My life seems good on paper, but the reality of it all is that it’s a big ass joke. Mentally and emotionally I’m exhausted. Physically I feel like I’m going to die from pain. I just want someone to genuinely care about me. Love me. But it seems like it won’t ever happen. I just get half assed everything. I don’t get effort or priority. I just sit alone for hours crying and I’m told that I’m too annoying and sensitive to deal with.

No one takes me too seriously about my health conditions. Especially the people closest to me because I seem fine enough. No one knows how much constant pain I’m in. I don’t even know what it’s like to have a day where I felt absolutely comfortable. I had open heart surgery when I was 11, and that’s probably where my memory of pain begins even though I know I was in pain before that surgery.

My body hurts like 24/7. My brain is mean to me 25/8. And there is no comfort. I just want it to stop.

I feel so alone.

Silent Hills (P.T.)

hi, tumblr. It’s me again.

it’s been awhile since I’ve been on this bitch. But I need somewhere I can let some feelings out where probably no one is paying attention. so here I am, back on tumblr. Lol not that anyone really cares but maybe that’s why I’m here. Maybe some sort of diary or whatever. Idk lol

✨solo mírame con esos ojitos lindos Y con eso yo estoy bien✨

📸: @hellohoebag

㋡🥀

Seascape...

One of my faves ✨

📸: @currentwastelandd

Been awhile since i posted on this thang. Going to see how my modeling does on this.

#Friday

My milkshake brings all the cats to the yard #icanteachyoubutihavetocharge

#ok #loveme #go

It's too early #imhalfasleep

Losing at this game as much as I'm losing at life thanks @eden_is_dead #why

#newdaynewhope #wordsfrommyboss

#feelingfab #loveme