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for a minute , artemis thinks he might faint. cam is pale even at the best of times , but he looks downright pallid now , his eyes wide as he processes the news. or , she hopes he’s processing. currently , it just looks like she’s broken his brain — kaldur after his unfortunate run - in with m’gann springs to mind despite her best efforts to keep that particular bit of history in the past where it belonged. the hands that find her shoulders shake. no more denial , that’s assured. she’d said the words that made it real — oh so real — and cam had heard her , understood the gravitas she was trying to convey.
and she had broken him.
artemis watches as his gaze lowers to her stomach. barely noticeable , barely there. impossible to know what to look for without being told but it was there. the faintest little bump that hadn’t been two months prior , the last time his fingers had skated across the bare expanse of skin. and then the apologies begin. frantic , rapid - fire like the still racing rhythm of her heart , the words spill from his lips and threaten to drown her.
he’s crying and she’s crying , a fresh round of hot shame igniting within her as more drops cascade down her cheeks to replace those she’d already wiped away. they surely look like a couple of unstable lunatics fresh from an arkham prison break , moments away from being chased from the property with whatever weapon the guy behind the counter had on hand — just like the good ol’ days !! — when ; mess.
he called it a mess. and again , she felt like it would have been less painful if he’d simply slapped her in the face. he’s not entirely wrong , it is a messy situation , one could argue that their whole damn lives have been , but she had no intention of cleaning it up. not that way not — it strikes a match in her , catching like she’d swallowed gasoline and , though the tears still flow freely , her brows draw together and the familiar fire comes out ;
‘ I’m not telling you so you can help clean it up. ’ the words taste like bile on her tongue , and she reaches out to grab his wrist , to place the hovering , trembling digits against her belly and glare ferociously. ‘ I thought you’d want to know you’re going to be a father , cam. ’ i’m keeping it. she hadn’t really given it much thought either way , not until then. but she knows , without a shadow of a doubt , this is what she wants. ‘ I don’t expect anything from you, but that’s your child in there — our child — and if you call it a mess again , i’ll march you right back so you can join in on all the fun your little pals are having right about now , got it ?? ’
cameron doesn’t know which one is more nerve-wrecking : the fact that artemis had, without even a minuscule of hesitation, pushed his palm right against the part of her that’s more ... significant now than its ever been, like he had a right, like it was okay to touch her there and be a little bit closer to the one thing he never thought he could have - or that she’d said it so clearly, determinedly: you’re going to be a father, cam.
he’s never pictured it, you know ? never could’ve guessed that that was allowed. which, in retrospect, is quite frustrating. for so long, he thought he’d been disappointing enough of a son to have finally broken out of the mold icicle sr have initially built for him. turns out, apart of him, though subconsciously, could never quite work out the nerve to think he would want another family. he would deserve it. little kids of his own with the same hair and eyes and maybe power ?
fuck. that’d be a nightmare.
with his criminal history to boot, and the lack of security he could provide for the child ... he’s exactly the screw-up he’s always been. he can’t put that on a kid. and - maybe it helps that he’d never really thought about it. no, happy endings were reserved for the emotionally stable and functionally successful people. if anything, he thought for sure that his dad was right about one thing : nobody could want him enough for it anyways. so why bother ?
obviously, icicle sr. hasn’t exactly put into the equation that crusher’s daughter just has her stubborn ways of sorta making this life bearable. hell, sometimes ... with artemis, cameron feels like he can actually be - happy.
‘ okay, ’ he whispers, his eyes - bright and blue - still sting with tears. he doesn’t feel any particular changes as he presses his hand more firmly against the stomach, but it’s warm anyway, the touch of it. it feels like a ticket out, a breath of fresh air, and something fragile but precious all the same. it’s scary. ‘ okay, i won’t - m’not gonna call it that. i’m sorry. ’ her words keep ringing in his ears, i thought you’d want to know you’re going to be a father.
a father! a father — cam can’t picture it, but he also knows nothing will keep him away from artemis now, for as long as she wants him around.
he hugs her again, kissing her temple once more. scared, he’s scared, still shaking, but he’s squeezing her tight, arms around her to pull her in. slowly, he manages, trying to be brave, mouth moving against her blond hair : ‘ can i ... is it okay if - if i meet ‘em sometimes ? the kid ? i’ll be good to ‘em, i swear. ’
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his silence is deafening. artemis can hear the rapid - fire beat of her frantic heart as he stares. he stares and stares and stares. and — when she feels like she can absolutely take it no longer , feels as though she would splitter and crack into a million pieces if she was subjugated to another second — he speaks :
‘ c - congrats , babe. ’ and he might as well have sucker punched her.
congrats , babe. it forces all the air from her lungs. moments ago , his silence made her want to crawl out of her own skin , now , she longs to step back into it. congrats , babe. it plays unbidden on a loop , shoving it’s way into her thoughts like a runaway train on a downhill slope. he doesn’t know , he doesn’t get it. congrats , babe. so far from any expectation she could have possibly had for this conversation , this night. but that was cameron for her — always keeping her on her toes …
but it gets worse , of course it does !! because cameron couldn’t possibly settle for a ‘ congrats , babe ’ and move right along. or give her a second to catch up , to explain. no , he had to keep swinging this particularly devastating wrecking ball and artemis had no choice but to remain right in it’s path. so he pulls her in for a hug , a kiss pressed to the side of her head. he asks about whether wally knew and artemis fears for a few , tense moments that she might vomit again. he thinks it’s wally’s. some borderline hysterical part of her wants to laugh at how ridiculous this all is but mostly ??
mostly she wants to melt into the embrace.
it’s been so long — too long — since the last time they’d hugged. since she’d done what she was doing now, wrapping her arms tight around his waist and burying her head in his chest. she’d missed this , missed him. and he thought she was having another man’s baby , thought she’d come to pull him away from his cronies in the middle of the night to tell him the good news : surprise !! wally’s gonna be a father !!
she wants to scream , she wants to cry. it’s the latter that wins out , a weak sob forcing it’s way from her lips before she could ever hope to stifle it. hormones. she remembers those are a thing , that pregnant women often cry over nothing , those stupid animal commercials on the tv. ‘ It’s not wally’s !! ’ she chokes out , but it’s so strangled by her tears and muffled by his chest that she doubts he heard it properly. besides , he’s made it abundantly clear that she is going to have to spell it out for him , and this time there will be no miscommunications. or she might just melt into a goddamn puddle right in front of him.
artemis forces a shaky breath into her lungs , pulls back enough that she can swat any remaining moisture that hadn’t already absorbed into cam’s shirt from her cheeks and meets his eyes. her hands press against the sides of his face to be sure he’s locked on , that he knows she’s serious ; ‘ it’s not wally’s , ’ she says again, and she’s surprised at how little her voice trembles. ‘ it’s yours , cameron. ’
he doesn’t even think about how long it’s been.
he couldn’t - it’s not his place to be sentimental, and cameron’s learned long enough to not think too much about the past, even if there’d be times when he couldn’t help it. the past would just ... it brings up so much issues; so much could’ve been’s, so many what if’s. to do what he had to do, to survive what he had to live through, he just finds it bearable not to ponder on it for any longer than he needed to.
artemis is warm in ways only another’s body heat could be warm, and that - that brings up flood of memories he can’t really afford to hesitate on while he’s like this. because it’s ... whatever they have, it’s over, isn’t it ? it’s done. it’s over, just another event wrapping up nicely with a bow. or as nicely as two difficult people with a messed-up history could manage. and cameron can focus on this - just the fact that he can hold artemis, the fact that he can share in the joy, sincerely offer his congratulations.
but it isn’t carrot top’s kid that artemis is pregnant with, it turns out.
whatever traces of guilt, or longing, or even happiness blanks away into this acute whiteness of things. into nothingness. cameron’s eyes are wide, the blue of it the size of twin plates, as he pulls back, hands that had never quite shivered from his own iced power slowly trembling against his childhood friend’s shoulders. it’s yours, cameron, artemis claims, her cheeks wet with tears, but - he knows she wouldn’t lie about this.
she rarely lies as is, but about a kid ? about anybody fathering it ?
fuck. cameron’s gaze goes to the belly, suddenly finding that part of artemis’ body more significant than it was seconds ago, before he returns it to drink in artemis’ expressions again. shit, what did he do ? how could he — artemis was finally — he ruined her. he did. what else could it mean ? a justice league member carrying a criminal’s kid, fuck. that kid’s gonna ... shit. would the league punish the baby ? artemis ?
cam’s heart pounds. why was he so fucking stupid ? ‘ i’m so sorry, oh no, i’m so — ’ his hands shake over the tightness of the tigress’ uniform, just above the stomach, but he doesn’t touch. couldn’t. what right does he have ? ‘ art, baby, i’m sorry, i didn’t mean — i’m so sorry, baby, i’m sorry. i - are they gonna target you ? shit. fuck. stupid. i ... ’ his view is glassy; cam realises with a painful ache in his throat that he’s crying.
‘ i’m a piece of shit, sorry. both of you don’t deserve ... ’ this time, it’s him who wipes at his own eyes, still staring at the stomach. at the baby there that’s his and artemis’, and how elated he is for a stupid nanosecond despite the panic, thinking about how nice it is. to hold the child, to tell them they’re loved, and that their mother is great. cam goes quiet, not continuing, and then, more determinedly : ‘ tell me what you need from me. i’ll - i’ll help. i’ll clean up this mess. ’
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he bought the medicine. even after she’d told him not to , and artemis can’t even find it in herself to be surprised. she hadn’t even fully registered it until they were back in the summer heat , and cameron had pushed the box into her hands along with the bottle of water they had agreed upon. the scoff is immediate , accompanied with a shake of her head as she tries to give it back ; ‘ I’m not sick. ’ not like he was thinking , easily rectified with some medicine , plenty of fluids and bedrest. no , it was a lot more complicated than that … ‘ I told you not to worry about it. ’
she doesn’t even remember if she’s allowed to take anything. the doctor had run her though some shit , but everything after that ‘ congratulations ! ’ had been a blur , like she’d stuck her head into the fish tank in the lobby and tried to listen , under water and upside down with blood rushing to her head. she needed her mom , her sister — people she could trust , who had gone through this to tell her what to do , warn her before she fucked it all up before the baby was even born. but jade was back with the shadows , far more difficult to pin down than cameron had been. and paula — well , artemis is terrified of disappointing her.
I want you to have the life I never could. artemis had been fifteen years old , with the chance to go to gotham academy — a school for rich brats , that looked good on college applications with it’s high academic standards and it’s prissy uniforms. no place for gotham trash like her , and she’d known it then , knew it now. but paula had cried , and artemis had bucked up like the good little soldier she was. and she’d soldiered on to stanford , toed the line of normalcy … then , dick had shown up on their doorstep , artemis couldn’t jump on his crazy plan fast enough. and it was all downhill from there …
but cameron has to be first — third , if she’s getting technical but if it hadn’t been for the kid , who knew how long it would’ve taken her to realize … cameron first , then paula. it’s only fair …
she does unscrew the plastic top of the water bottle and takes a long , grateful swallow. her stomach tied up in it’s uneasy knots , but she laughs — actually laughs — and it sounds strangely foreign to her own ears ; ‘ if I wanted you in jail , I would’ve left you there , cam. ’ it’s not that simple , would never be that simple. deft fingers fiddle with the cap of her bottle , screwing and unscrewing it idly. it keeps her hands busy , her eyes downcast. the humor of the situation evaporating like water on a hot summer day.
‘ I have to tell you something … ’ throat tightens , breathing shallow and rapid. it’s not the best time , the best place but if she doesn’t say it now , she might never ; ‘ I’m pregnant. ’
she’s stubborn — always is.
it doesn’t surprise him; it’s kinda cute, actually. in ways that reminded him just how fierce his childhood friend actually is. strong, determined. it’s - endearing, is what they call it right ? yeah. the kind of feeling that makes you ache a little inside from how much you recognise the habit or movement or emotion, but there isn’t much you could at present. just know it’s there, this feeling; just know she has a hand at putting it there.
‘ pretty sure the pinnacle of health doesn’t come with vomiting, sweetcheeks. ’ he tells her earnestly, distracting himself with the way his tongue accepts the little sting and burn of the explosive candy. it’s sour in just the right amount; cameron doesn’t really taste as easily as the others, after all. comes with daddy’s gift of making him a meta and all. he doesn’t follow artemis’ reply up with, you know with you it’s different. you know with you i’m always gonna worry, even if i don’t say.
she’s quiet for a while, chugging - before she snorts, tells him that she hasn’t really dragged him out to send his ass straight to jail. which ... well, weird. cameron is about to protest that he doesn’t rat anything out — even if he changes sides. he doesn’t share information on the villains when he was with artemis and he won’t do it now. not because he’s particularly attached or fancied the life, but only because he’d known what the criminals would do to snitchers if he’s caught.
his dad and the whole troop never exactly lets him forget.
but artemis isn’t talking about trading some secret information or some super criminal’s whereabouts. oh no. cameron’s got this whole thing wrong. his blood rushes through his ears at the news, and he doesn’t know how long he’s stared at artemis, but it must’ve been a while, because by the time his hand reaches over to close his mouth, it’s dried up. fuck. fuck. this is big. this is —
‘ c - congrats, babe. ’ cameron tries to smile, but he just feels like any air that’s trying to get in are blocked somehow. stuck in his chest with no way in and out. he tries picturing artemis in this whole white-picket-fence dream with the hero boyfriend, and the dog, and the kid — who’s gonna have artemis’ eyes and the boyfriend’s smile or something. very romantic, very wholesome.
and cameron will be the guy who’s probably gonna get beaten up by the side of the road or in his prison cell.
but jesus, he’s so - he can’t help it. apart of him feels delighted, or relieved, just like it had been when he was sixteen and he heard that crusher’s daughter switched sides. he’s so glad artemis made it out. he’s so glad she’s - she’s moved on, in her own way, even after cameron probably screwed up her chance there with the redhead for a while. that she can have a family, where it’s safe and the kid will grow up healthy and they can go to school and artemis can be a mom, a good mom, a great one. cameron’s happy.
‘ does red head sonic know ? ’ if i can’t make it, i’m glad you could. he doesn’t say, but it shows, cameron reaches out, and hugs - genuinely, gladly, kissing the side of her head. ‘ oh, i’m thrilled, art! you’re gonna be a great mom, the kid’s damn lucky. i’m so happy for you and freckles. ’
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it occurs to her then how half - cocked this plan actually was. how little thought she’d given to the after — after she got cam to come with her , after they walked away from the warehouse … honestly , artemis hadn’t expected it to be this easy. expected the fight , the resistance. plan a , b , and c reserved for that particular possibility but now ?? now she feels hopelessly lost. her operation , yet cameron was beginning to call the shots because she finds herself stuck on auto - pilot and at war with herself , the impulse to simply blurt that which she’d come to say wrestling with her own denial , fear. if she says it , that makes it REAL. more real than the two heartbeats , the ultrasound picture that’d looked like nothing to her untrained eye.
there was no putting this cat back in the bag , once the words leave her mouth , things would never be the same. for better , for worse. and artemis hasn’t quite mustered her courage.
so she does as he suggests , tucks the mask into a pouch at her belt and slides the elastic back onto her wrist. it does not matter , she thinks. in the grand scheme of things , artemis barely has a secret identity anymore , and this is gotham. it has seen far weirder than a pallid looking woman in spandex meandering the aisles of a convenience store. ‘ I zeta - ed. ’ she explains with a shrug , which did have it’s complications. namely , that she couldn’t use the same method on the return trip. but she hadn’t expected this , hadn’t expected to drag her feet. I’m pregnant. it’d all seemed so simple when she hadn’t been staring him in the face.
the florescent lights do her no favors , trails behind cameron as he heads for the frigerated section towards the back of the store. it all feels familiar , like when they were kids scrounging for something to pass the time or — when they got even more adventurous ( and hungry ) — sneaking off like this. to a gas station , a street vendor. paying with coins pulled from couch cushions or , when that option failed , resorting to petty theft. candy bars stuffed into pockets , up their sleeves. running from angry clerks when they got themselves caught. artemis leans against one of the sliding doors , eyes drifting closed.
I will do better. my child will have better.
being a mom scares the hell out of her , but crusher’s low fucking standards wouldn’t be terribly hard to beat.
‘ don’t worry about the medicine , cam. ’ eyes land on him again , notes that he’s been successful in finding a bottle of water. nods in the bottle’s direction ; ‘ I’ll pay you back for that. ’
cameron knows it’s a little too late to say this — but it’s pretty fucked up, how they turn out.
not in the sense of their respective fields, necessarily, although he isn’t in any business denying that that may play a major role too, but just - the general situation they both seem to always be in, these roles that they play. how artemis is preaching about a few small changes and some convenience store-level pills that he’s purchasing like they’re ordinary people with ordinary office jobs working through an awkward encounter with as much politeness and grace they could manage before life, as life does, make them part their ways again.
as if he doesn’t love her, when he was eleven, and she was the only person who’d ever cared to look at him for more than his powers. as if he doesn’t admire her, when she manages to find herself out of this hellish life that they were thrown in because it’s never easy being the local gangster’s rat, let alone a whole ass traitor. as if he doesn’t want her, every day during that time when she’d allow him to have her, grown and scarred and perfect.
‘ nah, ’ is what he says, shaking his head, as he pushes the medicine he’d found, the water bottle, and that candy that pops right in your mouth across the register. the guy behind it rings it, barely giving them a glance. cam tosses the wrinkled money, apart of him half-ashamed by the state of it - so he tries to smoothen them out, not succeeding. the cashier hardly cares.
when they’re out, the summer heat hitting them even when it’s night like damn, he hands her the bottle and the medicine.
cam itches for a smoke. he’d stopped them - or had lessened them, because he was around artemis and brucely too much back then, and he didn’t want the justice league or paula to judge arty for what he’s doing - but now that he’s back with the old gang, it’s ... it’s a shock how easily bad habits can slide right into your life again. cam hates it, that the worst parts of his life was something that was easy to return to, but whatever. he supposes he has it coming.
he supposes that was always what was going to happen to him.
so he takes the candy — a swap for the cigarette, but also probably the few things he can have without having to fistfight someone for it in prison — and opens the packet. pour in the first few ones in his mouth, not really meeting her eyes. ‘ so what now, pretty ? it’s hands in handcuffs, or you’re knockin’ me out right here ? ’
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prison. the word makes her blood run cold , and everything else that falls from his mouth comes through muted like he’d dunked her head beneath the water. of course artemis knew that it was a possibility , that if cameron had gotten grabbed by whatever alpha , omega , delta team that kaldur decided to send out ( she had stopped listening before he’d gotten to that part , doesn’t even know if it’s the big leagues or one of the team’s squads — hero politics have gotten far too complicated for her taste ) it was likely that cam would be heading to the slammer. and that would’ve complicated things further , made him easier to find , perhaps. but what she had to say to him shouldn’t be said with a sheet of plexiglass between them , a prison phone receiver pressed against her ear. but there was something else she’d failed to consider until just then. until his hands were brushing against her sides and that damnable word rings in her ears.
suddenly , she’s seven years old again. two parents left the apartment , and only one returned — if artemis had been able to pick , it would not have been him. arms folded against her chest , she’s bare - footed and the tile of the kitchen floor turned her toes to ice. ‘ where’s mom ?? ’ she’d demanded , chin jutting defiantly. anger to cover her fear.
‘ gone , baby girl. ’ crusher barely spares her a glance , doesn’t seem eager to elaborate further. but his youngest is planted , frozen. he gives a shake of his head and ; ‘ they got her. she’s goin’ to the clink. ’
and her life had changed that night. it had never been normal , being a child of huntress and sportsmaster pretty securely removed that option from the table. she hadalways been meant to be a weapon in her father’s arsenal. but paula had kept things in check. kept him in check. sometimes , artemis allows herself to wonder. if the roles were reversed , if it had been crusher that had taken the fall , maybe — maybe she would’ve had a chance.
what she hadn’t considered was cameron’s potential forced absence in his child’s life. stupid , perhaps. he doesn’t even know , she doesn’t even know if he wants any part of this but her hand falls protectively to her stomach regardless. to that small , easy to miss bump. hopefully , it just looks like she’s attempting to settle any remaining nausea. artemis shifts the melting ice cube in her mouth , remembering to blink , to breathe. then she pockets it in her other cheek. ‘ we need to talk. ’ but doing it here is … not ideal , not when all hell is about to break loose. not when she’d just puked all over the place. so she starts walking again , with no real destination in mind.
this is weird.
weird only because artemis hasn’t said anything — nothing snarky to rebuke him right back, nothing angry from their last fight, and nothing smart to confirm that she’s really leading him right to slaughter. a prison, or an interrogation room, whatever you call it. she isn’t saying anything about it being true: that maybe this whole thing is a trap, and that cameron’s just the idiot who willingly walk right into it.
in fact, he thinks she could barely look him in the eye. is the guilt from their affair, or had their months together softened her so much that the thought of dragging him back behind bars weighed on her more than it should ? if it is, cameron wishes he could nonchalantly offer up a small chortle, dismissive and flirtatious: tells her it isn’t her fault. none of it is. he chose this: the life of a criminal. he knew the risks, the consequences, and still walk the same damning path.
the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, right ?
( and maybe it’s safe too. affirming. when he’d come back, when he’d accepted the job and return to the nitty gritty of the wretched sides of human activities, it was so easy that cameron sometimes gets lightheaded thinking he could ever leave it. thinking he could ever have a chance. that small aparment, artemis in his arms, a dog who likes him, a stable job. who was he kidding ? who was he trying to fucking fool ? )
yet — cameron doesn’t stop her. just one instruction, and he’s already at her heels. like this, from behind, he can almost imagine them as kids, sneaking around warehouses and dingy places their dads had placed them. any adventures and forgotten toys left by the kids’ neighborhood, they would scour them, take it as theirs for as long as they’d stay there. artemis was always so brave, so determined, then and now.
he gets it, why carrot-top couldn’t resist. hell, he couldn’t either. god, cameron just wishes ... that artemis didn’t have to come back at all. she had the perfect life — why is she still here bothered with him ?
‘ take off your mask, ’ he finally says, a request. his tone is hushed, maybe a little tired - but don’t tell his employers that. ‘ let your hair loose. there should be a gas station five blocks from here. let me buy you some water, hm ? some - i don’t know, gastric pills or something. you really came to get me without a vehicle ? maybe you need to report this to the leagues’ management or somethin’. i could’ve easily run away, you know. ’ a small joke, but that’s all he could say.
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fuck.
it’s hardly a surprising turn of events , artemis has been dealing with this particular brand of bullshit for a few weeks solid. a bucket at her bedside for quick and easy access , ducking into bathrooms , her head in trash cans as her stomach makes it’s fury known. morning sickness. mentally scoffs once more at the sheer inaccuracy of the name and what it implies. christ , she’d gotten a whiff of zatanna’s perfume a couple days ago and it was enough to rid her of the lunch artemis had only just paid for. but she thought maybe — just maybe — she could manage this.
and maybe she could’ve. if it hadn’t taken so long for opportunity to present itself. in and out like a ghost. unseen , unheard. because she couldn’t afford any complications , not when she has it on good authority that his pals aren’t exactly fond of her. and , if they’d been clued in weren’t likely to let her walk off with cameron in tow. not without one hell of a fight. or maybe , she was simply doomed to such a fate from the start and some cosmic force in the universe was enjoying her suffering. with the way things have been going lately , it seems entirely possible.
artemis is acutely aware of his hand on her back , the gentle way he holds back her hair. and it’s nearly enough for the dam to break , for a flood that she had no way of stopping to be unleased. it’s embarrassing. how touch - starved she’s become in the weeks without him. how soft she’s become when she was meant to be iron - clad. only further cementing crusher’s disappointment. good , the vindictive part of her snarls. but it would be nice — supremely nice !! — if she could avoid melting into a fucking puddle at cameron’s tender touches , his kindness she isn’t sure she deserved.
his fingers on her skin , forcing her gaze. his thumb at her mouth like nothing had changed and taking care of her was still his responsibility. artemis wants nothing more than to bury her head in his chest , arms tightly wrapped around his middle and sob until she’s blissfully empty. instead , she gives her head a shake , not trusting herself to speak and , when the ice cube is conjured up , she quickly pops it into her mouth.
it helps. the frigid nature of the ice helps to shock herself back to a more normal rhythm and , as a bonus , it washes out the all too familiar taste of bile from her mouth. gives her head another shake because he doesn’t get it then — pushes the ice cube into the hollow of her cheek ; ‘ they didn’t send me. kaldur gave me the heads - up. so I could get here first. ’
he’s on auto-pilot, one foot in the continuous chasm of knowing he’s fucked up somewhere, and he’s terrified by it. think about it: he’s fucking everything up right now by just being here, by trusting her too much that he’d followed her away when he has a job and a fist on the line if he doesn’t do it well. the threat of the consequence like an iron grip, it won’t let him go — and then there’s the other foot. the one that doesn’t give a shit, not really. after all, if he’d fucked up so much that it’d gotten him here, what’s a little more ?
so cameron allows his hands to stay even though he knows he shouldn’t — it’s still easy though, like he remembers. cupping her face like this, something their father had wanted to crush, but cameron had loved it. loved her, in every moment they spent. the dirty jokes, the crazy bed hair, and late night banh mi’s. maybe up until that terrible fight when he’d walked out, haunted in ways he didn’t think another living man could in the shape of a well-loved redheaded hero, cameron had just ... loved.
but then again, who is he kidding ? ever since they’ve met when they were kids - has he ever stopped ?
‘ you didn’t have to go through that much just to kick me back into prison, sweetcheeks, ’ an easy tease , though cameron knows as much as he can feel how the joke lands flat; his smile, small, never reaches his eyes. his hands now roam her sides — so casual, like he never fucking left, what the hell is wrong with him — holding her steady. ‘ not that i don’t appreciate the extra effort t’ make me feel special ... ’
a tight expression, hoping it’s passed off as a stunted grin at most, and not the ugly reflection of whatever insecurity that’s threatening to split him open. fuck, maybe there’s another meta power his dad missed after all. ‘ what, ’ cameron says low, almost hushed; half defeated. ‘ carrot-top’s neglecting the princely duty or something ? don’t think puking counts as a power flex - yet. ’ you shouldn’t be here, he means. not if you’re unwell.
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she’d expected a fight. a back and forth that they didn’t have time for , venom flying from his lips to poison her slowly. or — worse , perhaps — that’d he’d act like none of it ever happened. make some slimy joke or lewd suggestion as if he had never spent time in her bed , her shower , her kitchen. as if he hadn’t left a cam - shaped hole in her life when he’d left , slamming the door with a grim finality that driven home just how fantastically she’d fucked up. instead , he nods. and the relief that blossoms in her chest is downright overwhelming for a second. it softens the hard set of her mouth , smooths the harshness around her eyes and slowly — slowly , artemis releases her grip. takes a step backwards , then slinks back towards the way she’d come , glancing back only once to see if he was actually following.
artemis moves like a shadow , swift and silent. crouched low , slow and steady until she reaches the small section of fence with the damaged barbed wire that had allowed her to scale up and over it without being hindered. and she wastes little time now , climbing as though it were a rock wall at a gym. up and over , then drops down on the other side of it. she ignores her ankle’s screaming protests , ignores the deep seated exhaustion that settles in her bones , the budding nausea that swirls unpleasantly in her stomach. or tries to , at least.
morning sickness my ass …
she inhales through her nose , exhales through slightly parted lips. trying — failing — to quell this particular storm. feels the race against time even more acutely than she had mere moments ago. her hands a flurry of motion that , she hopes , signals him to HURRY THE FUCK UP. and then , artemis begins to walk , trying to put as much distance between them and the building as she possibly could before —
she doubles over , as if she’d been punched in the stomach by some invisible force. just barely manages to pull her mask from her face before spilling the contents of her ( empty ) stomach onto the concrete.
this is a bad idea.
not that junior’s ever been blessed with having excellent ideas that don’t backfire — but there is something to be said about having followed his childhood friend out, someone he has actively been sleeping with until that relationship reach its inevitable end a few weeks ago ( or has it been months ? ) , who also happens to be a member of a league, the good guys, when he, the bad guy, is supposed to be at work, and probably help monitoring the surrounding to which the rest of the bad guys are operating in.
it’s an absolutely bad idea, and junior’s way in over his head — apart of him can’t help but to somehow think, in its quiet, childish way, that this must be an ambush, cause what else could artemis possibly lead him towards ? — but he doesn’t stop following her. the curve of her back, the stealthiness to which she carries herself. maybe this was why the bad guys never quite win : when the heroes train, they train to be the best. when the criminals train, they mostly want to beat each other.
cameron doesn’t think anyone else could catch the difference, but it’s there. or maybe that’s just the lump in his throat, a physical manifestation of how much he missed artemis, making itself known.
he hurries over, still not quite having the word in his mouth even though there are so many protests and questions and flirtatious remarks that his brain could conjure up as a means to compensate for the tension in the air. it isn’t until artemis doubles over, vomiting, that junior pales up. he sheds his ice form, and it’s like the weeks they spent apart was never there, before cameron comes besides her —
‘ fuck, art — ’ he’s not repulsed by the sight of the vomit. when you’ve lived your whole lives being by the street, surrounded by the worst of the worst, there’s very little that can have you truly step back and evaluate your preferences. so cameron merely lays a hand behind her back, the other wraps around her hair, making sure no blond strands are caught up in the expulsion.
‘ you’re okay. you’re okay, baby. ’ she doesn’t like coddling - he knows that, but he can’t help it. he’d wanted to touch her since ... cameron doesn’t think about it. he waits, and only when it’s looked like she’s calmed down that he pulls her face — gently — so she’d turn to him. he wipes at any trace of vomit left with his thumb ( like he said : this isn’t new ) and asks, ‘ hey. you’ve got any water on you ? it’ll make it less awful, okay - the taste in your mouth. ’
and of course they’ve got to me in the middle of fucking nowhere — not a convenience store in sight. cameron thinks quick on his feet, and produces a small, cylindrical ice cube. ‘ you think this will do ? ’ and then, pulling himself out of the shock, cameron finally questions : ‘ fuck, why’d the league pulled you in if you’re sick, art, jesus. ’ and then, inwardly - if it’s just t’ get me ... shit, i’m not worth it.
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the situation is hardly ideal — her in uniform , him all iced up. artemis batting for the good guys and cameron playing defense for the baddies. it’s not easy to have a conversation , not when he’d fucking ghosted her. not when they’re supposed to be fighting , not when his usual crew lurked within the formerly abandoned building that’d been recently claimed by their nefarious activity and — any moment one of them could get wise. realize that junior had been gone for awhile , that tigress had pulled him into the shadows , pressed him against the security fence and pinned him there with the hands that refused to lessen their deathly tight grip upon his shirt. with her dark eyes that flashed with something closely resembling desperation. expression remains half - hidden behind her mask , but there was no missing that.
‘ shut up. ’ cuts him off the moment his jaw begins to work , her own voice a hushed murmur. ‘ you’re just going to say something stupid , and we don’t have time for that. you need to come with me. now. ’
the fact that she’s here is already alarming enough.
the tension of what they had, what cameron had thought they could be, heavy in the air as soon as he spots her — but it’s also the added fact that she’s in uniform which, well, spells trouble. in a lot of ways. and he doubted that, had it not been anything that’s related to the league, artemis would’ve shown up with the whole arrow garb. if artemis had simply wanted to find him, she would’ve found something that can have her blend in, and go away without standing out. this, though ? this just means the villains fucked up - again.
for some reason, junior doesn’t exactly make a beeline to raise this concern to anyone’s in charge. no, he’s too dumbstruck by the way artemis is clutching at him — just a few weeks ago, he would’ve wrapped his arms right back. would’ve leaned in, teased her, and kissed that mouth. funny, how quickly things change.
yet, still — junior doesn’t move away.
and that’s the horrifying thing, isn’t it ? before, he would’ve not given any shit if anything goes down. sure, he wouldn’t have preferred being locked up and sent away, but if it comes with the job - it comes with the job. junior ain’t complaining. now though ... now it’s like the whole world could burn, but if artemis had asked him to hold on, he ... he would’ve had. in a heartbeat. he trusted her so much; he’d never lost that faith. that’s scary.
so he nods, silent. follows her.
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CREDIT. you know i’m only alive because of this psd, ( with a few tweaking to suit the aesthetics i desired !!! ) thank you so much to @ashtynrph for making the resources available - i wouldn’t have enjoyed rping so much without the help !!!
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The Dead Don’t Die (2019) dir. Jim Jarmusch
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‘ hey there, gorgeous. long time no see. ’ he’s a little cocky, a little bold. doesn’t intimidate him any less when he leans against the wall, and smirks. / open.
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this is an independent roleplaying blog for CAMERON MAHKENT / ICICLE JR from the animated series DC’S YOUNG JUSTICE. written by bella, which you might’ve known cause i wrote this disaster ice man a lot on my multi. come say hi if you’re an old friend ! this is a sideblog, which means i’ll be following from my main, halfkryptn, thank you :)
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