need active mutuals on here soooo bad

89lbs bc <3

i’m back 🤭

anyways hi still disordered just not doing it on here anymore

i just logged into this account for the first time in a year why the hell does this have 900 notes 😭😭

i haven’t had anything yet today <3 super excited because i’ve finally been restricting for long enough that the urge to eat isn’t as strong anymore

i think the new meds i got put on are definitely helping suppress my appetite though so that’s also a plus

cw: 90 lbs

hiii guys sorry for disappearing again 😭

i was still having some health issues but i’m back for good now i think lol

i hope ur all doing well !! <3

sos i’m 98 lbs again but i’m going on vacation in a week 😭 i need to lose something by then

sorry for not posting i’m in my forced recovery era 🫶

i will be back on my bullshit asap no worries

officially not malnourished anymore, but also i’m 97lbs </3 time to restrict LOL

i’m not going to go as hard as i did before obviously but i’m fine now so fuck my doctors because this 2k cals a day meal plan is killing me and i’m gaining so fast 😖 i think i’m going to bring it down to 1k to start

i might not lose for awhile but i don’t want to go back to the hospital so i need to go slow, plus at the very least i’ll maintain. i just don’t want to gain anymore weight - especially during the summer lmaoo

hey guys!!

sorry for disappearing, i got sent to residential (aka forced recovery)😭 basically, i was at literal risk of dying so i’m gonna be throwing my ed habits out the window for awhile lmao and i don’t think i’m ever going to fast again tbh lmaoo

i went in at 87 lbs and good news is my vitals are stable at 90 lbs so i got discharged but honestly... i’ve been considering recovery since i kinda want to gain weight so this doesn’t happen again. it really opened my eyes to the fact that there’s nothing i want more than to keep this body, but it’s simply not healthy to maintain this weight and i don’t want to kill myself to be skinny </3

while i think about recovering, i’m still going to eat normally for awhile instead of restricting because if there’s one thing that recovery taught me it’s that i can eat way more than i have been and still lose weight lol. they had me on 2300 cals doing three meals a day for two weeks and i only gained 3 lbs ??? so word of advice to everyone: you don’t need to eat under 1000 cals to lose weight, it really all depends on what you’re eating!

anyways, sorry for the long post! i just wanted to explain why i’ve been gone. and hopefully this will help someone :’)

i hope you’re all doing well !! <3

actually cackling over the fact that james charles is trending on twitter because of edtwt, the twt community brings way too much attention to themselves 😭

privated my account REAL quick cause i know all those beauty youtube drama channels are going to take this and have a field day with it

Yes I have a nightly routine it’s called being Insane in my room till I pass out

hi everyone !!

sorry for not being active recently, i’ve been in the hospital :’) (not ed related, surprisingly)

i’m definitely going to have to focus on my health for awhile so i won’t be restricting or on my ed shit at all for probably a long time, and i don’t think i’ll post much either. i’ll still be lurking though because i miss seeing everyone’s posts ✨

i hope you’re all doing well !! <3

hi guys how are u all doing !! i’m making a sweater currently

i love trader joe’s so much for this

they’re literally huge (i included the 3rd pic for size reference lol) and 70 cals for 2 of them like omg ???