As a suicidal person for some time now. It is clear to m ethat family friends whatever mean well. But to ask are you okay? Do you want to come over? Blah blah are something. But it's not enough. What the suicidal mind wants to hear desperately is affirmations not questions. Example: I want you to be okay. I want you around. Come over I want to hang out with you.

Anyway, if you don't vote for Biden to Teach Him A Lesson and Trump wins, I'm sure all the thousands more Palestinians killed in Gaza when Trump gives Netanyahu full steam ahead and pulls all diplomatic support for a ceasefire/peace process, the Ukrainians and/or other Eastern Europeans likewise genocided when Trump gives Putin everything he wants and pulls out of NATO, the immigrants deported and put in concentration camps, the protesters detained en masse under the Insurrection Act, the women who die from being refused divorces and reproductive care, the LGBTQ+ people legislated and harassed out of public life, the people of color murdered by fully sanctioned white supremacy, and the societies around the world affected by America's collapse into a theocratic fascist dictatorship will definitely fall at your feet in thanks and give you the Gold Medal For Twitter Social Justice. So yknow, that's very important.

So, you can balloon up or you can shrink down and I will still love you. Even if I shrink down to two inches? I'd carry you around in my pocket. MONICA GELLER AND CHANDLER BING FRIENDS (1994-2004)

Kali Reis as Evangeline Navarro in S4E02 of TRUE DETECTIVE

hmm I actually think people saying that true detective s4 is just s1 but with women are being racist and disrespectful to Issa López actually!!! López is using a franchise that has been mostly white and mostly male (shoutout to mahershala ali in season 3 which i know none of you fuckin fakes watched) to center issues of Indigenous sovereignty, missing Indigenous women, racism against Indigenous people, and how climate exploitation disproportionately affects Indigenous communities. Apart from the ✨vibes✨ which td has always kept gothically consistent despite different settings and characters, I know youse are not seriously saying a season of television written by a Latina woman in 2023 and centering Indigenous people is "basically the same" as a season of tv about 2 white dudes written by a catholic white guy in 2014. Ftr I don't think season 4 is without issue but Be fucking serious.

for real true detective s4 going full on into the magical realism that s1 scratched the surface of while remaining firmly rooted in the reality and pain of the oppressed is everything I could’ve wanted for a s1 follow up. that mix of cosmic horror and the ‘commonplace' evils of a mining town poisoning its indigenous inhabitants while an estranged member of that community resists against her racist stepmother's attempts to assimilate her into whiteness etc is so far pretty balanced.

it doesn’t leave reality behind to focus on fantasy and keeps the two entwined.

this is such a crucial part of crafting magical realism, like I talk about it with the terror, with twin peaks, and disco elysium, etc. without the realism magical realism is rendered hollow and meaningless. in these stories fantasy has to be a lens with which you further explore your relationship with reality, if it isn’t than its just there, doing nothing, being disparate

True Detective 4.03 "Part 3"

Kali Reis as Evangeline Navarro & Jodie Foster as Liz Danvers TRUE DETECTIVE (NIGHT COUNTRY) - S04E03

The only time I was free was when Ely didn't speak to me me much. I guess the difference was I was free but still thought down on myself bc I didn't have elys approval

Elys approval I've been chasing and lol rarely had ill never live if I keep chasing it

I always said Ely let's have a cook out. Ely let's swim. Ely let's decorate. Ely let's make this place a nice little place bc we living here. And Ely always treat me like shit on her shoe. Now she had a girlfriend I am happy for her that she had changed for the better and acts like a human and wants to build a home and act like the place she lives at is nice and isn't a hovel. But it sickening to me and builds resentment in me that elys change hasn't been for me for mom for her self but it had to be for some stranger who fit some weird ass Caucasian criteria. Bc she had a mexican girlfriend I hated and from the many things I hated of her I was like if you hated her so much why not cut her lose? Bc as I hated her for you I saw you being a shit and dragging her along for your lowr fulfillment. Until you could find a bitch who in your works I'm sure happened to be Caucasian who happen3d to be of higher value. Just by happenstance I'm sure. Even I am guiltly of it. Just valuing a Caucasian young one to be positive. But really its how you treat her as positive that makes her positive. It's not innate in her.

In my family. The only times anyone spent Christmas away from the family was alma when she had serious issues with my mother. But this year Ely will spend Christmas with her girl friend because she said to me " the bathroom is bad the house had nowhere to relax". Just say you don't give a fuck about your family and stop being a fuckkng coward and suck on your girl friends families cocks and clits?

Drag. All I know is ain't no way I'm going to be thrown down again this year

My sister never loved me. The one I thought was closest to me was using me always. It was always like she needed me to talk about her problems. She needed us to help her. She talked to us about la Vibora and all her high school friends. Then my sister left to college a Hella states away and she was free from our hell family and she made like two friends and she (this should have Been a clue) made a romance with someone and during that period spent the less time in communication with me. To the point I said if you don't say you are alive during this summer I will call the cops. Then I was in college and she was an adult. Graduate from Stanford. And she lived at home again because she was sick. She had surgery. And I was so attention at that time bc my sister returned to me and also she was sick. I spent the night on a bus and then a night in the hospital bc my sister my family is my all. As I grew older Ely introduced me to Guinness and to alcohol. I became alcoholic when my roommate gave me like two 24 packs to finish off. But it was Ely who introduced me to alcohol. If my roommate had said have at this beer I would have been like um idk if I hadn't already been introduced by my sister

When I had my drunk driving crash and I was sobbing telling mom and she asked me amongst other things who introduced you to that I lied. I said it was a friend as t college. But it was Ely.

Going through my own thing is hard bc idk if I'm a person like mom or Ely or anyone else I struggle in a way I never had to find identity bc I'm always being a fu kkg weird sjw wondering and asking if you are OK with gay ppl, what do you think about Trans ppl?. Meanwhile I endure racism. Bc my sister never brought it up. When it happens almost at every interaction I don't know how to react. I don't know how to find my way out. I'll never forgive myself once being asked/found out as mexican laughing at racist mexican jokes. I grow older and never make a connection to college friends. Of my high-school friends I got calls from Margaret sporadically bur then she burned her home, tried to kill her male relative (I understand) and went to jail. From jail she contacted me and was born again Christian and it killed me so much I deleted Facebook. I later found videos of her mom taking her to Nigeria to testify and say she was not a lesbian anymore. My best friend from High school was so hurt she was unrecognizable it hurt to speak to her so I stopped . Today I have no friends. It felt like when I tried I gave and got nothing. I thought ok focus on family. But that was wrong bc I focus on Ely. And that bitch only used me to find anyone a friend a girlfriend any one who is a stranger to be around her. Bc to her anyone who is a stranger is more valuable to her and more normal to her than anyone in her family. She sought outward and is fulfilled by out ward persons.

britneyspears: My book has a lot of sad stories and drama in it … I’m sure some are aware of that but just know there are tons of other beautiful and good stories in #TheWomanInMe but that’s not what the media decides to pick up all the time !!! It is what it is … so going forward just know that was me then … that’s the past and this is me now !!! To the good stuff and a little nasty too 🙄🤷🏼‍♀️📖 !!! Psss throwback to when they wanted me in my pajamas for the Overprotected video but I said … please that’s too sweet, give me some damn clothes 😂👗😳 !!! Swipe to see clothes !!! @ gallerybooks @ simonandschuster

📷: Chris Applebaum

Not everything is a fuckkng fight --- well how bout you stop disrespecting me?