I’m Jewish and we’ve had “the holidays” (Jewish New Years you eat, Yom Kippur you eat a lot before and after the fast, now sukkot you have two holiday eves so you eat a lot.) and I just ate so sucking much. Also in between there’s the traditional Friday Feast so we just eat a shit ton of food during this 1.5 months. Tomorrow is finally the last day. I’m going to eat 1,200 cals tomorrow, and after that I’m starting a diet. I will choose a cute fall diet ofc.

You went over your calorie intake? You fat pig. Go burn it off or something. Disgusting.

Take some workouts

Don't Mess Up Again

I’m literally sitting in front of my pills and procrastinating killing myself

You burn 250 cals if you smoke a pack a day???

I smoke about half a pack let’s go

So it’s been a while..

But I can’t take it anymore

Tomorrow morning I’m weighing in to see the damage recovery has done.

I’m back

I’ve decided to go completely crazy

A few hours after that decision, I’m depressed now, decided that maybe actually putting some effort into this blog might be a cool idea

Im mostly inspired by Alice Oseman’s book Solitaire, about Tori Spring

I hate kids. There, I said it. I don’t have any idea why I wanted to work with kids in the first place, or why have I decided that having a little sister is fun.

I’m losing my mind rather quickly. Please don’t hate me.

Thinking about stopping my morning meds because they made me gain weight

Do you ever feel like you’re losing touch with your ed?

Like my ed “comes back” every once in a while but then starts to disappear again, I don’t want it to go

Help me out

I cracked and finally ate after 96 hours, be proud of me

Update: purged all of it

Hit 90 hours fasting, please praise me because no one cares in the ward

Been fasting for 50 hours, let’s see how long before I get kicked out from this ward

What’s your fav diet?

I’m doing a fast to see how long I last but I wanna do a diet after that, so send me any diet and I’ll pick one and update how I’m doing!

Love y’all

Things I’ve learned on how to fast

-DRINK WATER. Or zero cal drinks, or coffee or tea, just drink up. More than 2 liters. You’ll thank me later

-go on light walks but don’t exercise after 24 hours, your body is burning enough already.

-again on walks, DO IT. It’s helpful, it will get your digestive system going and help poop out the rest of the food

-make sure to rest a lot, you burn a lot of cals while asleep plus post nap skinny is the best feeling

That’s just a bit of my knowledge, stay safe

My psychologist said I need to eat something that I like

I ordered a pizza

I’m terrified

If I ever get terminated I’m coming back with the same name with a 1 at the end lol

Me: maybe I could eat dinner even tho I ate lunch

Also me: or you could stop being a fat pig and starve

I was torn between eating a full day of meals and not eating all day, you know what I did?

I spun a bottle

The bottle said no food today

Guess who’s starving today :)