Why wasn't friendship as good as a relationship? Why wasn't it even better? It was two people who remained together, day after day, bound not by sex or physical attraction or money or children or property, but only by the shared agreement to keep going, the mutual dedication to a union that could never be codified.

— Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

“I will never say the things that I want to say to you. I know the damage it would do. I love you more than I hate my loneliness and pain.”

— Henry Rollins // Solipsist

The dark days don’t last forever // https://www.instagram.com/sunlightafterdark/?hl=en

I never meant to lock myself in your arms;

I never meant to lose the key.

I swear this will kill me

does anyone else feel they’ve been stuck in one place in their mind since this quarantine started despite the fact that you’ve been places

I'm in pain because the day is ending and somehow l am never healing.

Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait In Letters

if you’re

on tumblr instead of studying for your classes

clap your hands

because i have made mistakes,

i am able to forgive others their mistakes.

Hello sunshine,

goodbye pain.

Goodbye, rain.

Goodbye Rain, Hush Kids

"I wish I didn't have this hope.

I wish I could just let it go and burn out, then it wouldn't hurt me now...I wish I wasn't me now."

I wrote these words 393 days ago! 

Guess what, past me, that awful hope that you hate it the thing that makes you who you are. I know it twists in your gut and hoping for something that will never happen is really hard. But someday the things you hope for WILL happen. Or, even better, you look back and you’re so GRATEFUL that the things you hoped for didn’t happen, because if things had gone differently you wouldn’t have made it to where you are.

scientia est potentia

attempting to motivate myself to go back to school ft. pictures from freshman year (a sweeter time)

I remembered who I was when I learned to dance with the fear that I'd been running from.

Fear, Ben Rector

"Paint a picture in my brain, encapsulate the fleeting feeling It ricochets, replace my pain 'til every trace is leaving.”  

- October, Alessia Cara

natural elements in the lakes

🌴☀️🌺

Flowers in my hair // I belong by the sea

[I'm legally obligated to post pictures of my coffee bc of my URL even though Starbucks isn't rlly coffee]

Thinking abt the fact that in a few weeks I'm gonna become a studyblr 😔

it's been a cruel summer but I'm gonna miss living in denial

starting to adapt my notion pages to my changing lifestyle & it’s p exhilarating to try something new !! also had to balance studying for my orgo midterm w other tasks this week — was busy (‘: