GROWING PAINS

david wojnarowicz / alexander harding / su xinyu / @pearpoem / lorde / open house (1998) / billy collins / mitski / as i was moving ahead occasionally i saw brief glimpses of beauty (2000) / alain de bottom / hollis brown thornton / kalyn roseanne

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned (1934)

sorry for having a huge cock and correct opinions on everything. as if it’s my fault.

why have I started putting trigger warnings on my journal entries?? who do I think is reading this bullshit other than me and the ghosts in my room??

rest in peace dorian gray, you would have loved selfies

rest in peace narcissus you would have loved the portrait of dorian gray

im not built for this 9-5 life im built for living in a gothic castle as a vampire

“Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me a little?”

— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals

dress up just to study, chew on the caps of your highlighters while you scribble notes in the margins of your books, put your feet up on your desk and drink cinnamon tea with too much sugar, learn calligraphy and write your favorite quotes on pages of old books and tape them to your wall, drink wine and read in the bath and use that bathbomb you keep forgetting is in your cabinet, play your favorite music play classical music play music from the 20s and dance down your hallway just because, call your friends and read aloud like each word is the most important one on the page, see if you can light enough candles to not need to use a lamp and open your window even though it’s cold, go for a walk and see if you can take a turn you haven’t taken before, live life as a challenge of how fun and dramatic a tiny world can be

“I never change, I simply become more myself.”

— Joyce Carol Oates, Solstice

in my defence i'm stupid as hell your honor

TPWK (2021)

year of the cow

i would love to carpe diem but i also have anxiety