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iaintyourslut · 1 year
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10/26/22
alam mo yung feeling na gusto mo sumaya pero yung mga nakapaligid sayo parang ayaw kang sumaya? pagod na pagod na ako umintindi. hirap na hirap na ako sa sitwasyon kong to na paulit ulit. 
nakakapagod yung, paulit ulit mong iniiyakan yung same problem na kung gugustuhin naman ng lahat e, maaayos. mahirap ba yon? lahat naman ginagawa ko, maging maayos lang yung pamilya na dating masaya na ngayon hindi mo na alam kung ano takbo. hirap talaga tangina. pagod na ako. nireremix nanaman ata ni lord buhay ko. di naman ako pwedeng sumuko kasi meron umaasa sakin, di ko rin naman kaya gawin sakaniya yung mawala ako bigla kasi ako nalang ata yung inaasahan niya na meron siya kahit na puro ako trabaho. tangina para sakanila naman lahat tong mga ginagawa ko kasi gusto ko maayos buhay namin. ginagalingan ko na nga e, hindi ko na nga alam yung salitang pahing, kakatrabaho. 
pagod na talaga ako. di ko alam kung worth it pa ba tong ginagawa ko kung panay ganun naman ginagawa nila. walang pagbabago, paulut ulit. parang sakit na e, kumbaga disease na walang lunas na kasi pabalik pablik. wala, gusto ko lang type dito mga nararamdaman ko ngayon kasi ayoko na ring mag share sa mga kaibigan ko kasi paulit ulit lang naman at alam na rin nila na eto at eto lang problema ko, kumbaga “what’s new?”. keep up naman sana sila. papagod na ako e. hay. sama sama sama sama talaga ng loob ko. kanina sa sobrang lungkot at sama ng loob ko nag break down na ako sa harap nila, wala na akong pake kung makita nila akong hagulgol kasi tangina napaka unfair. mamatay nalang ako na eto at eto yung problemang meron ako. 
putangina? 
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iaintyourslut · 2 years
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feels wrong but it’s right
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iaintyourslut · 2 years
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i’ve been dealing with same shit for 28 years now lol 
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iaintyourslut · 2 years
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gusto ko sana mag life update here kaso tinatamad ako kasi same same lang naman nangyayari sa buhay ko haha umay na ako guys for today’s vidjo
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iaintyourslut · 2 years
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death is not the greatest loss in life. the greatest lost is what dies inside us while we live.
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iaintyourslut · 2 years
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minsan talaga may mga bagay na hindi para sayo
e.g lovelife
lol
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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patience, my love. i am not yet as i am supposed to be, but i am yours.
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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i feel like i want to hug every single person in the world and then later, spit them out.
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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sa lungkot ng buhay ko, ikaw yung nag bigay muli ng saya sa akin.
nag papasalamat ako sa Panginoon dahil sa wakas, pinadala ka na rin niya sa buhay ko.
salamat, Ama! 💜
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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Me posting on tumblr:
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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27th ✨
27 things I’ve learned in 27 years of life:
1. Until you learn to be okay being alone, you will never be okay being with someone else. Being alone isn’t lonely!
2. Self-care is not selfish. Self-care is essential to your well-being.
3. Your siblings turn out to be the best people out there. We were always fighting when we were kids. But, all of a sudden they turn into my favorite people in the world. They always have my back.
4. Family is everything. Period.
5. It’s okay to be seen starting at the bottom. No one starts at the top.
6. It is no one else’s responsibility to do your self-growth and healing for you. It’s up to you to put in the work.
7. It’s okay for friendships to ebb and flow and not remain the same as they always have. It’s okay for old friends to fade away. You will always appreciate that person for who they were to you; but sometimes you just have to let go.
8. Holding grudges doesn’t make you strong. It makes you bitter. Learn to forgive others, not because they deserve forgiveness but because you deserve peace. Forgiveness doesn’t mean what happened was okay. And, it doesn’t mean that person should be in your life. It just means you have made peace with the pain, and you’re ready to let it go.
9. Life will continue to give you the same lesson over and over until you have finally mastered it.
10. God always answers your prayers with, “Yes,” “Yes, but not now,” or “No, because I have something even better for you in store.”
11. Some people may not like me and it’s okay. It’s not my job to please everyone. What they think of me is merely their opinion.
12. Grey’s Anatomy will literally make you a cry baby lol
13. Supernatural thought me that family is everything.
14. The quality of your friendships is more important than the quantity of your friendships.
15. You can have fun and be fun without alcohol.
16. Posting a “pa-yummy” photo doesn’t mean you’re asking for it or you’re seeking validation. You don’t need anyone to approve your worth.
17. When you give back to this world, the universe will bless you by giving back to you.
18. It’s okay to simply say “no” to people. You don’t need to come up with made up excuses. Hehe.
19. Face your demons. Work through your own problems, and stop carrying them into your next fight.
20. Have fun. Do things that bring you joy. It’s good for your soul. And if it involves other people, it’s even better. Add joy to the world.
21. Communication is a key but you should also learn how to listen. To be able to tell other what’s on your mind without fighting and arguing.
22. Appreciate what you have while you still have it.
23. Don’t compare yourself to other people. You’ll only hurt yourself.
24. It is okay to be sad. Just never let it consume you.
25. It’s 100% okay to leave a situation if it’s not right. Don’t stay just to keep from rocking the boat. If something isn’t right, change it. Leave. Just leave with dignity.
26. You will figure it out. You’ll find a way to get through the things that stressing you out.
27. Be kind. Even to those who are unkind to you. :)
Cheers to surviving my 27 years! 🍻
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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🖤
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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i love it when i catch you looking at me..
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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happiness is when a baby holds your finger ☺️🤍
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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best thing i ever did was not tell people what’s going on in my life
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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SUICIDAL FEELINGS
How you might think or feel
hopeless, like there is no point in living
tearful and overwhelmed by negative thoughts
unbearable pain that you can't imagine ending
useless, not wanted or not needed by others
desperate, as if you have no other choice
like everyone would be better off without you
cut off from your body or physically numb
fascinated by death.
What you may experience
poor sleep, including waking up earlier than you want to
a change in appetite, weight gain or loss
no desire to take care of yourself, for example neglecting your physical appearance
wanting to avoid others
making a will or giving away possessions
struggling to communicate
self-loathing and low self-esteem
urges to self-harm.
a change in appetite, weight gain or loss
no desire to take care of yourself, for example neglecting your physical appearance
wanting to avoid others
making a will or giving away possessions
struggling to communicate
self-loathing and low self-esteem
urges to self-harm.
You may want others to understand what you're going through, but you might feel:
unable to tell someone
unsure of who to tell
concerned that they won't understand
fearful of being judged
worried you'll upset them.
unable to tell someone
unsure of who to tell
concerned that they won't understand
fearful of being judged
worried you'll upset them.
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iaintyourslut · 3 years
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2020 SUMMARY
- dad got alcoholic again after his second rehabilitation - business was stopped due to pandemic - grand mom died. cause: covid - i was covid positive and was quarantined for almost a month  - my family was also covid positive. got it from me.  - loss a lot of money because all of our business was temporarily closed  - no one from our neighbor helped us. instead of helping us they choose to spread to everyone “uy, wag kayo pumunta don may covid silang lahat” lol  - relatives from my dad’s side “meh”  - relatives from my mom’s side “meh” also. i hope my 2021 will be better
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