure the new Head of Plastics would be a guy and her new love interest. But Bailey did say they still needed to hire a new general surgeon and a new neurosurgeon so maybe one of them will be for her?

I can’t really say that there was anything I loved about the Premiere which is disappointing. Jo’s parenting hair dye mishap was funny, Levi’s outfit cracked me up, and I liked that Bailey agreed to help Hayes out, but that’s about it. The thing I was most excited for coming into this season was Meredith finally being back on her feet and seeing the romantic storyline between her and Hayes finally come to fruition.

Finding out that she’s going to be in Minnesota for the foreseeable future, she and Hayes started dating off screen but had to call it quits because seeing his Dad date someone new caused Austin to have panic attacks, and finding out that Nick Marsh is back? I hated it. I don’t understand how the same person who wrote the Season 16 masterpiece “Snowblind” with that amazing snow scene between Meredith and Hayes wrote the Premiere. I just don’t understand. I really hope they’re not going to do a love triangle with Meredith, Hayes, and Nick because that would just be so stupid.

She’s a forty something award-winning surgeon who’s a widowed single mother of three. Love triangles made sense when she was young intern, but at this point it’s just dumb. I also didn’t feel the chemistry this time around between Meredith and Nick like I did the first time. It felt forced and flat. I like Maggie and Winston together, but I didn’t find their storyline in the Premiere particularly engaging. I’m glad that Amelia stayed true to herself, but I hate that Link has decided marriage is the only way forward and that they’re still fighting.

The only moment that really made me laugh out of the hour was when Jo opened the door and Levi was in that ridiculous outfit. I loved the FaceTime call between Meredith and Hayes, but I hated the context. Honestly, I’m not really excited about any upcoming storyline this season which makes me really sad. I’m usually super positive and hopeful when it comes to this show, but this episode just stomped all over my dreams. All I can hope for now is that they pull a twist and everything I was hoping for happens in the mid-season finale otherwise I don’t think I’m going to like this season very much.

Until next time!

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I would rather see this than see them clickbait another character comeback NOTE TO GREYS: UNLESS IT IS ALEX OR CRISTINA OR DEREK ARIZONA OR CALLIE THAT IS COMING BACK NOBODY CARES! I WOULD RATHER HAVE ADDIE AS THE SURPRISE COMEBACK

I think levi could help Austin cope with his panic attacks and anxiety.

I think Levi's always had a sorta underlining panic and I wish they would explore it more in depth, I think Levi interacting with Hayes could lead to Levi unknowingly offering some rather perfect yet accidental advice

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"Life doesn't have to be something that just happens to us."

-Guy

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Officially boycotting grey’s until Addisons comeback and when they put merhayes together.

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jowwdii · 3 years

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jowwdii · 3 years

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prompt: Meredith bonding with Liam

When You Need - Merhayes

Thank you so much for the prompt...enjoy...

“Hey” Meredith smiled, hoping her confusion was evident on her face, as she looked up to see Liam standing in the doorway of her office. He’d not been the person that she was expecting at all “Are you looking for your dad?”

“No, he’s in surgery” Liam replied, feeling as awkward as ever around Meredith. He wasn’t sure what it was about his father’s girlfriend that he didn’t like, what made her someone that he’d rather not spend time with but he’d promised to make an effort and he always stuck to his promises “I came to see you actually”

“Oh, alright” Meredith nodded, gathering the paperwork on her desk into a slightly neater pile, worried about what might have inspired the teen to stop by her office. She had no doubt about the fact it had to be something big. Liam stayed standing in the doorway, bouncing nervously on the balls of his feet until Meredith gestured to the chair across from her "Come in"

“Thanks” Liam mumbled, nodding his head once in Meredith’s direction. A gesture she couldn’t help but smile at, it was something his father did too when he was nervous and Meredith had always found it to be a rather endearing trait. Silence overcame the pair just like it did whenever they were left alone without Cormac’s attempts to start a conversation between them or Austin’s incessant chatter to avoid any awkward pauses.

It wasn’t that Meredith didn’t want to talk to Austin, it’s just that she didn’t know how to “Is everything okay? I know your dad said you were stopping by after school to wait in his office till he was ready to head home, did he leave it locked I know I have a spare key in here somewhere…”

“No, I just came from his office” Liam revealed before Meredith had the chance to start sorting through the various keys held together by an Ireland keyring. One he had seen his father pick up for her on their last trip there, Liam wasn’t sure why exactly it bothered him that not only did Meredith have a keyring from his father but also a key to his office but it did. It got under his skin in the way that only things relating to Meredith seemingly could and he let out a gentle sigh, remembering the fact he’d promised not only his father but his brother that he’d try to make more of an effort with her. Something Liam was only willing to do as long as Meredith did the dame “Like I said, I came to see you”

"Yeah, sorry" Meredith apologised, hating how frazzled she seemed. It really wasn't helping her quest t convince Liam that she was cool "What's up?"

“I, uh, I need some advice” Liam stumbled over his words before taking a steadying breath, he had come to Meredith for a reason and it was too important to let his embarrassment force him to back out “The school is saying it’s time to get serious about college applications and I have no idea what I want to be”

“I don’t know what I want to be either” Meredith admitted, shrugging her shoulders slightly. Her response clearly catching Liam off guard “I mean I used to think I wanted to be Cheif of Surgery here but now I don’t know if I ever want that and when I was your age? I wanted to be a lawyer?”

“Really?” Liam asked, his face scrunching up in disbelief “I thought doctoring was in your blood or something”

“Do you think it’s in yours?”

“I don’t know, I’m not the best around blood or sick people” Liam shook his head, and Meredith chuckled remembering the stories she’d heard about Liam trying to comfort Austin whenever he was sick or in pain. It never seemed that those moments brought comfort to either of them “I don’t want to be a doctor or a nurse, I would hate it”

“Well, at least we can rule that out” Meredith exclaimed, feeling like they were making progress “What are some other things you hate?”

“Maths and chemistry, so that probably rules out a lot of jobs” Liam replied, realizing what Meredith was doing. Everyone had been telling him to focus on what he liked, what he wanted to do but nobody had thought to help him narrow that down. Nobody but Meredith “I don’t mind art but I couldn’t do it every day like my mom did…”

“See we’ve already ruled out so many things!” Meredith smiled, glad to see Liam’s shoulders sag in relief. Clearly, this problem had been causing him quite a lot of stress, it was the only explanation as to why he’d be coming to her for help.

“I like English and history I guess” Liam admitted, sharing a smile with Meredith. She’d already suspected as much considering his nose always seemed to be buried in some sort of book when she was at her boyfriend’s place, she was just glad it was because he liked to read not just because it was a valid excuse to not engage with her “There’s probably some courses I can do with those right?”

“Quite a lot, I’m guessing” Meredith nodded, smiling when the silence that overcame them didn’t feel as awkward as it usually did. They were making progress “Plus it’s not like college is your only option, there are other things that you can do instead but that’s something I’d say you should talk to your dad about”

“I will, I think I’ll go back to his office now though. He should be finishing up in a few minutes” Liam nodded, checking the time on his phone. He was glad that he and Meredith had gotten to talk things out a bit, that she’d been able to offer him some guidance, but it didn’t mean he wanted to spend any longer than necessary in her office “Can you not tell my dad about this just yet? I don’t want him knowing I was stressing out…”

“Sure” Meredith nodded, both of them knowing it would be hard for her to keep this from Cormac. It was obvious that she wanted to beam about the moment they had just shared, Cormac would likely sense her happiness and question her immediately about it “As long as you remember that you can come to me any time okay? When you need me, I’m here”

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