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another day. another battle of attrition. waiting to see if my exhaustion of life — if my boredom with this day in, day out drudgery of existence will finally send me over the edge.

i remember that fear, blitzing through me and making me tremble and cry uncontrollably. it’s the fear that any living thing feels when staring its own end in the face, knowing that the ability to know is about to be stripped away. and i’m fully aware that i am probably not brave enough to do it again, to contend with the rawest and most agonizing of terrors.

but that doesn’t mean i don’t fantasize about it. about maybe delicately taking a blade to my wrist, parting my flesh and watching it eagerly burst open like an overripe berry, crimson warming my skin. maybe it would shock me, more than hurt. maybe i’d sit there, frozen, breath coming fast fast fast and not getting enough oxygen to compensate for the life leaving my body. would i die that way, caught unawares by the brutality of a self-inflicted death, unable to look away from the damage i’ve done to myself? or would i panic, cry scream sob and wish i could undo the past five seconds, the way i did after swallowing those pills all those years ago?

i’m more alone than i’ve ever been in my entire life. were i to try anything, it would probably actually kill me this time. no parents around to check on me in the morning. no friends to see my imploding social media presence and call me, twice, leave a worried voicemail that i’ll never listen to. it could be perfect. i would disappear from the earth the way i’ve been dreaming of. the only problem is the mess, the apartment i’d leave behind.

i should move out and put everything in a storage locker beforehand. resign from my job, break up with my boyfriend, wrap up all my loose ends. leave the car where my parents can get it and maybe just walk into the ocean, swallow the waves and whatever poison will kill me the fastest. i don’t know what i want to feel before death, but maybe i was wrong, and i do deserve for it to hurt.

yet i am a coward. and so i write instead.

It's never felt more like a 'Fuck western lefties' time for Iranians than now! My people are struggling socially and economically under the rule of a fascist dictator terrorist regime, getting beaten, murdered and silenced by a corrupt government, that is vastly unpopular, day in day out. Now we're at the brink of a costly war on top of everything. And western left wingers are CHEERING ON THE ISLAMIC REPUBLIC! Twitter and Instagram are full of dumb westerners acting like the IR is some kind of hero here. Fuckin hell. Two terrorist regimes are going at each other, the result is going to be more misery and civilian deaths. More destruction and casualties. There's nothing to cheer for here.

I can just hope this won't escalate into another humanitarian crisis. God knows the world doesn't need more war and loss of innocent lives right now.

its time for some video game Grey Morality! so we’ve got an oppressed minority here who are being enslaved and murdered, do you want to join them and help fight for their freedom, or side with the oppressors to eradicate them completely? but wait!! before you make your decision, get this - and this is where it gets really grey - some of the minority aren’t very nice to you

you ever get surprised by your own recurring issues. like come on man. I thought we were past this.

Judy texting V (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)⁄ 

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Who’s Eid…….

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