⤖   the  heavy  smell  of   𝐟𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫  𝐩𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐬   stroked  the  walls  of  my  lungs.

private   &   selective  ,    multi  -  fandommulti  -  muse ,    headcanon  based  ,  canon  flexible.    studying  themes  such  as  :    loss    &    rebirth  ,  human  nature  ,  undying  devotion  ,  the  beast  within  ,  found  family  ,  the  hero  complex  ,  forbidden  attachments  ,  hunter  vs  hunted  ,  survivor’s  guilt  ,  broken  promises  ,   &   new  beginnings.

cherished  by  darian  (  26  ,  she / they  ,  pst  )  

eddie’s got an albino bearded dragon named slayer. i wouldn’t be so depressed , but god pls i need gareth and jeff to go get slayer and raise her /: eddie’s gotta leave hawkins immediately. can’t take her but also can’t say bye to them , i think in vagueness he’ll try getting a message to them somehow , very cryptic , just so they know he’s okay

  *  𝐋𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐋  𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐋  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑.

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  *  𝚅𝙰𝙻𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙴,  𝚃𝙴𝚇𝙰𝚂  :

❛ let’s step careful into the dark. ❜ ❛ once we’re in, i’ll remember my way around. ❜ ❛ who will i become tonight. ❜ ❛ let’s drive out to where dust devils are made. ❜ ❛ glimmering by a fire. ❜

  *  𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶  𝙵𝙾𝚁  𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝙺𝙽𝙸𝙵𝙴  :

❛ i cry at the start of every movie. ❜ ❛ i wish i was making things too. ❜ ❛ i used to think i would tell stories. ❜ ❛ i always knew the world moves on, i just didn’t know it would go without me. ❜ ❛ i used to think i’d be done by twenty. ❜ ❛ the road ahead appears the same. ❜ ❛ i’ll see a way to change. ❜ ❛ i’m living for the knife. ❜ ❛ i always thought the choice was mine. ❜ ❛ i was right, but i just chose wrong. ❜ ❛ i start the day lying and end with the truth. ❜ ❛ that i’m dying for the knife. ❜

  *  𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚈  𝚂𝙾𝙵𝚃  :

❛ you grip it tight inside like a knife. ❜ ❛ here to take you where you need to go. ❜ ❛ to where the dark remembers you. ❜ ❛ open up your heart like the gates of hell. ❜ ❛ you stay soft, get beaten. ❜ ❛ only natural to harden up. ❜ ❛ you stay soft, get eaten. ❜ ❛ i am face down on my bed, still not quite awake. ❜ ❛ thinking of you. ❜

  *  𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚈𝙾𝙽𝙴  :

❛ everyone said don’t go that way. ❜ ❛ i think i’ll go that way. ❜ ❛ and i left the door open to the dark. ❜ ❛ i said come in, whatever you are. ❜ ❛ but it didn’t want me yet. ❜ ❛ i opened my arms wide to the dark. ❜ ❛ take it all, whatever you want. ❜ ❛ i didn’t know that i was young. ❜ ❛ i didn’t know what it would take. ❜ ❛ sometimes i think i am free. ❜ ❛ until i find i’m back in line again. ❜

  *  𝙷𝙴𝙰𝚃  𝙻𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃𝙽𝙸𝙽𝙶  :

❛ i’ve laid awake since one and now it’s four o'clock. ❜ ❛ though i’ve held on, can’t carry it much longer. ❜ ❛ the things all come an gone. ❜ ❛ and there’s nothing i can do. ❜ ❛ not much i can change. ❜ ❛ i give it up to you. ❜ ❛ i hope that’s okay. ❜ ❛ i surrender. ❜ ❛ feel a storm approaching. ❜ ❛ trees are swaying in the wind like sea anemones. ❜

  *  𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝙾𝙽𝙻𝚈  𝙷𝙴𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙱𝚁𝙴𝙰𝙺𝙴𝚁  :

❛ if you would just make one mistake. ❜ ❛ what a relief that would be. ❜ ❛ as long as we’re together. ❜ ❛ i’ll be the only heartbreaker. ❜ ❛ i’ll be the loser in this game. ❜ ❛ i’ll be the bad guy in the play. ❜ ❛ i’ll be the water main that’s burst and flooding. ❜ ❛ you’ll be by the window, only watching. ❜ ❛ i apologize. ❜ ❛ you forgive me. ❜ ❛ and make me the only heartbreaker. ❜

  *  𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴  𝙼𝙴  𝙼𝙾𝚁𝙴  :

❛ i won’t make the same mistake. ❜ ❛ i could be a new girl. ❜ ❛ i will be a new girl. ❜ ❛ i wish that this would go away. ❜ ❛ when i’m done singing this song, i will have to find something else. ❜ ❛ keep me here. ❜ ❛ here’s my hand. ❜ ❛ there’s the itch, but i’m not supposed to scratch. ❜ ❛ i need you to love me more. ❜ ❛ love me more. ❜ ❛ love enough to fill me up. ❜ ❛ love enough to drown it out. ❜ ❛ drown it out. ❜ ❛ drown me out. ❜ ❛ how do other people live? ❜ ❛ i wonder how they keep it up. ❜ ❛ when today is finally done, there’s another day to come. ❜ ❛ come back to mine. ❜ ❛ we’ll pretend it ends tomorrow. ❜ ❛ clean me up. ❜

  *  𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴'𝚂  𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶  𝙻𝙴𝙵𝚃  𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴  𝙵𝙾𝚁  𝚈𝙾𝚄  :

❛ there’s nothing left for you. ❜ ❛ nothing in this room. ❜ ❛ try and go outside, nothing waits for you. ❜ ❛ you had it once before. ❜ ❛ not anymore. ❜ ❛ so go on to that sweetheart’s door and find a new you. ❜ ❛ give her all the love you saved for it. ❜ ❛ you could touch fire. ❜ ❛ you could fly. ❜ ❛ it was your right. ❜ ❛ it was your life. ❜ ❛ and then it passed to someone new. ❜ ❛ it’ll keep passing on long after you. ❜ ❛ you’re the only one she’s counting on. ❜

  *  𝚂𝙷𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳'𝚅𝙴  𝙱𝙴𝙴𝙽  𝙼𝙴  :

❛ i went through my list of friends and found i had no one ot tell. ❜ ❛ this overwhelming clean feeling, strange serenity. ❜ ❛ it broke my heart, the lengths you went. ❜ ❛ to hold me. ❜ ❛ i haven’t given you what you need. ❜ ❛ you wanted me but couldn’t reach me. ❜ ❛ you went into your memory, relived all the ways you still want me. ❜ ❛ i’m sorry it should’ve been me. ❜ ❛ drop me in the middle of a labyrinth. ❜ ❛ i’d be stuck a while. ❜ ❛ must be lonely loving someone. ❜ ❛ trying to find their way out of a maze. ❜ ❛ oh, i know. ❜

  *  𝙸  𝙶𝚄𝙴𝚂𝚂  :

❛ i guess. ❜ ❛ i guess this is the end. ❜ ❛ i’ll have to learn to be somebody else. ❜ ❛ it’s been you and me since before i was me. ❜ ❛ without you, i don’t yet know quite how to live. ❜ ❛ if i could keep anything of you, i wuold keep just this quiet after you. ❜ ❛ it’s still as a pond i am staring into. ❜ ❛ from here, i can say: thank you. ❜ ❛ from here, i can tell you: thank you. ❜

  *  𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃'𝚂  𝙾𝚄𝚁  𝙻𝙰𝙼𝙿  :

❛ we fought again. ❜ ❛ i ran out the apartment. ❜ ❛ you say you love me, i believe you do. ❜ ❛ i walk up and down this street. ❜ ❛ you just don’t like me, not like you used to. ❜ ❛ it shines like a big moon. ❜ ❛ we may be ending. ❜ ❛ i’m standing in the dark, looking up into our room. ❜ ❛ where you’ll be waiting for me. ❜ ❛ thinking that’s where you loved me. ❜

i hate to say it but eddie drinking a dr pepper , grabbing the first edible thing before running out the door , calling it “breakfast”

PROMPTS   FOR   THE   HEAVY   HEARTED

the burdened:

“  being alive is exhausting.  ”

“  i ruin everything i touch.  ”

“  no one ever helped me when i needed it.  so,  i just.  try to do my best to keep others from feeling that kind of loneliness.  ”

“  i feel like the pain is all i am anymore. ”

“  i wish i remembered anything other than loneliness.  ”

“  i’m not a particularly good person.  but sometimes i wish someone would think i am.  ”

“  i’m just always the one who gets left behind.  ”

“  i never seem to belong anywhere.  or to anyone.  ”  

“  i’m alone.  and it’s my own fault.  but it doesn’t make it hurt any less.  ”

“  i don’t know how to just live.  i constantly feel like i’m waiting for the other shoe to drop.  ”

“  i always expect people to hurt me.  because they usually do. ”

“  i don’t know how to let go of my trauma.  i don’t know what i am without it.   ”

“  it’s better if i’m alone.  i can’t hurt anyone if there’s no one close enough to get hit by the debris of my fuck ups.  ”

“  there are just too many people depending on me.  i can’t rest.  i can’t let them down.  ”

“  i don’t have anything or anyone left anymore.  ”

“  i’m not strong.  or brave.  i survive ‘cause there’s not really any other choice. ”

“  i tried to give up before.  but the universe just didn’t let me.  ”

“  i just want to be done.  i’m tired.  i’m so,  so fucking tired.  ”

“  i know it’s selfish.  but i wish someone would just take care of me.  ”

“  every time i start to feel like things are getting quieter and i can feel safe,  something bad always happens.  ”

“  i tend to love people more than they love me.  and it’s okay.  i don’t mind but…it can be lonely.  ”

“  i just don’t feel like my life makes any difference to anyone.  i’m just here.  ”

the comforter: 

“  hey,  look at me.  i’m listening.  you can tell me anything. ”

“   how can i help you feel less alone?  ”

“  i’m here and i’m not leaving or letting you change the subject.  now talk to me. ”

“  i know you feel like you’re alone and i’m not going to invalidate that.  but i can tell you that i’m here.  and i know there are people who want to care and help if you’ll let them.  ”

“  whatever it is you’re struggling with,  i want to help and it’s not going to make me look at you any different.  ”

“   i like having you around.  and not because of what you can do for me or give to me—  i like you.  i value you as a person.  ”

“   i just need you to know that you’ve never been ‘nobody’ to me.  you’ve never been nothing.  ”

“   you’re important to me.   you hear me?  you’re important.  and that’s never gonna change.   ”

“  i’m not going anywhere until you get some sleep.  ”

“  i want to take care of you.  please,  let me.  ”

“  no one is meant to be all alone.  that’s not how humans are built.  you don’t need to do all this on your own.   ”

“  you don’t deserve the bad things that happen to you.  you never did.  ”

“  i can’t promise you aren’t going to have any more hardship.  but i can promise i’m gonna be right here to get your through it. ”

“  you make a difference in my life.  i’m not just saying that.  it wouldn’t be the same without you here and i don’t want to find out what it’d be like to not have you around. ”

“  next time it gets this bad,  you call me okay?  now you just sit there and i’m gonna make you some tea and soup and we’re gonna talk this out. ”

“   is it getting bad again?  ”

“   you are so much stronger and braver than you think.  ”

podiots sentence starters.    here and under the cut, you can find a total of 55 lines of dialogue from the podcast podiots, all from quite early on in their podcast series. contains mentions of serial killers, death, euthanasia, and some bathroom humour. as always, feel free edit to your heart’s content to suit your needs.

❝ i called you twice! ❞

❝ to this day, i still don’t like murky water in video games. or in real life. ❞

❝ there goes your phone. ❞

❝ love hurts. everything hurts. ❞

❝ finland has it all. ❞

❝ and there’s tapes of them. which, of course, haven’t been released to the public. ❞

❝ my smugness dictates i’ll go first. ❞

❝ i’ll go next. ❞

❝ you need to kill three, and then you get your certificate and badge. ❞

❝ a tattoo’s probably the least harmful thing he’s done to himself. ❞

❝ you guys are very generous. ❞

❝ not a huge fan of serial killers, to be honest. ❞

❝ i’m sure they’re very thrilled about that decision. ❞

❝ the fridge is quite expensive. ❞

❝ i was exposed to some pretty horrible things at a very young age. ❞

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eddie w black nail polish is something i vibe w, eddie w a tongue piercing too

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@stevenharrington​​      asked:       ❛  how  are  you  holding  up ?  ❜      /      sentence     starters    ;      accepting.  

      they’ve   been   walking   for   some   time    ━    he’s    been    silently   following   steve’s   path  ,    because    he    sure   as    shit   doesn’t   know   where    he’s    going  ,   but   he   wasn’t   going   to   comment   on   that.    a   quick   turn   of   expression  ,  near   surprise   as   he   sends   a    jolted   glance   at   steve.    eddie   isn’t   sure   why  ,   exactly.    everyone’s   been   asking   ,   and   asking   ...    it’s   unclear   if   he   was   being   honest   at   this   point.    their   shoulders   brush   ,     and   he   figures   he   should   probably   say   something      ━    so  ,   how   was   he   holding   up?     teeth   sink    passively   to   his   lower   lip   ,   suppressing   the   quick   wit   that   wanted   to   mask   the  truth.    the   hardest    question.     they’re   in    mordor    ,     flashing   blood   skies   ,     creatures   of    literal    hell    exist    ,     and    shit    ━    eddie    really   hasn’t    thought   about   what   happens   if   he   gets     to    see    hawkins    again.   

         “      well     ━      for   starters      ,    i’m     not   dead.        though    i   take   it  ,   there’s    not   some    kind    of   magic    resurrection  ,    revevify     option     possibly    manifesting    down    here ,   huh?     “       flash   of   a   grin    at    the     thought   ,   one   that    dies    and   reveals   the   truth   in   his   expression.    the   fear.     there   was   absolutely   nothing   funny   about   dying.    but   what’s    left   for   him?      arms   cross   and   he    tries   to   not   let   that   be    his   answer.        “   y’know   i   just    ━      i’m    not   really    sure    how    life’s   gonna   keep   going   for   me    back   there  ,   steve.    hawkins  ,   i   mean.     this    creepy    ass   monster    shit   ...     it    killed    chrissy   ━    and     now   ,    who’s    gonna     believe    me?    “     spoken   in   truth  ,    depressing    in   its   reality   ,   the   suffocation    slowly   sinking    in    as   he   realizes   this   situation’s    closing   him   into   a   box.    [ . . . ]      eddie    pushes    the   thought  ,   trying   to   readjust   the   vibes.    add   levity  ,  somehow.   sigh   leaves   him   ,   paired   with   a    grin    as   his   hand   lands   to   steve’s   shoulder.   

       “    listen    ,   you   gotta    keep   the   denim  ,    alright?    wear   it    out.      it    uh   ━    it     looks   good   on   you.   “   

𝑰 𝑯𝑶𝑷𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑫𝑨𝑵𝑪𝑬 .    (   sentence  starters  originating  from  season  two  of  syfy’s  ‘ wynonna earp ’ .   adjust  pronouns  as  necessary ,  heavy  warning  for  mature  themes !   )

❛  you  truly  are  a  monster .  ❜ ❛  now ,  don’t  get  all  emotional  on  me .  ❜ ❛  you  have  amazing  taste  in  underwear .  ❜ ❛  my  poor ,  brave  baby .  ❜ ❛  when  did  you  become  such  a  prude ?  ❜ ❛  it’s  called  being  a  gentleman .  ❜ ❛  how  are  you  holding  up ?  ❜ ❛  i’ll  have  you  know  i’m  kind  of  a  big  deal  around  here .  ❜ ❛  you’re  gonna  need  me .  ❜ ❛  aw ,  you  did  math .  ❜ ❛  i  need  you  to  be  okay .  ❜ ❛  you  couldn’t  stop  me  if  you  tried .  ❜ ❛  better  nut  up  and  decide  who  you  can  trust .  ❜ ❛  if  you  want  me  to  trust  you ,  you’re  gonna  have  to  tell  me  the  plan .  ❜ ❛  you  stay  put ,  okay ?  ❜ ❛  there  is  a  possibility  i  am  now  hallucinating .  ❜ ❛  it’s  my  turn ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  who  are  you ?  you  know  what ,  i  don’t  care .  we’ve  gotta  go .  ❜ ❛  somebody  has  to  pay ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  you  could  come  in  …  i’m  gonna  take  a  shower .  ❜ ❛  they  should  be  scared  of  me .  ❜ ❛  remember  who  the  real  enemy  is .  ❜ ❛  this  is  the  worst .  ❜ ❛  i  love  watching  you  work .  ❜ ❛  please  don’t  shut  me  out .  ❜ ❛  i’m  sitting  right  here ,  there’s  no  need  to  holler .  ❜ ❛  what  do  you  even  do  around  here ,  [ name ] ?  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  anything  to  say  for  yourself ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  such  an  asshole ,  i  don’t  know  why  i  brought  that  up .  ❜ ❛  what’s  in  it  for  you ?  ❜ ❛  how  are  you  doing ?  still  having  fun ?  ❜ ❛  so  many  jokes ,  i  can’t  even  choose .  ❜ ❛  THIS  is  your  breaking  point ?  ❜ ❛  this  might  be  a  shitshow ,  but  it’s  OUR  shitshow .  ❜ ❛  sometimes ,  it’s  good  to  say  goodbye .  ❜ ❛  we  never  lied  to  each  other ,  you’re  free  to  kiss  whoever  you  like .  ❜ ❛  how  do  you  do  that ?  turn  your  feelings  on  and  off  like  a  fucking  robot ?  ❜ ❛  let’s  get  you  somewhere  safe .  ❜ ❛  i  feel  like  i  might’ve  lost  the  plot  a  bit .  ❜ ❛  all  i  dream  of  is  not  having  to  run  anymore .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  wanna  die .  ❜ ❛  this  is  what  i  bring  to  the  team .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  if  i  should  be  frightened  or  jealous .  ❜ ❛  you  wore  suede ?  what  is  it ,  your  first  day ?  ❜ ❛  to  add  insult  to  injury ,  you’re  stuck  with  me .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  like  being  blackmailed .  ❜ ❛  i’m  tired  of  running  and  hiding  …  and  then  running  again .  ❜ ❛  we’re  buying  better  bourbon .  case  closed .  ❜ ❛  [ name ]  was  never  anything  but  proud  of  you .  ❜ ❛  oh ,  i  like  when  you’re  scary .  ❜ ❛  are  you  still  mad  at  me ?  ❜ ❛  as  long  as  you  want  me ,  i  will  be  by  your  side .  ❜ ❛  the  best  sex  is  make - up  sex ,  right ?  ❜ ❛  give  me  a  whiskey !  ❜ ❛  maybe  i  am  getting  soft ,  huh ?  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  i  have  this  gut  feeling  that  something  is  coming ,  and  it’s  bad .  ❜ ❛  i  can  get  you  whatever  you  need  except  time .  ❜ ❛  i  thought  this  time  would  be  different .  ❜ ❛  even  fury  road  has  pit  stops .  ❜ ❛  i  didn’t  know  if  it  was  your  thing .  ❜ ❛  baby ,  that’s  everybody’s  thing .  ❜ ❛  you  guys  need  to  get  some  more  hands ,  so  that  your  hands  can  stay  right  here  on  me .  ❜ ❛  every  time  i  close  my  eyes ,  it’s  the  same  nightmare .  ❜ ❛  are  you  going  to  be  this  much  fun  all  day ?  ❜ ❛  i  was  such  an  idiot .  ❜ ❛  clock  is  ticking ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  how  are  you  settling  in ?  ❜ ❛  how  long  are  you  around ?  ❜ ❛  what  am  i ,  human  tinder ?  ❜ ❛  listen ,  i  love  that  you’ve  got  your  own  thing  going  on  here ,  but  don’t  get  distracted .  ❜ ❛  you  have  my  undivided  attention .  ❜ ❛  two  shots  of  tequila  is  not  ‘abstaining’ ,  it’s  called  being  professional .  ❜ ❛  nice  try ,  but  snitches  get  stitches .  ❜ ❛  i  was  just  thinking  about  you .  ❜ ❛  some  things  never  change ,  huh ?  ❜ ❛  hey ,  watch  your  perfectly  glossed  mouth .  ❜ ❛  i’m  glad  you’re  putting  yourself  out  there .  ❜ ❛  why  is  everyone  so  obsessed  with  my  fun  levels ?  ❜ ❛  yeah ,  it’s  great .  i  could  just  scream !  ❜ ❛  not  bailing  on  me ,  are  you ?  ❜ ❛  do  you  wanna  get  out  of  here ?  ❜ ❛  you’re  drunk  and  you’re  talking  too  much .  ❜ ❛  shady  and  suspicious ,  therefore  gettin’  more  delicious .  ❜ ❛  you’ve  come  so  far .  ❜ ❛  when  you  stop  dating  psychos ,  THEN  you  can  give  me  relationship  advice .  ❜ ❛  let  him  go ,  it’s  not  worth  it .  ❜ ❛  if  that’s  broken ,  you’ll  pay  for  it .  ❜ ❛  don’t  tell  me  how  to  do  my  job .  ❜ ❛  oh ,  you  have  not  seen  harassment .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  keep  your  head  in  the  game .  ❜ ❛  have  you  noticed  any  changes  in  [ name ]  lately ?  ❜ ❛  you  know  what ?  forget  it .  ❜ ❛  i  heard  everything .  ❜ ❛  you’ll  be  broken  enough  for  her  in  no  time .  ❜ ❛  you  look  like  you  had  some  fun .  ❜ ❛  you  are  UNDERESTIMATING  the  day  i’ve  had .  ❜ ❛  are  we  too  late ?  are  you  okay ?  ❜ ❛  i  had  him  right  where  i  wanted  him .  ❜ ❛  this  has  to  end .  please .  ❜ ❛  brave  but  stupid ,  i’ll  take  it .  ❜ ❛  okay ,  yeah ,  now  i’m  sure  i  hit  myself  in  the  head .  ❜ ❛  i  hate  you ,  [ name ] .  i  hate  you .  ❜ ❛  you  think  i’m  stupid ?  ❜ ❛  why  didn’t  you  tell  me  any  of  this  before ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  stubborn ,  i  always  take  the  hard  way .  ❜ ❛  i  wasn’t  expecting  company .  ❜ ❛  okay ,  we’ve  really  gotta  come  up  with  a  secret  handshake .  ❜ ❛  should  …  should  we  have  a  safe  word ?  ❜ ❛  this  was  not  the  plan ,  it’s  too  dangerous .  ❜ ❛  stop  it .  all  you  do  is  play  games .  i  don’t  like  your  games .  ❜ ❛  i’m  trying  to  rescue  you ,  let’s  go .  ❜ ❛  doesn’t  anybody  have  any  faith  in  me ?  ❜ ❛  how  do  you  know  you  weren’t  followed ?  ❜ ❛  i  think  you  should  get  out  of  here .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  a  bad  person .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  a  bad  person ,  and  if  you  know  what’s  good  for  you ,  you’ll  stop  treating  me  like  one .  ❜ ❛  the  power  of  suggestion  is  a  formidable  thing .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  i  know  what  i  saw .  ❜ ❛  i  told  you  to  wait .  ❜ ❛  bad  news ,  they  ran  out  of  pumpkin  spice .  ❜ ❛  i  thought  tying  a  cherry  stem  into  a  knot  with  my  tongue  was  a  cool  party  trick .  ❜ ❛  you’re  not  ready .  you’ll  never  be  ready .  ❜ ❛  you’ll  never  be  locked  up  again .  ❜ ❛  whatever  you  did ,  i  want  to  help .  ❜ ❛  i’m  exhausted .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  having  any  fun .  ❜ ❛  what  are  we  going  to  do  with  you ?  ❜ ❛  i  salted  the  rim ,  i’m  not  a  savage .  ❜ ❛  are  you  feeling  alright ?  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  wanna  go  in  there ,  trust  me .  ❜ ❛  tell  me  why  i  shouldn’t  kill  you  right  here ,  right  now .  ❜ ❛  you’re  really  mean  when  you  drink  before  noon .  and  you  drink  before  noon  too  often .  ❜ ❛  well  frankly ,  [ name ] ,  the  situation  is  balls .  ❜ ❛  horrible  deeds  have  been  committed  here .  ❜ ❛  have  you  done  bad  things ?  ❜ ❛  let’s  get  you  straight  home  to  bed .  ❜ ❛  …  i  said  i  was  sorry .  ❜ ❛  i’ll  be  anything  you  want  me  to  be .  ❜ ❛  i  might’ve  caused  some  trouble .  ❜ ❛  you’ve  got  dark  corners  that  you  haven’t  explored  yet .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  enough  to  save  you ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  okay ,  are  we  having  a  moment ?  ❜ ❛  there’s  only  one  way  to  make  it  stop  and  you  know  what  it  is ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  history  books  will  have  no  mention  of  our  names  or  our  deeds .  ❜ ❛  i  know  you  need  space  and  i  really  tried  to  stay  away ,  but  i  got  worried .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  got  you  now ,  okay ?  i  swear  i’ve  got  you .  ❜ ❛  you’ve  made  an  enemy  this  friday .  ❜ ❛  [ name ]  would  never  say  something  like  that .  ❜ ❛  i’d  say  ‘make  your  peace’ ,  but  i  hope  you  never  find  any .  ❜ ❛  i  would  shoot  anybody  for  you .  ❜ ❛  i  knew  you’d  rescue  me .  ❜ ❛  i  have  enough  friends .  ❜ ❛  you  know ,  i’m  here  for  you .  now  and  forever .  ❜ ❛  we’re  all  on  the  same  team ,  now ,  right ?  ❜ ❛  you  can’t  just  ‘nope’  this  away !  ‘nope’  is  not  a  viable  plan .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  take  a  day  off .  ❜ ❛  if  it  sounds  like  a  hippie  hemorrhoid  cream ,  i  don’t  want  it  in  my  cup .  ❜ ❛  you  practice  those  googly  eyes  in  the  mirror ,  or  just  …  natural  talent ?  ❜ ❛  how  did  you  get  in  here ?  ❜ ❛  stop  pushing  me .  and  while  you’re  at  it ,  stop  judging  me .  ❜ ❛  i  remember  every  second  i  was  with  you .  every  touch ,  every  kiss  …    ❜ ❛  did  i  just  pass  out ?  ❜ ❛  i  think  we’ve  been  asleep  for  a  long - ass  time .  ❜ ❛  time  is  running  out .  ❜ ❛  you  haven’t  been  paying  attention .  ❜ ❛  goodie ,  i  love  conditions .  they  really  turn  my  crank .  ❜ ❛  you’re  amazing .  ❜ ❛  you  do  not  want  to  cross  that  line .  ❜ ❛  everybody  keeps  talking  to  me  like  i’m  an  idiot .  ❜ ❛  i  know  what  i  want .  ❜ ❛  you  shot  me ,  you  bitch !  ❜ ❛  i  have  something  to  tell  you ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  have  to  be  like  this ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  you  know  we’re  gonna  have  to  talk  about  this  eventually ,  right ?  ❜ ❛  room  down  there  for  one  more ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  saying  it’s  gonna  be  okay .  i’m  just  saying  …  i’m  here .  ❜ ❛  i  am  all  in .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  thank  god  you’re  here .  ❜ ❛  it’s  for  your  protection .  ❜ ❛  if  you  have  nothing  to  hide ,  what’s  the  problem ?  ❜ ❛  sorry ,  i  don’t  have  time  to  play  nice  anymore .  ❜ ❛  usually  she’s  a  fun  bitch ,  not  a  bitch  bitch .  ❜ ❛  wake  up .  [ name ] ,  wake  up .  ❜ ❛  evil  sniffs  out  evil .  ❜ ❛  you’re  very  nice ,  thank  you  for  that .  ❜ ❛  i  wonder  how  many  generations  have  surveyed  this  land .  ❜ ❛  i  think  it’s  starting  to  settle  in .  ❜ ❛  don’t  shoot ,  i’m  just  the  messenger .  ❜ ❛  it  was  a  long  time  ago .  ❜ ❛  you  are  kicking  ass  at  not  helping  right  now ,  you  know ?  ❜ ❛  we  should  talk .  ❜ ❛  you  are  such  an  asshole .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  hey .  i  need  a  favor .  ❜ ❛  i  told  you  not  to  make  this  weird .  ❜ ❛  i  hate  doing  everything  sober .  ❜ ❛  pace  yourself ,  there’s  SO  much  more  to  judge .  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  become  [ name ]  by  confronting  problems  head - on .  ❜ ❛  just  shut  your  mouth .  ❜ ❛  okay ,  yeah ,  i  guess  i  deserved  that .  ❜ ❛  see ?  this  is  what  you  get  when  you’re  friends  with  a  nark .  ❜ ❛  step  out  of  my  way .  ❜ ❛  are  we  having  a  good  time ?  ❜ ❛  okay ,  let  me  do  the  talking .  ❜ ❛  justice  delayed  is  still  justice  served .  ❜ ❛  you  are  so  pretty  and  i  like  you  so  much !  ❜ ❛  you’re  drunk !  and  in  trouble .  ❜ ❛  this  whole  ‘lone  wolf’  thing  you’ve  got  going  on  isn’t  gonna  cut  it .  ❜ ❛  don’t  even  think  about  it .  ❜ ❛  did  you  mean  any  of  those  things  you  said ?  ❜ ❛  you’re  lucky  nobody  saw  that .  ❜ ❛  why  don’t  you  distract  me ?  ❜ ❛  this  is  only  gonna  get  worse  if  you  don’t  decide  to  help  me .  ❜ ❛  you  really  don’t  care  about  any  of  this ,  do  you ?  ❜ ❛  i’ll  be  gone  long  before  then .  ❜ ❛  so  this  is  where  it  all  began  …  ❜ ❛  it’s  hard  not  to  feel  like  an  outsider ,  even  for  me .  ❜ ❛  i  remember  what  it  feels  like  to  be  new .  ❜ ❛  hey ,  don’t  do  anything  stupid ,  okay ?  ❜ ❛  shut  the  hell  up .  ❜ ❛  at  this  point ,  i’m  no  longer  afraid  of  the  consequences .  ❜ ❛  how  did  you  come  by  it ?  the  wound ?  ❜ ❛  you’re  lying .  ❜ ❛  you  have  to  do  something  for  me .  ❜ ❛  why  wouldn’t  you  tell  me ?  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  need  you  to  make  decisions  for  me .  ❜ ❛  don’t  follow  me .  ❜ ❛  why  did  you  bring  me  here ?  ❜ ❛  i  deserve  to  be  saved .  i  do .  ❜ ❛  try  to  remember  who  you  were .  ❜ ❛  trust  me ,  we’ll  meet  again .  ❜ ❛  i  promise  i  will  never  hurt  you .  ❜ ❛  come  back  to  me .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  want  to  hurt  you .  ❜ ❛  eyes  on  the  prize .  ❜ ❛  surely  you’ll  want  to  hear  my  offer .  ❜ ❛  sorry  i  was  a  no - show .  ❜ ❛  aren’t  you  gonna  say  goodnight ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  too  hangry  to  have  this  conversation .  ❜ ❛  it’s  okay ,  it’s  better  that  i  know  the  truth .  ❜ ❛  am  i  the  biggest  cliche  ever ?  ❜ ❛  i  know  what  you’re  going  through .  ❜ ❛  you’re  so  lovely .  ❜ ❛  you  know  what  i’d  never  do ?  tell  you  what  to  think  or  feel .  ❜ ❛  i  never  drink  alone .  it’s  sad  and  depressing .  ❜ ❛  i  would  do  anything  to  get  out  of  here  for  just  one  night .  ❜ ❛  say  something  …  preferably  encouraging .  ❜ ❛  is  this  your  thing ?  cute  but  annoying ?  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  protect  you  if  i’m  dead .  ❜ ❛  i  think  i  need  to  leave .  ❜ ❛  you  can’t  run  away  from  this .  ❜ ❛  you  repeat  this  convo ,  you  die .  ❜ ❛  don’t  lie  to  me ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  you  and  me ,  we’re  good  people .  ❜ ❛  hey ,  listen .  i’m  gonna  get  you  out  of  here ,  okay ?  ❜ ❛  sometimes  i  think  you  really  must  hate  me .  ❜ ❛  what  are  you  so  afraid  of ?  ❜ ❛  i  always  knew  you’d  be  the  death  of  me ,  anyway .  ❜ ❛  there’s  nothing  you  could’ve  done .  ❜ ❛  this  can’t  be  happening .  ❜ ❛  i  just  really  thought  i  was  doing  the  right  thing .  ❜ ❛  i  lied  to  you ,  and  i  shouldn’t  have .  ❜ ❛  i  have  never  loved  anyone  the  way  that  i  love  you .  ❜ ❛  can  we  all  just  act  like  we’re  winning  for  once ?  ❜ ❛  i  wasn’t  expecting  you  to  be  cool  about  it ,  but  the  pouting  is  getting  old .  ❜ ❛  am  i  the  only  one  who  didn’t  know ?  ❜ ❛  i  appreciate  everything  you’ve  done .  ❜ ❛  what  are  the  chances  you’ll  sit  this  one  out ?  ❜ ❛  [ name ]’s  never  gonna  forgive  me .  ❜ ❛  you  would  have  done  the  same  thing .  ❜ ❛  don’t  go .  ❜ ❛  i  learned  my  lesson .  ❜ ❛  i  should  have  trusted  you .  ❜ ❛  i  thought  it  was  your  fault .  ❜ ❛  i  plan  to  exploit  you .  ❜ ❛  just  so  everyone’s  clear ,  i’m  my  own  damn  weapon .  ❜ ❛  sorry  i’m  late ,  i  kinda  died .  ❜ ❛  mercy  comes  in  many  forms .  ❜ ❛  i  will  kill  us  both  before  i  let  you  walk  in  service  to  the  devil .  ❜ ❛  if  i  die ,  they  can’t  use  me .  ❜ ❛  i  am  so  very  tired ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  see  you  on  the  other  side .  ❜ ❛  i  care  more  about  this  than  anything  else  in  the  world .  ❜ ❛  you  are  …  extraordinary .  ❜ ❛  i’m  with  you ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  are  you  okay ?  ❜ ❛  would  you  have  done  any  different ?  ❜ ❛  i  would  have  done  everything  different .  ❜

@inballads​ . 

@pedalmetal :  [ SHIELD ]:    sender deliberately stands in front of the receiver to protect them from a targeted attack (verbal or physical).       meme.

a  bat  comes  spiraling  in  her  direction and she  braces  for a  hit  (  that  never  comes. )  instead,  eddie’s  back  was  pushed  into  her and  there  weren’t  enough  words  to  describe  the dismay  she  felt  once she  realized  what  had  happened. tammy  shot  him  a  look  that  read‘  are  you  fucking  serious ?? ‘  as she swung her makeshift shield  into  another creature.  of  course  he’s  serious,  it’s eddie.

  “  stop  taking  my  points man, “ her voice  comes  out  playful enough  but it’s  coarse. somehow she couldn’t stomach the fact that  even  though  they  hadn’t  properly  spoken  about  things  yet  and  even  after  how  she  treated  him,  he was  still that  lanky kid with too  much  hair  that  was  looking  out  for  her.  like  she  deserved  it.  “ eddie ! watch  your  six ! “ she yelped, moving quickly to fend off another heading his way. 

eddie   nearly    freezes     at       the      sight    ━   a    once    shadowed    figure    revealed    to    be    tammy.     his    stomach    sinks    a    little    bit  ,    and   his    mind    is    drowning    him   in   the   idea    of    failure.     of   the   both   of   them  ,   if   they’re    not     careful    ━   that’s    the   end.     tight    grip    to   the   weapon    in   hand  ,    he    sends   a   bat    flying   in    the    opposite    direction   with   one   swing.     step   by   step  ,   that’s    all.    the   sky   flashed   in   blood    red   ,     body   aching   and   threatening   to   collapse   the   more   he    exhausted   himself.     eyes   shot   wide   in   annoyance   ,   directly    at    her.         “     hello?    you’re     not     supposed   to    be    here  ,   “      said    in   a   flat    to    high  sing    song   way   ,   like   he   might   be   crazy.    she   wasn’t   supposed   to   be   there! 

another   swing   as   he   tears   his   gaze    from    her  ,   moving   to   the   right   and   ducking   immediately!      laugh   escapes   him  ,    in   the   form   of   relief.     like  ,   he’s   so   fucking    relieved   he’s   going   to   lose   it.   he’s   going   to   cry.    thinking   of   ...   how   many   people   keep   risking    their   lives   for   him   ,   just   by   being   around   him.    eddie    raises   his   make-shift    shield   quickly     ,    cutting   the   air   and   two   bats    with    his   sword.     “    you’re    slacking     tam!    i’ve    got     twenty        easy      ,    unlimited   hit    points!   “ 

𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐓 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒

❛ all the sudden i got a random burst of energy, and i think it’s my body’s last hurrah before it completely shut down. ❜ ❛ i’m not superstitious… but i am a little stitious. ❜ ❛ when someone points at your black clothes and asks whose funeral it is, having a look around the room and saying ‘haven’t decided yet’ is typically a good response. ❜ ❛ not trying to brag or anything, but i can wake up without an alarm clock now simply due to my crippling and overwhelming anxiety, so… ❜ ❛ i came out here to attack people and i’m honestly having such a good time right now. ❜ ❛ fool me once, i’m gonna kill you. ❜ ❛ i feel confident in my ability to continue not knowing what is going on. ❛ died and came back as a cowboy, i call that reintarnation. ❜ ❛ you can’t wake up if you never got to sleep. ❜ ❛ you can de-escalate any situation by simply saying, 'are we about to kiss?’ ❜ ❛ you seem familiar, have i threatened you before? ❜ ❛ some of you may die, but that’s a sacrifice i’m willing to make. ❜ ❛ if i can’t cause tiny bits of chaos every day, i think my body will shut down. ❜ ❛ theater kids are just choir kids who joined forces with the band and strings kids. ❜ ❛ i am very small and i have no money, so you can imagine the kind of stress that i’m under. ❜ ❛ maybe the true treasure was friendship all along. but i hope not, because i can’t spend friendship on new clothes. ❜ ❛ okay stop asking me if i’m straight, gay, bi, whatever. i identify as a fucking threat. ❜ ❛ i’m usually that person who has no idea what’s going on. ❜ ❛ what doesn’t kill me should run, because now i’m fucking pissed. ❜ ❛ my life isn’t as glamorous as my wanted poster makes it look like. ❜ ❛ i’m sick and tired of being called 'mortal’ like, you don’t know that. neither do i. i have never died even once. nothing has been proven yet. stop making assumptions. ❜ ❛ if you can’t beat them, dress better than them. ❜ ❛ 'person of interest’ is almost too flattering. ❜ ❛ drink your school, stay in drugs, and get 8 hours of drugs. ❜ ❛ physically, yes, i could fight a bird. but emotionally? imagine the toll. ❜ ❛ you’ll have a hard time believing this because it never happens but i made a mistake. ❜ ❛ my expectations were low but holy fuck. ❜ ❛ well, well, well… if it isn’t my old friend: the dawning realization that i fucked up bad. ❜ ❛ dear friend, your gift this year… is me. that’s right, another year of friendship. your membership has been renewed. ❜ ❛ i’ve come to a point in my life where i need a stronger word than fuck. ❜ ❛ i have met some of the most insufferable people. but they also met me. ❜ ❛ new year, same me. because i’m perfect. ❜ ❛ just because i’m too short to reach the lowest self in the cabinet doesn’t mean you shouldn’t watch out for your kneecaps. ❜ ❛ forgive me father, for i have sinny-sin-sinned. ❜ ❛ so apparently the 'bad vibes’ i’ve been feeling are actually severe psychological distress. ❜ ❛ with great power comes great need to take a nap. wake me up later. ❜ ❛ behold, the field in which i grow my fucks! lay thine eyes upon it, and thou shalt see that it is barren! ❜ ❛ sometimes i’ll start a sentence and i don’t even know where it’s going. i just hope i find it along the way. ❜ ❛ i was born for politics. i have great hair and i love lying. ❜ ❛ schrödinger’s cat is overrated. if you wanna see something that’s ❛ both dead and alive you can talk to me any time of the day. ❜

eddie having his first crush on his best friend , when he was first figuring out those Feelings , but it doesn’t work out because societal pressures and general feared homophobia , and although I write eddie very non gender conforming , there’s nothing bitter because of the times. pls cry w me thinking about how fitting tommy’s party by peach pit is because I’m not okay :’) also consider : this isn’t gareth or jeff , this was an old best friend that drifted because of their hidden feelings for each other.

❥     𝟖𝟎𝐬 𝐇𝐈𝐓𝐒    [   𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂    ]   .

sentence starters inspired by various lyrics from random hits from the 1980s !!   some lyrics have been slightly modified to be more usable .  change gendered language   &   add context to your needs .  happy roleplaying !!  ♡

“   something’s  buggin’  me .   ” “   something  ain’t  right .   ” “   my  best  friend  told  me  what  you  did  last  night .   ” “   i  should  have  been  with  you  instead .   ” “   wake  me  up  before  you  go .   ” “   i’m  not  planning  on  going  solo .   ” “   take  me  dancing  tonight .   ” “   you’re  my  lady ,   i’m  your  fool .   ” “   it  makes  me  crazy  when  you  act  so  cruel .   ” “   come on ,  baby .   let’s  not  fight .   ” “   we’ll  go  dancing   &   everything  will  be  alright .   ” “   we’ll  go  dancing  tomorrow  night .   ” “   it’s  cold  out  there ,   but  it’s  warm  in  bed .   ” “   don’t  look  at  it  like  it’s  forever .   ” “   i  guess  that’s  why  they  call  it  the  blues .   ” “   time  on  my  hands  could  be  time  spent  with  you .   ” “   picture  my  face  in  your  hands .   ” “   live  for  each  second  without  hesitation .   ” “   never  forget  i’m  your  man .   ” “   cry  in  the  night  if  it  helps .   ” “   i  simply  love  you  more  than  i  love  life  itself .   ” “   some  boys  kiss  me ,   some  boys  hug  me ,   i  think  they’re  okay .   ” “   the  boy  with  the  cold  hard  cash  is  always  mister  right .   ” “   you  know  that  we  are  living  in  a  material  world .   ” “   i  am  a  material  girl .   ” “   boys  may  come   &   boys  may  go .   ” “   experience  has  made  me  rich   &   now  they’re  after  me .   ” “   opposites  attract .   ” “   you  must  try  to  ignore  that  it  means  more  than  that .   ” “   what’s  love  got  to  do  with  it ??   ” “   who  needs  a  heart  when  a  heart  can  be  broken ??   ” “   it  scares  me  to  feel  this  way .   ” “   there’s  still  enough  time  to  figure  out  how  to  chase  my  blues  away .   ” “   i’ve  done  alright  up  ‘til  now .   ” “   i  wanna  dance  with  somebody  who  loves  me .   ” “   i’ve  been  in  love   &   lost  my  senses .   ” “   sooner  or  later ,   the  fever  ends ,   and  i  wind  up  feeling  down .   ” “   when  the  night  falls ,   my  lonely  heart  calls .   ” “   don’t  you  wanna  dance ??   ” “   i’m  sick   &   tired  of  everything .   ” “   all  i  do  is  eat   &   sleep   &   sing .   ” “   there  are  moments  when  i  think  i’m  going  crazy .   ” “   the  sight  of  you  will  prove  to  me  i’m  still  alive .   ” “   some  boys  take  a  beautiful  girl   &   hide  her  away  from  the  rest  of  the  world .   ” “   i  wanna  be  the  one  to  walk  in  the  sun .   ” “   you  could  never  know  what  it’s  like .   ” “   there’s  a cold   &   lonely  light  that  shines  from  you .   ” “   you’ll  wind  up  like  the  wreck  you  hide  behind  that  mask  you  use .   ” “   did  you  think  this  fool  could  never  win ??   ” “   i’m  still  standing  after  all  this  time .   ” “   i’m  picking  up  the  pieces  of  my  life  without  you  on  my  mind .   ” “   i’m  still  standing .   ” “   if  our  love  was  just  a  circus ,  you’d  be  a  clown  by  now .   ” “   heaven  is  a  place  on  earth .   ” “   they  say  in  heaven ,   love  comes  first .   ” “   we’ll  make  heaven  a  place  on  earth .   ” “   in  this  world ,   we’re  just  beginning  to  understand  the  miracle  of  living .   ” “   i  was  afraid  before ,   but  i’m  not  afraid  anymore .   ” “   when  you  dance ,  there’s  a  magic  that  must  be  love .   ” “   i’ll  be  coming  for  your  love ,   okay ??   ” “   i’ll  be  gone  in  a  day  or  two .   ” “   i’m  slowly  learning  that  life  is  okay  ??   ” “   it’s  no  better  to  be  safe  than  sorry .   ” “   you’re  all  the  things  i’ve  got  to  remember .   ” “   you’re  shying  away .   ” “   i’ll  be  coming  for  you ,   anyway .   ” “   sweet  dreams  are  made  of  this .   ” “   who  am  i  to  disagree  ??   ” “   everybody’s  looking  for  something .   ” “   keep  your  head  up .   ” “   it’s  gonna  take  a  lot  to  drag  me  away  from  you .   ” “   there’s  nothing  that  a  hundred  men  or  more  could  ever  do .   ” “   i  seek  to  cure  what’s  deep  inside .   ” “   i’m  frightened  of  this  thing  that  i’ve  become .   ” “   some  are  born  to  sing  the  blues .   ” “   sometimes  i  feel  i’ve  got  to  run away .   ” “   the  love  we  share  seems  to  go  nowhere .   ” “   once  i  ran  to  you .   now ,   i’ll  run  from  you .   ” “   you  need  someone  to  hold  you  tight .   ” “   don’t  touch  me ,   please .   ” “   i  love  you ,   though  you  hurt  me  so .   ” “   i  just  want  to  tell  you  how  i’m  feeling .   ” “   we’ve  known  each  other  for  so  long .   ” “   your  heart’s  been  aching ,   but  you’re  too  shy  to  say it .   ” “   you’re  turning  heads .   ” “   anything  you  wear  looks  good  on  you  especially .   ” “   there’s  nothing  i  can  tell  you  that  you  haven’t  already  heard  a  half  a million times ,   but  still ,   i’d  like  to  say  you  wear  it  well .  ” “   they  can’t  compete  with  you .   ” “   you’re  more  than  just  a  pretty  face .   ” “   you’ve  got  exactly  what  it  takes .   ” “   can  you  feel  it ,   too ??   ” “   i  toss   &   turn  in  my  bed  in  the  morning  when  i  think  about  you .   ” “   i  attempt  to  look  my  best  for  you .   ” “   you  sure  are  sweet .   ” “   would  you  mind  if  i  had  a  little  bit  more  of  your  time ??  ” “   just  keep  doing  what  you  do .   ”

hellfirefreak ➜ pedalmetal

miscellaneous quotes writing prompts pt. i.

“ i am angry because of my father. “

“ i wanted to get it right so badly that i always got it wrong. “

“ they gave me a name and alienated me from myself. “

“ i want to tell me i miss me. i want to tell me, i’m never coming back. “

“ i’m a negative of a person. “

“ you still think that i would never leave you. “

“ the world is not ready for me, yet here i am. “

“ you are the hero. you get a hero’s end. “

“ i talk to god, but the sky is empty. “

“ a burnt child loves the fire. “

“ still, there is this terrible desire to be loved. still, there is this horror at being left behind. “

“ i lived as a monster, my only hope is to die like a child. “

“ maybe i should have wanted less. “

“ don’t mistake my charity for what it is. “

“ the enormity of my desire disgusts me. “

“ i wanted to be loved so desperately that my fingers shook with it. “

“ i am not beautiful, but i could be. “

“ because you want to die for you. you always have. “

“ hunted girls grow shells and they call us hard women. as if survival could ever be delicate. “

“ there’s no telling how long you’ll be paying. “

“ there is love in my the likes of which you’ve never seen. “

“ there is rage in me the likes of which should never escape. “

“ here is the truth: i keep waiting for my anger to go dormant, but it won’t. “

“ i am sick of myself trying to give shape to all this sorrow, all this rage, all this loss—and failing. “

“ the dead past that survives in me and that has never been anywhere but in me. “

“ the past beats inside me like a second heart. “

“ i’m so scared of being alone. “

“ i was raised up to be admired, to be noticed. when you’re withdrawn, it’s the closest thing to assault when all eyes are on you. “

“ i feel like an empty class with a small crack in the bottom, as if every attempt to fill myself up would never, ever work. “

“ how long can you keep wanting something and not ask for it? “

“ if i can’t find love, if i can’t find peace, give me a bitter glory. “

“ there are no bargains between lions and me. i will kill you and eat you raw. “

“ be a caution. be a reckoning. be a thing that breaks before it bends. “

“ everyone i know is in some kind of pain. “

“ i want it to be my fault so i can fix it. “

“ you want to go missing, but not disappear. you want their attention, but not to be found. “

“ sometimes it feels like i didn’t even exist before that. like you invented me. “

“ tell me how you want me to be. i can be that. “

“ without you, life is entirely feasible but hateful. “

“ if i am to perish by the power of fire, at least let that fire be yours. “

“ my hands have made good mistakes. they can always make better ones. “

“ if i die because i gambled on love, then it will be a worthy death. “

“ i’m a clever girl to keep my mouth shut. “

“ tell me every terrible thing you ever did, and let me love you anyway. “

“ my good intentions are completely lethal. “

“ if you are intolerable, then let me be the one to tolerate you. “

“ i carried my fear of the world as if it could protect me from the world. “

“ do you ever suddenly find it strange to be yourself? “

“ i couldn’t draw my own face if god asked. “

“ desire is no light thing. “

“ you don’t have to believe me. i love you all the same. “

“ i care for you still and i will forever. that was my part of the deal. “

“ you want to be left behind. that way, no one bears witness to what you’ve become. “

“ i am the monster i warned you against. “

“ you are the monster i claim. “

“ when is a monster not a monster? when you love it. “

Rebel Without a Cause (1955) dir. Nicholas Ray