Tired of being the bad guy
Anyone else feel like they just get shit on by their friends and coworkers rip on them for saying something slightly insensitive? I hate it, ive tried being nice all my life but I cant do it anymore. If someone asks me a question im gonna answer truthfully and if i said something someone doesnt like just talk to me, dont fucking send me a text bitching and lecturing me over unimportant crap
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I don’t know
Its nighttime for the 3,000th time, and im still alone and still depressed, and I can’t drink because of all the pain killers im on thanks to this wisdom tooth that needs to be removed for a billion dollars
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First Gen
I fucking hate being a first gen student. I have literally met no one else in any of my classes who is a first generational student. It sucks because none of them know what it’s like. I don’t live an academic life, I’m not an intellectual and they are always shocked to find that I have nothing in common with them, I have no will power to be like them. I never had a proper schedule as a kid, no journal, no academic interests, I didn’t have any musical instruments and I wasn’t reading as much as I should. I’m from an uneducated background, like a family of high school drop outs, and so I’m constantly under pressure to compete with these nerds while being incredibly lonely around my Neanderthal family
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Fuck Life
It feels so long since I used this account and I don’t know if anyone will see this. Maybe I should go on reddit.
For some reason everyone in my life wants to fuck with me. I spent a whole month waiting to get a part time job, then I finally show up for the interview and they hire me on the spot, and by this time I’m in the rut. I had to barrow money from my friends and family, I couldnt get any gov assistance, and everything was hard for me. And then all of the sudden I get a job, and it wasnt even the job I wanted. I was a fool, I made it seem like I was super available even though i wasnt because I needed a job so I wouldnt be eating roman noodles for dinner, but I had little time for work thanks to school.
So far its been shitty, I hate my customers, and now I have a new boss who is fucking stupid. He doesnt know how to do anything, and then I needed a day off, a day, because my lab partners were super wishy washy about when to meet that I never got a date until the last second.
Now, after being yelled at, and having to go to a meeting where i’ll be lectured about scheduling and time management like im a fucking kid, I have tomorrow off to do this stupid assignment together.
What do I get just a couple minutes ago, a text from my classmate asking if i can do it monday, WHEN I WORK, and that they didnt get what they said they would get. I know they didnt do this on purpose, and they probably have hard times rn too, but wtf. No i cannot take time off monday. Too bad the place we were planning on getting it from is closed tomorrow.
Im only bitching about this because this is part of a never ending stream of bullshit in my life. I want to plan my dad’s 50th birthday on thanksgiving so I can have time to come home, nope we gotta do it the weekend before and so that means I had to ask my racist grandpa to come pick me up bc my car broke down, and I didnt have time to work my first shift, oh good, I have no money to buy presents and my sisters get him something to make me look like a jackass.
Life is fucking stupid, I’m in a constant battle having to choose between family, school, work, friendships, and just having a life of my own. Nothing ever works out for me. I somehow pissed off god a while ago and since then I had no say in how anything goes, I make none of my own choices in life, I’m just on a ride, an emotional roller coaster I’m never allowed to get off.
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I wanted to make a low resolution photo with some filters over it and play music in the background. The music didn’t work so here’s the pic I made. I call it
Lofty Delight
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Taco
I love having taco salad for dinner :p also turkey burger is a great choice for someone with a beef intolerance
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I hate mornings, at least my class goes to the cemetery today, spooky
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Hi
Haven't posted anything in a while, I’m really tired of school, can’t wait for this to be over and work that sweet 9 to 5 for years until I retire, and get sent to a crappy nursing home to rot and die :)
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Long time no see
Hi, its been a while, guess we are all still trapped in a dystopian nightmare
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hi
I wanna curl up into a little ball and cry until my eyes burn
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3/30
Tee hee clumsy me I shattered my wrist and got put in a cast monday
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I would be honored if this was played at my funeral, with strobe lights
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crab
I dont think theres any better song than crab rave, none can compare
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3/22
This is my 1st time a professor ever gave out letter grades and for some reason I feel stressed out, thank god I have my white claws, (I pretend they’re healthy)
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Every time I override a machine they literally wont do anything, they just stand there and scream at the threat until I shoot an arrow and then it’s showtime. I don’t know if I did something wrong or they just take a long time to attack
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divide
I like looking out my kitchen window and seeing the barbed wire fence my school put up around the woods. Really keeping us safe from the threat of nature :/
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