Ficking awkward THAt my gf sees my sad post on my private and doesn't ask about it lol

Do I hurt myself even if my gf gets back on Sunday

I'm a fucking terrible person wow I'm fucking terrible

My head feels fucked

Nothing is calming me down

I'm being my own worst nightmare I don't know how to stop

It's been a while but I just needed somewhere to write

Six months worth of stress and self hatred are coming to the surface right now because I've been alone for the longest time since we started dating and I have three fucking nights left alone and it's just going to get worse and I don't know how to fucking cope

When you've lost all your vices and you're left with nothing but the razor... Fuck.

I can't sleep for some reason And I just watched a video of guys reading their old suicide notes that they didn't follow through with And it was beautiful But I wanted to read the one I wrote 12 months ago I couldn't remember what I said to everyone But I couldn't find it And now I am distraught Why does this upset me? I'm sorry :(

times are tough

another way out || hollywood undead

I always used to say I wanted to die before I was 30, I thought 30 was old and I didn't want to get old. Now I realise thirty is young but the pain I feel everyday feels like I've lived 100 years. How do people keep going, how do people keep living for such a long time. I've had 20 years of heartache and sadness I can't face another 1 let alone 40.

Like I fuxking obviously wasn't being serious I said it as in I'm bored with my life and want to procrastinate. Do you need to point out the fucking obvious wow. No friends No girlfriend Fuxking nothing Can't fucking wait to move the fuck out of here and never come back wow

Fucking so fucking alone wow

Me as people talk about going to soho for Gracie's bday: I wanna go out (jokingly) You: too bad you don't have any friends Wow Low Thanks. Sick Fuck you.

Just fucking want to die

Wishing I had sleeping pills so I could just fall asleep now and wake up when this is over.

I just don't understand how you go from such a kind, loving person to such a monster so fast.

Dear god please someone help me please fuck I've never needed to die as much as I do now I can't believe you betrayed me like that I can't believe you don't wan me I can't sliver you're leaving me please somebobd help please I want to die I can't breathe PLEAE EPLEASE someone's help old as sown dkd someone okeesbd