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caitlyn-winchester · 4 months
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maybe this christmas time
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pairing: steve harrington x sunshine!reader
summary: working as an elf during the holidays (which he isn’t a fan of) is not how steve would choose to spend his time, neither is doing a bucket list of your creation. you end up changing his mind.
word count: 9.5k
warnings: use of she/her pronouns for r, some grumpy steve (he’s still a softie underneath it, i can’t help it!), some family issues (a phone call from steve’s mom), a rude customer, christmas activities/themes, fluff, and a first kiss!
a/n: merry christmas and happy holidays from me to you!!! i hope u guys enjoy this one, i had a lot of fun writing it!! big big thank you to @bcyhoods for sending the request that inspired me to write this fic and to @bruisedboys who helped me out when i was unsure about things <333 ily guys i hope u all have the happiest of holidays!
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Starcourt Mall is decorated to the brim. Fake snow and garlands, giant ornaments hanging from the ceiling, a Christmas tree that stays lit all day long.
And, in the middle of it all, Santa’s Workshop.
That’s where you are, where you’ve been for a couple of Decembers now. Every other month of the year, you work at the movie theater, scooping popcorn and scanning tickets. But, for December, you trade in your cinema t-shirt for an elf outfit, striped tights and all.
“It’s really not so bad once you get past the itching,” you tell Steve.
“Great,” he says, the sarcasm clear in his tone.
“Great,” you repeat, cheery enough for the both of you.
He wasn’t sure how it could get any worse than the sailor uniform. That is, until he saw what he had to wear for this gig.
It’s Steve Harrington’s first year at Santa’s Workshop, and you’ve been tasked with training him, though the job is mostly self-explanatory.
But unlike you, Steve didn’t volunteer for this.
“I can’t believe they picked me to do this,” he sighs. “Don’t even like elves.”
“Well they had to pick someone, Steve.” You shrug, “who knows, you might end up having fun!”
“Not likely.”
“At the very least, you’re getting paid, right?” You nudge him once with your elbow, “plus, if you’re extra nice, some moms give pretty good tips.”
You and Steve went to school together, but he never really spoke to you then. It was only after graduation that you had any sort of conversation with him. They mostly consisted of him bribing you with free ice cream to let Dustin and the gang into the movies for free.
That was after you caught him letting them into the back rooms to sneak in.
Now, Steve’s wearing a pair of slippers that jingle with every step just like yours, and in the only two shifts you’ve had together so far, you’ve spoken more than ever. Even if it’s mostly been instructions from you and an unenthusiastic comment in response from Steve.
“Do I really have to wear these fucking shoes?” He asks, following you out of the staff room.
“Yes. It’s part of the uniform.” You turn around to face him, walking backwards while he walks forwards. “Don’t worry, you’ll tune out the jingling soon enough.”
“I’ll hear these jingles in my nightmares.”
“At least you look cute!”
You spin back around, and Steve only rolls his eyes as he trudges on behind you.
Steve’s not quite sure how he feels about you, whether he finds you a little annoying or endearing. At the moment, with an elf hat squishing his hair, he’s leaning a little more towards the first.
He didn’t know you during school. Admittedly, he was an asshole for most of his time at Hawkins High, so that explains that. Even still, he doesn’t know much about you, only that you’re kind enough not to snitch on him for sneaking the kids into the movies and that you seem to seep sunshine all the fucking time.
And your sunshine seems to be dialed up during the holidays. Like you really believe in ‘holiday cheer.’
Steve knows, deep down and buried somewhere he’s not quite ready to face yet, that he’s mostly just jealous. Because if you like the holidays so much, if you’re smiling the way you do so often, you must have it pretty good at home.
To him, nothing else makes sense. Not when Christmas at the Harrington household has been absolute shit for years. First, it was the gifts he never wanted, things his parents didn’t care enough to know he didn’t like. Then, they dwindled until, eventually, Christmas did, too.
There’s a travel discount during the holidays, sweetie. We’re visiting dad’s boss’ cabin. Next year, we promise. Excuse, excuse, excuse.
So yeah, Steve’s never really understood the appeal. Walking behind you in a pair of jingling shoes and a scratchy outfit, he’s not sure he ever will.
You lead him towards the area where Santa’s Workshop has been set up, right by the fountain. There’s bright red carpet rolled out over the usual tiled floors, an area set up for the cue of families, and of course, a bench where some guy playing Santa will sit.
“Since we’re opening today I’ll show you the whole set-up routine.” You step over the rope with the sign that says ‘Gone to feed the reindeer!’ with Steve in tow. “Easy peasy.”
Steve steps over the rope behind you, shaking his head at the sound his shoes make when he lands. He chooses to listen to your voice instead.
“First, we count the props,” you nod over at the bin that’s tucked away behind a small tree, “there should be four sets of antlers, two santa hats, a red nose, and some extra elf hats.”
He stares at you—because why on earth would you have that memorized—and raises his eyebrows. For a moment, as he watches you grab the clipboard that sits atop the prob bin and start counting, Steve wonders if maybe he should be more like you. The kind of person who seems to see the good in everything.
Then, he remembers what the outfit he’s got on looks like and shakes the thought away.
“Why would anyone want to be a clown in these pictures?” He says.
“The red nose is for Rudolph, dummy.”
You say dummy with a smile, like it’s something to admire. Steve huffs.
“Rudolph’s a loser.”
“Aw, come on, he’s got his own song and everything! I’d say that makes him the opposite of a loser.”
“Of course you would,” he mutters, cursing the tiniest twitch of a smile that tugs at the corners of his mouth. “What’s next?”
“Right,” you grab the bag that you brought from the staff room and set it on the ground by the tripod that’s already set up. “Next is the camera. Here, I’ll show you.”
The only knowledge Steve’s got of cameras comes from whatever Jonathan has told him, which hasn’t been very much, considering the pair’s history on the topic despite them being friends now.
So, he steps closer to you, watches as you pull the camera out of the bag.
“You just have to switch it on and make sure the battery’s full, right there,” you say, pointing at the small symbol that lets you know if the camera’s charged or not. “And don’t forget to take the lens cap off. I did it once and this dad yelled at me, so...”
You pop the lens cap off, putting it in the bag. Steve’s standing close to you, right behind you, his chin hovering over your shoulder, the warmth of his chest just shy of brushing against your back.
“Finally,” you continue, ignoring the little skip in your heartbeat, the way you breathe just a tiny bit quicker. “Set it up on the tripod, and you’re good to go.”
He watches your fingertips move easily, securing the camera to the tripod. When you’re done, you turn around to face him, and it’s only then that Steve realizes how close he’s gotten.
Close enough that you stumble and land against his chest, his hands on your upper arms to steady you as you pull back quickly, like you’d been burned. Steve, however, doesn’t let go just yet and he’s got no idea why.
He doesn’t let go until the music in the mall is switched on, the opening notes of some Christmas song startling you both. Steve steps back and releases you, dropping his hands by his sides and ignoring the twitch of his fingers.
“Alright,” you say, trying to brush the moment off. “That sound means we’re open. You ready?”
“Do I have a choice?”
“Nope!”
-
Your lunch breaks at Santa’s Workshop feel like a luxury, because no matter how much you enjoy the job, it’s nice to get away from the rowdy children it forces you to deal with.
Unlike your job at the theater, where your breaks are staggered, the workshop closes for an hour every day, meaning that even during lunch, Steve’s stuck with you.
The sign by the line for Santa is flipped, and parents groan whenever they see the festive font saying you’ll be back in an hour.
You take the hour spent in the staff room as a time to ask him questions, what his hobbies are (“does driving a pack of 13-year-olds around count?”), if he likes his job at Scoops (“I’m starting to appreciate it more. The lesser of two evils, or something”), if he’d introduce you to Robin someday (“I’m afraid of what that might do to my sanity.”)
Today, you’re trying to tackle the subject of his Grinch-like tendencies.
“What’s your favorite Christmas movie?” You ask.
Steve doesn’t know why he continues to answer your questions whenever you throw them at him—which is often—but he does. He thinks it might be like being mean to a puppy, ignoring you. Unnecessarily cruel.
“Don’t have one.”
“Ugh. Come on, Steve! Everyone has a favorite.” You slump in your seat across from him at the small table in the break room. Steve stares at you blankly as he takes another bite of his lunch. “You can tell me.”
“I’m serious,” he says, nudging your foot with his when it comes close. “They’re cheesy.”
“Aren’t you secretly a rom-com fan?”
“How did you-”
“So, you actually enjoy cheesy movies!”
“Okay, well you don’t have to say it to the entire mall. Gosh.”
Steve wonders how you know that about him, how you’ve been able to guess a lot of things without him telling you. Briefly, just for a second, he wonders if that might mean something.
Like, if maybe you’re in his life now for a reason.
“Don’t worry, your secret’s safe with me, Steve.” You smile what you hope is an honest, reassuring smile. “So, the cheesiness isn’t the root of the issue.”
“No, I guess not.”
“I’m gonna take a guess here,” you start, “and say that you’re not a fan of Christmas.”
“You’re not gonna let this go, are you?”
“Steve, I’ve never heard someone complain about jingle bells so much in my life.”
“We can’t all behave like we’ve been injected with sunshine.”
You don’t think he means it as a compliment, but you decide to take it as one nonetheless. But you suppose he’s right, there’s always gotta be a balance. Dark and light, happy and sad.
“Thank you,” you give him a quick grin. “And you’re avoiding the question.”
He’s silent for a moment, twisting his fork around between his fingers. “My parents never really did Christmas.”
Your heart squeezes a little in your chest at his words, at the way his tone goes quieter, at the way he looks at the table to avoid catching your eye.
Immediately, you feel guilty for prying, because the last thing you’d ever wanted to do was force him to tell you something he didn’t want to. It’s not your place, no matter how curious you are, no matter how much you’d like to give him a hug or something right about now.
It’s not your place, but you find yourself wishing it could be.
“Shit, I’m sorry, Steve.” You reach for his hand that sits on the table and give it a quick squeeze before pulling back. “You don’t have to talk about it. I shouldn’t have bugged you.”
“It’s okay. I’ve had a lot of time to accept it.” He shrugs, like it doesn’t affect him. But from the scrunch in his brows, you can tell it does, at least a little bit. “The Harringtons have better things to do than sit around cleaning up wrapping paper.”
Steve feels embarrassed, his cheeks warm and his head bent. He doesn’t like scraping this wound open, doesn’t like to think about what he was missing out on while everyone thought his life was perfect.
He especially doesn’t want you looking at him like he’s injured or something after this.
Surprisingly to Steve, you don’t. You actually do quite the opposite. You smile brightly at him, like you’ve just had an excellent idea, like you can inject a bit of your sunshine into him with it.
“How about this: I’ll teach you how great Christmas can be.”
“I think it might be a little late for that.” Steve tries to shake his admission away, to clear the room. He points at the elf hat on his head, “this outfit has ruined any last shred of hope I had.”
“How many times do I have to tell you that you make a cute elf? You pull it off better than I do.”
“You don’t have to lie to me.”
“I’m not!” Steve raises his eyebrows at you. You ignore that look. “Whatever. I cannot in good conscience, let you keep disliking Christmas. Think of how fun it could be. Plus, you owe me for all of those movies I let your children into.”
Steve already finds it difficult to say no to you, because of how kind you remain even when he’s snarky with you, because of the same kindness you seem to offer to everyone you meet.
So, even though he’s not sure what your plan entails, he sighs and says: “okay. Fine.”
“Wait, really?”
“Don’t make me change my mind.”
You cheer, clapping a little in your seat. “Oh my gosh, we can go skating, and go to one of those Christmas light festivals, and make cookies-”
“What did I get myself into?” Steve mutters, while you’re still rambling off ideas.
“-I’m gonna need to make a list.”
Even after your break ends, you seem to have an extra pep in your step, if that’s even possible. Your smile is a bit wider, your eyes brighter, and Steve can’t help but feel a little special for being somewhat responsible for that.
Really, what did I get myself into, he wonders.
-
In the time between him agreeing to your Christmas plans a couple of days ago and now, at yet another shift, Steve has realized that he actually likes you quite a bit. Even though your seemingly constant optimism drives him a little bit crazy.
You treat everyone with an attitude that’s so rare, he finds that his previous annoyance for you is slowly becoming overtaken by the endearment.
He won’t admit it, not when bantering with you seems to be the highlight of his days lately, but Steve is starting to be sort of grateful that he got selected for this job.
And that has absolutely nothing to do with the outfit he wears. He still fucking hates that.
“It’s alright, cutie,” he hears your voice say, all soft and understanding. He finds you, crouched down to talk to a little girl who seems to be wary of Santa. “I bet Santa will give you something extra from your list if you smile for the picture.”
The girl nods, like she’s determined. But, when you stand back up, she grabs onto your hand by your side.
“What is it?” You ask her.
“Can you do it with me?”
You look over to the girl’s mother where she stands to the side, and she nods, eager to get the picture done. So, with that, you say, “okay, then.”
Steve’s standing behind the camera as he watches you help the girl onto the bench beside Santa. Then you’re sitting beside her and telling her to look at the nice boy behind the camera.
It takes him a second to realize you’re talking about him, but when he does, he forces himself into action, bending to look through the viewfinder.
“Say cheese,” he says.
The click of the camera sounds, and then it’s done. You help the girl down, who goes over to her mom quickly and they head over to grab their picture.
Once they’re gone, the line dies down, giving you and Steve a rare pause from the pictures and overenthusiastic welcomes to ‘the North Pole.’
“I hope that family’s okay with my face in their picture,” you say, coming to stand beside Steve by the camera. “I mean, I know the mom nodded, but maybe they’ll cut me out of it.”
You’ve become more comfortable with Steve the more you’ve worked with him, getting to know him in how his grumpiness is more related to the holidays and early mornings than anything else, in how he turns the same grumpiness down when he talks to the kids.
You think he’s grown more comfortable with you, too, because he’s started bringing you a coffee in a festive cup in the morning, leaving it in your cubby without a word.
From Steve, you think that says a lot. His actions have always spoken louder than his words, you think. Like the free ice cream he gives you from Scoops, or the small nod he’d give you whenever he’d pick up the kids from a movie.
And now, there’s the small tug of his lips, the hint of a smile that has you saying, “Steve Harrington are you smiling right now?”
“Shut up,” he shakes his head at you. “That was sweet. What you did for that girl.”
Steve lets himself say what he thinks for once, because there’s nobody else around, because he wants you to hear it.
You hide your shy smile by looking down at your feet. You know that underneath everything, Steve is probably one of the best boys you’ve ever met, because even with his attitude, he’ll never say anything to truly hurt you, and with how little you know about his family, you also know that it’s rare for someone in his situation to remain so good.
Any resemblance of a compliment from Steve feels extra special, like its own gift in itself.
“Ruining her picture, you mean?” You ask, trying to cover up how you feel about him calling you sweet.
“You didn’t ruin that picture, sunshine.”
Sunshine. That’s new.
“Well I’m glad someone thinks so.”
Before Steve has the chance to respond, the line picks up again, and it’s back to business as usual. The routine click of the camera, the sound of parents telling their kids to smile nice and big.
You and Steve catching each other’s eye when a particularly entertaining family rolls around, laughing at the way he does an impression of a mom after she leaves. With work being sort of like this every day, you wish it could be Christmas all year round. You much prefer this to the theater, you think.
Steve can't say that he likes this job more than Scoops—Robin might call him traitorous—but he finds that you’d been at least a little right when you said that it would get better when he got used to things, when he hears the sound of your laugh rather than those stupid bells on his shoes.
He finds that he sometimes has to remind himself that he doesn’t like the holidays, that they aren’t like this all the time.
At the end of your shift, as you and Steve grab your stuff from the staff room, you turn to him, leaning against the wall as he shrugs on his coat.
“So, I made a list,” you say. “We are going to have the best Christmas ever, Harrington.”
“My standards are very low, so it wouldn’t take much.”
“Don’t care. I have plans. We can make gingerbread houses and get Christmas pajamas-”
“Absolutely not.”
While Steve already agreed to letting you show him Christmas your way, he thinks he can only take so much at a time. Small doses of your jolly spirit are plenty.
“Steeeve.”
“I am drawing the line. No Christmas pajamas. Not happening.”
“But the gingerbread houses are a yes?” You ask, hopeful and smiling like it’ll persuade him.
“I’ll get back to you on that one.”
That’s what Steve decides to say, instead of simply agreeing because he finds that he’d like to spend time with you outside of work, to see if you’re really so bright all the time, to see if he can soak it up a little better when he’s not dressed as a damn elf.
That’s what he decides to say because it’s easier than spilling the rest of it out there. Much, much easier.
“But you already agreed!” You pout at him a little, exaggerated dramatics on your part. “You can’t just tell me I can teach you Christmas and then back out, I mean, I made an actual bucket list. With glitter and shit.”
“Oh no, not the glitter,” Steve places a hand on his chest, sarcastically scandalized. “That makes it serious.”
You blink at him, giving him a blank look. “Don’t diss the list. By the end of it, you’re gonna be jolly as fuck, trust me.”
“Jolly as fuck,” he repeats, shaking his head on a laugh. “You’ve got a way with words, sunshine.”
“Thank you.” You push your tote bag onto your shoulder, fishing out your keys, they clink in your palm when you find them. “I’m not letting you back out of this, by the way. The list is binding.”
“Well in that case
”
You give Steve a little smile, the flash of a sunbeam, before heading out, and he’s left standing in the break room wondering what you’ve got on that list, why you seem to care so much about it.
Huffing, he supposes he’ll find out soon enough.
-
Steve definitely should not have told you that he’d never been ice skating before.
It all started when you’d been talking about that damn list at your most recent shift, a couple of days after he’d accepted the fact that he couldn’t back out of it (did he really want to?).
“Hey, you have a change of clothes in your bag, right?” You’d asked him in between families.
“Um
 yeah. Why?”
“Because, Steve, our festivities begin today after work!” You clapped your hands together softly, excited and encouraging, yet delicate. “I haven’t quite decided what we’re starting with yet.”
“I thought you had a list.”
“I do! But it’s not in order,” you shrugged, “I’m more of a mood-based decision maker, anyways.”
“Of course you are,” he’d said, his usual sarcasm lighter, laced with something you couldn’t quite place.
“So I’m thinking we go skating-”
“Nope.”
“You can't say no to every idea I have. Then how will you get the Christmas experience?”
“I won’t say no to everything.” You looked at him like you didn’t believe him, so, quietly, he added, “it’s just, I’ve never been skating before.”
“Steve, that’s nothing to be embarrassed about,” you reassured him easily, your voice honest in a sort of natural way, like you couldn't lie even if you tried. “All the more reason to give it a try. The point is to have fun, not to be good at it. I’m really not that great, myself.”
“If I hate it, we’re leaving.”
“Deal.”
And that’s how he’d ended up here, standing next to you at the rental counter at the ice rink, telling some teenager his shoe size so he could get a pair of skates.
Steve looks at you as you talk to the teenager, paying before he even gets the chance. He looks at the hat you’ve got on your head, the way your jeans are cuffed just enough to let your snowman patterned socks peek out of your boots.
He realizes that he’s only ever really seen you in uniform, at the theater and as an elf, and he thinks, quickly, like a car driving by, that you look really pretty like this. With snowflakes stuck in your eyelashes and all.
Though he’s never said it, barely let himself think it, he’s always found you pretty in a sort of undeniable way, like it was just a fact. Now, he finds you pretty in a way that makes him feel it.
His heart beats like it feels it, too. The traitor.
“Thank you,” you say, grabbing both your and Steve’s pairs of skates. You turn to him, smiling like always, Christmas lights reflected in your eyes, “ready to go?”
“As I'll ever be,” he says, letting you lead the way to the benches by the rink.
He watches the way you tie your skates, copying your movements on his own pair, double knotting the bow at the end. When you stand, he stays seated for a moment, suddenly more nervous than before, because the last thing he wants to do is embarrass himself in front of you, in front of everyone around.
Like you can read his mind, you say, “it’s okay, the first step is only standing. It looks harder than it is, promise.”
“I feel like you’re lying to make me feel better.”
“Why don’t you just stand up and find out, then?”
He rolls his eyes, more at himself than you, and pushes himself up from the bench. It takes him a second to get used to the feeling of the skates, of balancing on them, but eventually, he nods at you, eager to get it over with.
“‘Kay, so it’s gonna feel weird when you step on the ice, but you can just hold onto the side until you get the hang of it.” You start walking ahead of him, turning back to say, “I have a feeling you’ll be a natural.”
“Sure you do,” he mutters, shaking his head.
The rink is outdoors, the walls surrounded with string lights of all kinds, twinkling and colorful. In the middle, there’s a big tree, a shining gold star sat on top. There’s a hot chocolate stand to the side, the smell mingling with the freshness of the cold.
There are Christmas songs playing over the speakers (of course), and Steve thinks that if he hears one more rendition of “Jingle Bell Rock,” he’ll have to invest in a pair of ear plugs. On top of that, there’s the sound of laughter, kids with their parents, friends, couples, everyone seems to be having fun.
Everyone seems to be at ease except for him.
You step onto the rink first, skating a couple of steps forward to give Steve room to get on. He holds onto the side like you told him to, lifting a foot and stepping forward slowly, his foot slipping a little when it hits the ice.
You don’t say anything, don’t pressure him, only stand there with a kindness in your eyes that tells him you won’t be anything but patient.
Still, he doesn’t take too long to get the other foot on the ice, too, his feet carrying him forward a little bit, his hand gripping the side tighter.
“See? It’s not so bad,” you skate to his side, leaving space between you as Steve holds out his arm for balance. “Now all you gotta do is push yourself forward.”
“You make it sound like it’s easy.”
“It’s called being encouraging, Steve. Let me be encouraging!”
“Fine,” he stares down at his feet, his hair falling over his forehead. “So what do I do?”
“Use one foot to push, and then let yourself glide, switch feet, and repeat. You can do it.”
He gives it a go, and finds that it isn’t awful, but he moves slowly, and looking around at the other people skating, he’s not an impressive skater at all.
Steve has always felt the urge to be good at everything he does, basketball, driving, even fucking babysitting. He’s always tried so hard to do things well, like maybe, if he was talented enough, his parents would care more, would finally be proud of him for something.
He swallows that thought down and pushes forward again.
You follow his speed, gliding easily beside him, “look at you go!”
“I look like an idiot,” he says, his arm outstretched beside him, the other gripping the side, his knees bent.
When you look at him, though, all you see is the pink of his cheeks and nose from the cold, the way his hair brushes against his forehead, the focus in his eyes, the determination. No, you don’t think he looks like an idiot at all.
“You look like you’re trying, and that’s a great look on you, Steve.”
This time, it isn’t only the cold that pinkens his cheeks.
He doesn’t have time to muster up a reply, because the next time Steve skates ahead, he stumbles, his balance wavering until he feels your hand grabbing onto his arm to help steady him.
Then, your hand moves to hold his, and even through the layers of both of your gloves, he feels the warmth in his fingertips, some sort of tingling.
“This way, if you fall, so do I,” you say, squeezing his hand once, winking at him like the thought of falling doesn’t scare you one bit.
“Are you sure about that?”
“Super sure.”
You hadn’t been lying on that one, because eventually Steve does fall, and you fall right along with him, landing on the ice with a little, “oop!”
On his back, Steve turns his head to look at you, your hair a mess around you, some on your cheeks. He reaches out and brushes it away.
“You okay, sunshine?”
The response he gets is the sound of your laughter, a single loud cackle that has your eyes widening and a hand smacking over your mouth.
Your laughter fades into a fit of giggles, one so infectious that Steve—surrounded by all kinds of Christmas-themed things he swore he hated—laughs along with you.
And for the first time, maybe in his entire life, Steve thinks that the holidays might not be the worst thing ever.
-
Steve’s in a bad mood today, that scrunch in his brows you'd thought had been easing away back in full force.
It’s your first shift back together since you’d been skating only a couple of days ago, and you can’t help but worry that maybe it was too much, that you’d pushed him too far.
Even though, at the time, he’d been smiling more than you’ve seen him smile maybe ever, and you really thought that you had a shot at making Christmas better for him. You worry that he wasn’t as happy as he seemed, that he was pretending to have fun for your sake.
Steve, on the other hand, is actually glad to be at work for once, glad for the distraction it gives him. He’s unaware that his emotions are so visible on his face, that you think an ounce of his annoyance and anger is aimed at you.
All he knows is that after the morning he had, he needs this distraction.
This morning, it wasn’t the beep of his alarm that had woken him up, but the shrill ring of the phone on his bedside table. Groggy, with his eyes still half shut, Steve picked up the phone.
He wishes he didn’t.
“Hello?” His voice was almost a groan, scratchy from sleep, irritated at being woken up earlier than his alarm.
“Steve, sweetie!” His mother’s voice made him squint his eyes shut further. “Why do you sound so tired?”
“‘Cause it’s six in the morning, mom.”
“Oh, silly me. I forgot about time zones,” she said, though she didn’t sound the least bit apologetic. She didn’t even care enough to know what time it was for her son. “Anyways, I’m calling to let you know your father and I won’t make it home for Christmas this year. There’s this banquet we just can’t miss. You understand, don’t you?”
Steve doesn’t know why he’d been surprised, doesn’t know why her words, completely devoid of any kind of empathy towards the situation, made his stomach hurt.
“Yeah, okay,” he’d said, because it was no use to do anything but agree.
This was his normal: an almost monthly phone call from one of his parents from wherever they are in the world, no matter the time, always telling him that they’re missing this holiday, his birthday (which, at this point, he was shocked they even remembered), anything.
“That’s my boy,” she’d said, as if she knew him at all. She didn’t. Hasn’t known him—or cared to—for a long time. “I knew you’d understand.”
“Right.”
“Oh, there’s your father. Gotta go.”
And just like that, she hung up.
Steve almost wishes that they’d never call at all, because maybe then it would be easier to swallow their neglect. If they’d just forget him completely, he could get rid of that stupid, tiny sprout of hope he feels whenever they call, hoping things will be different.
At least it was his mother this time, he thinks. His father is a hundred times worse, only ever disappointed in Steve, asking about his job or when he plans on ‘getting a real life,’ never about him.
So yeah, Steve’s in a bad mood today.
The two of you don’t talk for the majority of your shift, you, afraid that Steve’s angry with you, opting to give him space, and Steve, stewing in every negative emotion that comes along with a phone call from his parents.
You don’t talk until one of the last families in line for the day comes up.
Once the kids are in place, you lean down to look through the viewfinder, counting them down and snapping the picture when they say ‘cheese.’ To the side, the children’s mom looks at you with so much judgment, Steve, even brewing in his thoughts, notices.
With the picture taken, you take the camera over to the mom, letting her see the picture the way you do with all the parents, making sure they approve.
Instead of approval, what you get is, “what the hell is that?”
You’ve dealt with your fair share of rude customers, at every job you’ve had, but this woman all but screams at you, and that’s rare. “Sorry,” you say, “I can take a new one, no problem.”
“I better be getting the new one for free with how these pictures are looking,” she practically hisses at you.
Usually, you can handle stuff like this, can smack on a smile and politely agree to get things taken care of, but today, the mixture of all your self-doubt and worrying about messing things up with Steve and this mother shouting at you, things pile up, and you feel your happy mask slipping.
“Um,” you start, voice small.
“You elves get worse every year,” she says to you. “I can’t believe people this incompetent even exist.”
Steve, hearing the whole thing, is quick to step in front of you, any thoughts about his shitty parents quickly fading in favor of helping you.
“Excuse me, ma’am, but she already offered to take another picture, and if that isn’t good for you, you’re free to leave,” Steve’s voice doesn’t slip one bit, standing his ground with every word.
You’re overwhelmed with everything going on, and when Steve turns around to look at you, nodding his head towards the staff room, you take the escape he offers you quickly, eyes blurry with tears you won’t let fall until you’re alone.
“You can’t speak to me like that!” The woman stomps her foot.
“I can, actually. She,” he points in the direction you’d gone, “is the kindest person I know, and you shouldn’t speak to her that way. I understand the holidays are a stressful time for everyone, but we spend all day helping people like you take these pictures, and the least you could do is say ‘thank you.’”
Rather than respond, the woman takes her children’s hands and stomps off.
Steve turns to find that the few families that had been in line before have decided to leave, and he takes the emptiness of Santa’s Workshop as an opportunity to follow after you.
He finds you sitting on the bench beneath your cubby in the break room, head buried in your hands, sniffling a little like you’re trying to be as quiet as possible. Steve can’t think about anything other than how much he hates seeing you upset, like a cloud covering the sun.
“Hey,” he says gently, sitting beside you on the bench. “Don’t listen to any of that. She was a bitch.”
You’re both grateful and unhappy that Steve came after you. Grateful because he’s kind, because he’s showing you that he cares. Unhappy because you’re embarrassed of him seeing you like this, because he calls you sunshine and you don’t feel like that right now.
It takes a second before you move your hands, wiping at your cheeks before turning to look at Steve, his brown eyes already on your face, unbelievably soft.
“I’m sorry,” you say, “I don’t know why I’m crying. It’s stupid.”
“It’s not,” he assures you. “She was awful to you after a long enough day. You have every right to be upset.”
“You’re being really nice,” your voice breaks a little bit, fighting any more tears that threaten to spill.
“I can be nice. I should be nicer to you.” He knows he should, but with Christmas and everything, it’s easy for him to be grouchy. “You sound surprised.”
“It’s just,” you shrug, almost defeated. “I thought you were mad at me today.”
Steve’s heart fucking aches at the sound of your voice, all small and lacking of the light he’s somehow come to like so much. And when another tear slips down your cheek, he can’t stop himself from reaching out and holding your face in his hands, thumbing the tear away lightly.
“I don’t think I could ever really be mad at you, sunshine.”
“Oh.”
His hands are warm where they hold your cheeks, a thumb still tracing back and forth over your skin. Not mad, then.
“I, uh,” Steve looks at where his thumb brushes against you, like he can’t believe it’s there, like he doesn’t want to look into your eyes for the next part. “I got a call from my mom this morning. They’re not coming home this year. Again. I shouldn’t be surprised but
 anyways. That’s why I’ve been so quiet and shit today. Not because of you.”
One of your hands comes up to lay over his where it sits on your cheek, tangling your fingers with his and moving your hands down to your lap.
“I’m sorry, Steve.”
“I’m the one who should be sorry. I shouldn’t take this stuff out on you just because you like Christmas and I don’t.”
You smile a little bit, a twitch of your lips, but Steve takes it as a win all the same.
“I’m gonna change that,” you say.
“Sure you will,” he replies, the sarcasm in his voice still there the way it usually is when he teases you, but this time, he’s smiling, too.
-
Steve told you to go home after that, assuring you that he’d take care of the few families left, and when you’d opened your mouth to tell him you were fine, you could stay, he’d pinned you with a look and told you again to let him do it.
So, you did.
You’d thought it would be a day at least until you’d see Steve again, but it’s only a couple of hours after your shift ends.
There’s a knock at your door, your apartment one of the ones built above a shop on Main Street, and even though you have no idea who it could be, you get up, sock-covered feet padding against the floor as you go over to answer it.
You’re surprised to find Steve on the other side—one, because you don’t think you’ve ever told him where you live, and two, because you didn’t think he’d want to see you more today than he already had—a bag in his hand and a shy sort of question on his face.
“Steve? What are you doing here?”
He scratches at the back of his neck with his free hand before responding, a nervous gesture that he hasn’t been able to get rid of. “I thought that maybe, after the day you’ve had, you could use some cheering up. I could, too.”
You remember him telling you about the phone call from his parents, and something in your stomach flutters a little when you realize that his plans to cheer up involve you of all people.
“Okay.” You smile, you can’t really help it, “come in, then.”
He does, closing the door behind him and toeing off his shoes before stepping inside any further. Steve spots your kitchen table easily, and moves to set the bag he’s holding down.
“I thought we could do another thing that might be on your list,” he says. Steve tugs things out of the bag, gingerbread house kits, to be exact. “Gingerbread houses are Christmas bucket list worthy, right?”
“Absolutely,” you search his face, a little confused because last you heard, Steve was not into your whole bucket list thing, but here he is. “And you’re doing this
 voluntarily?”
“I have the receipt. I can return them, if you prefer.”
“No! Don’t do that. I just mean- I thought you didn’t like Christmas or my list and that you were just playing along to be nice.”
“I might not be the biggest fan of Christmas, but,” he shrugs, opening one of the boxes of gingerbread, “you’re a good teacher, sunshine.”
You resist the urge to pinch yourself, like you might be dreaming because Steve, who you’ve grown to like an embarrassing amount, is here, offering to do this with you and giving you a compliment like it’s nothing.
When you respond, you hope your voice doesn’t give away how you really feel. Excited, happy, your heart jumping. “Can I get that in writing?”
“Shut up.” He shakes his head, pointing to the unopened box, “now will you come build this gingerbread house or what?”
“Mine’s gonna be way prettier than yours.”
Steve simply rolls his eyes, but there’s the hint of a smile there, too. He’s happy to see that your light is back, that you didn’t let what happened at work get to you too much.
You sit down beside each other at your table, gingerbread kits laid out in front of you. Icing and sprinkles, a cookie roof and chimney. You’re sure it’ll leave a mess, but right now you don’t mind.
There’s a sort of lightness in the air, the knowledge that this thing—friendship, more, whatever it is—between the two of you is something that you’re both happy to bask in. It’s unspoken, and that doesn’t bother you.
You and Steve start by unpacking all of the pieces, yours laid out neatly, his in a leaning pile that makes you bite back a laugh.
“The fucking roof won’t stay on,” Steve says once you’ve both started to put the houses together, and he sounds genuinely annoyed about it.
“Just put some more icing on it,” you say, “there’s no such thing as too much.”
“I don’t think icing will save me now, sunshine.”
You look away from your own gingerbread house over to Steve’s. His hands are holding the roof up, pushing them together so they meet at the top, and he’s staring at the thing with so much determination that you can’t help but giggle.
“You laughing at me?” Steve quirks a brow at you, but there’s a shine in his eyes. They smile even when his mouth doesn’t.
“I can’t believe you’re taking this so seriously,” you laugh, and that smile of his spreads slowly on Steve’s face, blooming like a flower. “It’s alright to admit defeat, Steve. My house is already better than yours.”
“Woah, this isn’t over yet, alright? Mine just needs time, don’t you worry.”
“Whatever you say, Steve.”
“Someone’s feeling brave tonight,” he teases, nudging you with his elbow without letting go of the roof of his house. “Don’t speak too soon, sunshine. I could be the underdog here.”
You lean over with your icing bag in hand, piping some more into the gap in Steve’s roof. “Here, let me help.”
Steve—always reluctant to accept help of any kind, even the smallest things—lets you. While he watches your face as you pipe the icing, the focus, the way your tongue pokes out from between your lips, you take his distraction as an opportunity to move, letting your icing fall onto his hand instead of the house.
“Oops,” you shrug, your tone suggesting that it wasn’t a mistake at all.
Steve gasps overdramatically, then leans closer to you, “Oh, looks like you’ve got something right there.” His hand reaches for your face, and he spreads the icing from it onto your cheek.
“You’re done for, Harrington.”
He only laughs, bright and quick.
Before you know it, you’re having some sort of food fight, putting a dot of icing on Steve’s nose, him tossing sprinkles at you. It’s a mess, but all you can hear is Steve’s laughter, all you can see is his smile. Unguarded for once, free and genuine.
By the time it dies down, there’s stripes of icing on your cheeks, red and green sprinkles scattered about the floor and on the table, and Steve’s got his own patches of icing to deal with.
“You better help me clean this, Harrington,” you say, your giggles still spilling, fizzling out softly. “What are we gonna decorate these houses with now?”
“Mine’s a lost cause,” he admits, the pieces now in a pile the way they’d started.
“So I won, is what I’m hearing.”
Steve looks at you, at the sparkle in your eyes that had been dimmed earlier at work, at the smile that spreads across your face when his eyes meet yours. Fuck. He thinks you’re completely beautiful, icing across your face and all.
His gaze snags on a piece of green in your hair, and before he can think about it, he reaches up and tugs it out for you.
“Sprinkle,” he says.
You look at his hands, messy from the gingerbread houses but never any less strong, and you remember how they felt in yours when you’d been skating. And when you flick your eyes back to his face, he’s already looking at you, gaze dipping to your mouth quickly, like he can’t help it.
And shit, you think. You really, really like this boy.
Before either of you can say anything more, you’re leaning towards each other, meeting in the middle and you’re not sure if you kiss him or he kisses you, but you end up with your mouths pressed together.
It’s featherlight at first, testing the waters. Then, Steve’s hands cup your jaw gently and pull you back to him, and you wouldn’t dream of doing anything but follow.
He kisses you again, still soft somehow, but more certain, his lips dancing with yours like you’ve done this a hundred times before.
You reach up and grasp his wrists in your hands, feeling his pulse under your thumbs. His heart is racing just as much as yours, you notice. Like your heartbeats have synced to a twin pattern, like this kiss was enough to do that.
And while you’re not sure what will happen after this, you know that something has shifted, that both of you are saying things you’re too afraid to say out loud.
When he pulls back, Steve presses one, two more pecks to your mouth, his thumbs tracing over your skin so lightly you might’ve dreamt it.
He doesn’t think he’ll ever think about kissing the same way after you. Steve feels warm the way he does when the sun beams on him in summer, and quickly, he thinks, I could get used to this feeling.
Then, he gets up and finds a small towel in one of the drawers by your sink, wetting it with warm water before coming back to sit with you.
“Let’s get you cleaned up,” he says, using a finger to tilt your chin up, swiping the towel over your cheeks to get rid of the icing there as lightly as he can.
And that’s that.
-
December twenty-fourth is your last day at Santa’s Workshop. Christmas Eve snuck up quick, and tomorrow, the twenty-fifth, the mall will be closed.
You’ve always enjoyed the job, but this year’s been your favorite by far. Usually, you and your coworkers would get along just fine, talking during shifts and laughing but never expanding outside of work, but it’s completely different with Steve.
He knocked on your door with gingerbread houses in hand and kissed you like it meant something. You like him so much that it’s in your bones, this feeling he brings out of you, how special you feel when you think about the trust he’s shown you.
But looking back, you think you were screwed from the start. From his scrunched brows asking you if the bells on the elf shoes were really necessary, to confiding in you about his parents, that list you made that seemed to be the beginning of what things have grown into now.
Green elf hat lopsided on his head, Steve smiles at you from where he stands by the camera. You smile back without thinking, like it’s natural, an instinct.
“Alright,” he says, talking to the kids sitting on the bench with Santa. “Everyone say ‘cheese’ on three. One, two-”
“Cheese!”
The camera clicks, and then it’s onto the next, the system you and Steve have created moving along smoothly, family after family.
If someone told Steve when he’d started this job, grouchy and prepared to pout about it every day, that he’d grow to like it, that he’s realized he’ll miss it when it’s gone, he would’ve laughed in their faces.
Never in a million years did Steve think he’d come remotely close to enjoying being an elf, but he has (he still fucking hates the outfit, though). You have everything to do with his surprising not-so-hatred of the job, of his careful fondness growing towards the holidays.
It’s all because of you.
Christmas Eve is a busy day at Starcourt mall, parents rushing about for last minute presents, teenagers taking advantage of holiday sales, and families lined up for their Santa pictures they’d forgotten about until now.
You don’t get breaks between families often today, but once you do, you and Steve are next to each other, making imaginary backstories for random people that pass by, dramatically reading lips of conversations.
The next time there’s an opening, you walk over to Steve, holding up your fist as if there’s a microphone in it. “So, Steve, tell me, how does it feel to have survived December as a Christmas elf?”
“I feel like I should get an award, maybe,” he says into your fake microphone. “I’ve gotten two rashes from this scratchy outfit. Two! And I’ll never hear jingle bells the same again.”
You laugh before clearing your throat and getting back into your news anchor character, “wow. You heard it here folks, North Pole outfits are not luxurious.”
“No, they are not.”
Steve can’t help but grin as he looks at you, as he jokes around with you so easily it feels like he’s known you for years instead of a month. He supposes he has known you longer, but never the way he does now.
“Now, will you be returning to Santa’s Workshop in future Decembers, mister Harrington?”
“Well, that depends,” he says. “I think I’ll require a certain presence to be with me if I come back. Can’t survive it without my doses of sunshine.”
My doses of sunshine.
You’ve never reacted to words the way you do with Steve, but when he says things like that, how can you not react? He compliments you in these indirect ways that only you could understand, and this secret language of yours has your heart skipping, your world tinted-pink.
That one makes you break character, “really?”
“Really.”
Looking up at him, at those soft, melting brown eyes that have always told you more than anything else about him, at the fondness in them, you think about that kiss.
You haven’t spoken about it, but you haven’t felt the need to. It meant something, you know that much, and by the way Steve sneaks touches—a squeeze of your hand, a palm on your back—he does, too.
“You make Christmas better,” he tells you.
He leaves you with that as the next family walks up for their picture, but you don’t miss the way his eyes linger on you, his gaze spreading sparkles over your skin.
It’s hard to focus when all you can think about is him calling you sunshine in that soft voice of his he’s only used when you’re alone, but you have to, so it’s back to work you go.
You don’t get to speak much again until your shift is over, the Christmas Eve evening rush swooping in and keeping you both busy.
It’s bittersweet, walking to the back room for the last time from Santa’s Workshop. You’re excited for tomorrow, because it’s Christmas and it’s one of your favorite days of the year, but it’s hitting you now how much you’ll miss seeing Steve nearly every day.
You’ll still see him, of course you will. Whether it’s him getting you to help sneak kids into a movie or maybe something more, something for just the two of you. Either way, you’re at least sure of one thing: Steve Harrington is one of the best people you know.
He’s the first to speak as you step into the staff room. “I have something for you,” he says.
Steve scratches the back of his neck, the smallest hint of pink on his cheeks. He’s nervous, and it’s the sweetest thing. He reaches into his bag, pulling out a small box, a white ribbon tied in a bow around it, a little lopsided, like he’d tied it himself.
You take it from him, smiling down at the box, because no matter what’s in it, he cared enough to get you a gift and that’s what matters, that’s what you’ll hold onto.
“Really?”
“Open it, please.”
You listen, tugging the ribbon loose and opening up the small box. Inside, you find a delicate chain, the pendant in the shape of the sun.
“Steve.” It comes out in a breath, your eyes welling the tiniest bit because this is the best gift you’ve ever received. He’s a gift himself, looking at you shyly, searching your face for a reaction.
“Do you like it?” He asks, his voice soft. “If it’s too much I can-”
“It’s perfect,” you say, and you mean it. “Put it on for me?”
He flashes you a grin, the corners of his mouth tugging up as he nods and takes the necklace from you, undoing the clasp as you turn around and move your hair out of the way.
You can feel his warmth against your back as he drapes the necklace over your collar, his fingers brushing the back of your neck as he fiddles with the clasp.
“There you go,” he says, taking a small step back to give you room to spin back around to face him.
You look down at the sun pendant sitting against your skin, touching it lightly. Steve’s actions speak volumes, and this one makes you feel so many things. But above it all, you feel like his.
He watches your face as you look at the necklace, the slope of your nose and the softness of your cheeks. The flutter of your lashes and the smile you don’t even try to hide. He’s been resisting the urge to kiss you since he’d done it the first time, but it’s stronger than ever now, with his present around your neck.
Your eyes meet when you look back up at him, his brown ones never failing to show how he feels, and your heart skips with how he looks at you. Like he cares, like he doesn’t intend on stopping.
He brushes your hair over your shoulder, fingertips gentle as ever when they brush against the side of your neck.
“I love it, Steve, really. Thank you.”
“You’re welcome, sunshine.”
“I’m sorry I didn’t get you anything, I didn’t expect-”
“Hey,” he cuts you off, his hand shifting to hold yours, fingers lacing with yours easily, “you’ve given me so much.”
Steve doesn’t know how he got lucky enough to get paired with you for this job, how he got lucky enough to have someone look past his slight grumpiness and really see him. You’ve given him Christmas as a whole, erasing bad memories, replacing them with new ones, and he doesn’t think any present could repay you for that.
“Oh wait!” You squeeze his hand before letting go and heading towards your bag, digging until you find what you’d been looking for. You hand Steve a folded piece of paper, “you should have this.”
As he unfolds it, he realizes it’s the bucket list you’d made for him what feels like forever ago, glitter and all. There are activities with check marks beside them, the ones you’d completed, and he shakes his head with the smile he seems to only wear when you’re around.
Very last on the list, your handwriting spells out words that make his chest feel light, his heart full.
‘Make next Christmas just as good.’
Steve finally stops holding himself back and kisses you for the second time, and you’re both certain it won’t be the last.
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i really want to get back into writing and posting but my mental health has honestly been down the drain. i’m always too tired to do/enjoy anything.
is anyone still out there? or are y’all just ghosts now?
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Congrats Joe!! ♡
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i love talking about TV shows lol. im glad someone else agrees with me on obx3
I’m still not the biggest fan of kies parents but i do think her mom is the least of the problem. I think she does try to be a good parent but it can come off wrong because she really doesn’t know what to do. the dad is the worst. He’s like overcompensating because he was a pogue (i think he was?? i could be wrong) so now that he’s rich he thinks he’s better. But still sending kie to the teen camp was wrong but i could see the mom was very regretful.
Yea i also didn’t like the whole topper/sarah storyline at all (besides the heist). Like i get she was alone and had no where to go
but the pogues would of went back to the chateau at some point in the day. she wasn’t alone forever. (also screw kies dad for not letting sarah stay. like yes your having a family talk or whatever but like sarah could of just waited upstairs? not him throwing a teenager out in the heat
)
I just don’t really find it in Sarah’s character to go back to Topper that easily, even if she felt alone. Season 2 sarah would never cheat on John b. And she NEVER even liked topper like that!! the only thing i enjoyed was the sarah-kook storyline. Like after everything she’s been through, it makes sense she’s have the internal battle of “would i have been better off if i sticked with the kooks.” it adds realness to the character. but they could of done that without the revisiting of topper and sarah. it was unnecessary and created unnecessary drama between john b and topper, as you said.
SIDE NOTE- AS IM TYPING THIS JIARA JUSY WON BEST KISS IN THE MTV MOVIE AND TV SHOW AWARDS
 I CANT 💀 there was no chemistry omg-
I was so disappointed with OBX3. this might be long bc my friends don’t listen when i talk about shows
caution of spoilers lol.
1) singh and big john has too much screen time.
2) lowkey wish we got more poguelandia. i get there isn’t much you can do with teens on a desserted island before it gets boring. however i wanted to see more of the pogues in their paradise. I mean the seasons promotion built the poguelandia aspect up so much, i was excited. but then the show was released and they were rescued within 10 minutes. Give us at least half an episode of pougelandia
3) i thought jiara was cute until this season. the portray of it felt rushed and the chemistry was off- (as you been saying) i felt like maybe if we got more poguelandia this would of been fixed because in those weeks they definitely bonded and had their feeling grow but us viewers didn’t get to see it.
4) I know it’s a treasure hunting show but i felt like they focused on the treasure hunting a bit too much lol. I think alot of people enjoyed the show because of the banter between the pogues. There wasn’t enough balance between their friendships and the treasure hunting for the show to have a level of comfort (at least to me) And there wasn’t that many trends for OBX3 as there was for the other seasons which i feel shows how it lacked what made the show so loved. For example, people are STILL talking about strangers things 4 almost a year later.
5) besides the heist episode, which i really enjoyed because it felt the most normal with the pogues working together, Toppers storyline felt a bit unneeded. and burning down the chateau?? dude i get your upset sarah stood you up for john b(again) but committing arson and attempted murder of 6 people? Topper does have the tendency to SNAP but that was a bit too extreme.
6) Kies parents suck, your daughter just confessed to you she was kidnapped and you kidnapped her in return? side eye. i’ve been side eyeing them for the entire season but this was a big side eye i guess
7) wth happened to limbrey? she got placebo affected into walking for five minutes and that’s it? she would of realized she wasn’t healed
 i don’t think her storyline is done (i hope not anyway) it felt like a sloppy ending if it was.
8) not really a big thing- but Barry looked hot with his haircut 💀
there is probably a lot more i can say about this season but i don’t want to tire you with it lol.
I just wasn’t left feeling how i felt watching the other two seasons. This season wasn’t a world i could escape into, i was disappointed.
First of all, I will always talk about shows so
just to preface that. If you wanna talk shows I’m happy to listen!!
1) I totally agree! Somehow they felt like they got more screen time than Ward in s1 or Limbrey in s2
I guess because The Johns went on their side quest but I didn’t really understand the point of bringing him back and then letting him basically die a hero. Like, he felt like a villain the whole time (I have some serious beef with Big John if you hadn’t noticed lol)
2) I absolutely agree about Poguelandia. First of all, you can’t tell me they spent a month on a deserted island and it was “paradise” the whole time. Not to mention, it created this offscreen (what felt like to me) deep friendship between JJ and Sarah that we were totally robbed of. Everyone kept talking about Poguelandia and how amazing it was but like
who knows, we saw them there for two seconds and then Portis picked them up.
3) Yeah, my initial problem isn’t with Jiara it’s their chemistry. I totally felt like in s1 and 2 their chemistry was so natural and this season was just forced situations and everytime Kiara and JJ talked it felt like they were just not connecting.
4) I think episodes 5, 7, and 8 were my favorites this season because it felt like those three really captured exactly what you’re talking about. The treasure hunting and the friendship. I think because The Johns side quest took John B out of play for so long, they felt so disjointed. At the same time though, I felt like it took them so long to get to South America and then it was just
over? Like where was the treasure hunting. I could have done without the obx and just had them go from Poguelandia to Barbados to South America.
5) Yeah I loved Topper in the heist episode but burning down the chateau was some Rafe shit like
Topper is not that unhinged, even if he talked to Rafe for 2 seconds. I feel like they just wanted to use him and it came across as like, pointless and unnecessary
6) I’m a Kie’s mom apologist lol, I really genuinely think she’s trying. She was kinda crazy in s2 but I can’t fault her too badly at that point her daughter was running around an island with someone who supposedly killed the sheriff. But Mike in s3 was totally uncalled for, the way he spoke to JJ was terrible and sending their kid to a teen camp was horrifying honestly!
- side note: the teen camp episode just felt like they needed a filler and shoved it in there to take even longer getting down to South America
I mean, maybe if it hadn’t been thrown into episode 9 and then had her rescued by the end of the episode (I felt like they could’ve taken more time to tell her story, I think it would’ve made it seem more realistic and made it more sympathetic)
7) I was fully expecting like, pissed Limbrey to show back up and get hers, like I know she was s2’s villain but Big John exploited her and then left her like
I can’t believe she wouldn’t have exacted some revenge. (The 18 month jump felt like they rushed things and honestly I have a lot of questions about what happened during that gap)
8) I just don’t find Barry attractive but I did like the short hair on him
I totally agree
this season looked awesome from the trailer (like I get the trailer has to look awesome) but the season ended up just disappointing me a lot and I really wanted to love it. My hopes for an s4 are dim.
Also, I have an entire note on my phone of commentary so like, any ramblings you have about obx I am here for!!
Edit: Sorry to make this longer but I was thinking about the whole Sarah/Topper drama this season and it really pisses me off. First of all, it felt so much like just the same story they told about in s2 and second, we’ve seen Sarah have so much agency throughout the two seasons. Standing up to her father and Rafe, honestly making plans, helping with the heist, creating more than a one-dimensional character that just there to serve a purpose for John B. To reduce her to some helpless girl who doesn’t know what to do because her and her boyfriend had one fight
it’s just not Sarah. It’s not the Sarah we’ve seen countless times and it was so frustrating to me to see her constantly reduced to this “can’t speak up for herself/doesn’t know what to do without John B” character that she isn’t.
And furthermore, she doesn’t have feelings for Topper. She didn’t have them in s1 so I don’t know why they insist on creating this storyline of like, conflicted over her old life with Topper and her new life with John B. It’s so dumb.
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i have no idea if you’ve gotten a request like this before but i just left my cousins party and i had like 2 hard seltzers and i am just so tired all i want to do is sleep. soooo could you possibly write something along the lines of Steve having a girlfriend who gets sleepy after drinking instead of getting drunk. all i want right now is some cuddles from steve.
hiii idk how i feel about my execution on this one, but i hope you like it! tysm for requesting <33 | 0.5k fluff
Your sweater sleeves are tugged over your hands, the chill of your sweaty drink cooling your fingertips. You’re practically sinking into the cushions of the couch you sit on, Steve’s arm a constant weight on your shoulders and your friend's laughter filling the room.
You’d be laughing along if your eyes weren’t so heavy, if Steve’s shoulder wasn’t such a nice pillow right now.
It’s funny, some people get loud when they’re drunk, some get chatty, but you just get sleepy. Of course, being in love with you, Steve thinks it’s the cutest thing. He soaks up the way you lean on him, the way your blinks grow longer as you fight to keep your eyes open.
“Sweetheart?” Steve speaks low, only for your ears, though everyone can see his eyes turn into hearts as soon as he looks at you.
“Hmm?”
“You falling asleep on me?” He asks, taking the drink from your hand and setting it on the table.
“Maybe.”
His shoulder shakes beneath your cheek with a chuckle, his hand running up and down your arm.
“Do you wanna go home?”
“Don’t wanna move,” you say, pushing yourself even closer. “I’m too comfy.”
“You’ll be even comfier in bed, I think.”
You lift your head from his shoulder and squint at him, your hair a little messy from resting on him, your eyes still heavy. He thinks you look beautiful.
“You’re probably right.”
In response, Steve pecks your forehead.
He stands before you and holds out his hands to help you up, and as soon as you’re standing, too, his arm is thrown over your shoulders again.
“We’re heading out,” he says.
“Boo! It’s barely even midnight,” Eddie says, laying on the couch opposite the one you’d been occupying with his legs thrown over the armrest. “You guys are like grandparents.”
“Edward,” you complain.
“He’s just joking,” Robin says, lightly smacking his head. “We know you’re a sleepy drunk, it’s okay,” she says, pouting her lip.
“Thank you, Robs,” you smile at her.
“Night, guys,” Steve walks you towards the front door.
Eddie’s shout of “goodnight, grandpa!” follows you.
Steve drives with a hand on your thigh the entire way, softly humming along with the radio. By the time you get home, your head is slumped against the seat, eyes shut and steady puffs of air leaving your mouth.
He walks around and opens your door, squeezing your shoulder lightly and waking you, “sweetheart, we’re home.”
You turn your head towards him, sluggish and dazed, but you still smile when you look at him.
“Yay,” you say quietly.
Steve knows you better than anyone else, and he knows that when you’ve been drinking, you’ll be quick to go to bed. He’s just glad that you’re also extra cuddly.
“Come on,” he urges you out of the car and you follow easily, hugging your arms around his middle as you walk inside.
By the time you’re both in bed, you’re half asleep all over again, and you scooch in close to Steve, a leg thrown over his, your head on his chest. He tugs you even closer and kisses the top of your head before shutting his eyes.
The promise of a good sleep and your skin against his pulls him under easily.
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caitlyn-winchester · 1 year
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Are you going to continue with little things? It's so cute đŸ„°
hello anon!
i really want to get back into writing. my life has been busy with work and finished up my associates degree.
i hopefully will continue soon with Little Things.
any other stuff you guys would like to see?
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caitlyn-winchester · 1 year
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Philly is going to burn down tonight. stay safe y’all.
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caitlyn-winchester · 1 year
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This is Pain 💔
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no one cares anyway, but i’m struggling. this isn’t a cry for attention. this is a cry for help.
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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this is the cutest ever.
to the moon and back - s.h.
summary: steve surprises you with your favorite book; steve harrington x gn!reader wc: 1.9k warnings: none! all fluff! italics is a flashback. A/N: ahhh this is from an idea @familyvideostevie and i talked about forever ago and decided it needed to be written!! i really like this one, so i hope y'all do too!
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“What’s this?” you asked, turning over the small, wrapped object your boyfriend had given you. It was plain, brown paper, and had been somewhat messily wrapped, probably in a rush, but your heart had skipped a beat as Steve handed it to you from where he’d been hiding it behind his back. You had no idea what it could be, or if there was a reason. Not that Steve needed any reason to give you things, though he usually stuck to flowers, or food, or one of the shirts you’d been begging to “borrow.”
“Just open it,” he encouraged, shaking his head with a smile. Steve was sitting on the edge of your bed, one leg crossed underneath him, the other dangling over the edge of your bed. He looked pretty, sitting on your soft quilt, staring at you adoringly with his warm hazel eyes. The way he was biting at the inside of his lip — his nervous habit that he always insisted he didn’t do — didn’t go unnoticed by you, though you chose not to comment on it. 
“Okay, okay, I’m doing it,” you grumbled, though you were smiling at him. Your fingers slid underneath the paper, peeling back the tape as you unwrapped the object delicately. Immediately, you could tell that it was a book, something hardcover, and your eyes flickered with joy as you glanced up at Steve, who was still smiling at you nervously. 
Flipping the book over to read its title, you let out a small gasp, eyes wide as your head snapped up to look at Steve again. It was your favorite book, a special edition that you’d been looking at in the local bookshop a few weeks ago, but had resisted buying. 
“Whatchya got, baby?” Steve asked from over your shoulder, seemingly appearing out of nowhere as he settled one of his palms on your hip. 
You held the book up for him to see, smoothing a hand over the cover lovingly before glancing back at him, “My favorite book. It’s a special edition; signed by the author and stuff.”
Steve nodded thoughtfully, leaning forward to rest his chin on your shoulder. His nose nudged into your cheekbone as he pressed a kiss near your jaw, genuine curiosity in his voice as he asked, “What’s it about?”
Before you could stop yourself, you’d launched into the whole story. The characters, the romance, the action, the plot twists. You were passionate about books, about reading, and sometimes could get carried away before you even realized that you’d been ranting. Steve loved that about you, though. He loved the way your face lit up when you talked about books, and that was more than enough to listen to you talk about it for hours.
As always, Steve was listening intently, and couldn’t help but frown as you cut yourself off, realizing that you’d been rambling for a few minutes. Tilting your head back, you gave him a sheepish smile, “Sorry, I didn’t realize I was rambling
” 
“None of that,” Steve huffed, arms sliding around your waist to pull your back fully against his chest, “I like listening to you talk about books. Actually, I just like listening to you talk in general.” 
Your cheeks filled with warmth as you leaned into Steve’s touch, against his solid chest, “Oh, stop it.”
“I’m serious!” he protested, head dipping down to press a kiss to the crook of your neck, “You could talk for hours about, like, molecular biology, or something, and I’d be listening intently the entire time.” 
Giggling, you twisted in his arms so he could see your face when you rolled your eyes, “You’re so full of it, babe.”
He huffed, hands moving so he could cup your jaw carefully, “Am not!”
“Okay, whatever you say,” you replied, leaning up on your toes slightly so your lips brushed over his. His thumb swept over your cheek and his lips pressed to yours, ignoring the comment. You could feel his smile against your lips, and you wished you weren’t holding the book, so you could hold him close instead. 
You finally pulled back, though Steve pressed one last kiss to the corner of your lips. Turning in his arms, you placed the book back down in the spot you picked it up from. Steve’s eyebrows furrowed together, glancing down at you in confusion. You’d just talked about your love for the book for nearly five minutes, but you weren’t going to buy it? He voiced his concern, “What are you doing, baby? You’re not going to get it?”
Shrugging your shoulders, you slipped out of the space between Steve’s arms and the table you’d been standing at, “I shouldn’t.”
“Why not?” Steve asked incredulously, moving to grab the book for you, “You talked so highly of it, I think I need to read it.”  
“Well, I already have a copy that you can borrow,” you grabbed at his wrist to stop him, “and besides, I shouldn’t be spending my money on more books.” 
Steve stared at you for a few moments, your hand still grasping his wrist as he tried to decide what to do. He decided to nod, but promised himself he’d come back to get it for you later, without you knowing. 
That had been a few weeks ago. And in that time, Steve had gone back to the bookshop on his own, and bought the book for you. 
“Steve!” you exclaimed, hugging the book to your chest as you grinned at your boyfriend, “You didn’t have to buy this.”
“I wanted to,” Steve replied earnestly, feeling a bit of relief at the way you lit up again, and reached out to set his palm on your calf gently. “The way you talked about the book
 you were just so happy. And I like seeing you happy. Plus, you said it was a special edition? Signed by the author and stuff? So I wanted you to have it.” His other hand had lifted, scratching at the hair at the nape of his neck; he was nervous for you to finally open the book.
“Thank you, Steve, really,” you sighed happily, keeping the book clutched to your chest with one arm, leaning forward on the other to press a kiss to his cheek. 
A soft pink filled Steve’s cheeks at your action and he shook his head, “No need to thank me, baby. Open it up.” Your fingers slipped between the pages about halfway through the book, and you began thumbing through a few of the extras that had been promised in this edition of the book. Leg bouncing with jitters, Steve tried again, “You
 you should, um, look at the first few pages.” 
You gave Steve a bemused look, eyes narrowing at him slightly, but did as he suggested, and opened the book up from the beginning. There, on one of the first pages was an inscription written in what was unmistakably Steve’s messy handwriting. You couldn’t help the small gasp that escaped your lips as your eyes flicked up to Steve, who was smiling nervously, before you looked back down to read what he’d written. 
He’d scribbled the date he’d written the note near the top of the page, followed by your name, and then his favorite term of endearment for you; one he saved mostly for special moments.
“My love,
I had to go back to buy this for you after seeing you talk about it. You know I’m not a big reader, but maybe we could read it together? I love you to the moon and back again. And again. And again. 
Love,
Steve”
Your love for Steve in that moment was overwhelming, bursting in your chest as tears began to form at the corner of your eyes. You launched yourself forward, dropping the book onto the bed next to you in the process as you threw your arms around Steve’s neck, nearly knocking him off of the bed. His name came out of your mouth choked, into the crook of his neck, “Steve.” 
Steve’s heart was beating wildly as one hand moved behind him to steady himself, the other wrapping around your waist, holding you as tight as he possibly could. Once he knew he wasn’t going to topple to the ground and bring you with him, he moved his hand to cup the back of your head. He turned his head just enough to nudge his nose into your hair, just above your ear, and murmured, “D’ya like it?” 
You pulled back just enough to look at him, staring into his warm eyes as they searched yours nervously. Nervous still, even when you’d just thrown yourself at him. Letting out a shocked laugh, you swiped one hand under your eyes to wipe away a few of the tears as your other hand came up to cup his jaw, “Steve, baby. I love it. Thank you.” Your thumb brushed out over his cheek, over the little bit of stubble that was starting to grow, as you stared at your boyfriend for a moment, feeling like your heart was going to burst out of your chest. Leaning in, you planted a kiss squarely on his lips, soft but firmly as if to get your point across, “I love you.” 
“I love you, too,” he replied, response immediate, voice tender. The tip of his nose brushed against yours as he leaned in for another kiss that was nothing but smiles. After a moment, he added, “Could we read it together?” 
“You want to?” you asked, heart fluttering once again as you lifted a hand to stroke through his hair and push it out of his face. 
“Of course. You love it, and I wanna know more so we can talk about it. I’m just
 just not very good at reading myself. I figured if we read it together, I’d like it more, and—“
“I understand. I’d love to read it with you, Stevie. It means a lot that you want to read it, too.” 
Later that evening, wearing nothing but a pair of underwear and one of Steve’s old shirts, you crawled underneath the covers next to him, grabbing the book on your way. Steve was propped up against the headboard, holding his arm out towards you so he could move into his grasp. You settled into his side and his arm curled around your shoulders, pulling you into his bare chest. His fingertips grazed over your skin, just underneath the hem of the sleeve as he pressed a kiss to the top of your head, “Ready?”
“Are you?” you asked teasingly. Opening the book to the page Steve had written on, you swept your fingers over the writing as you read it one more time. Tilting your head back so you could glance up at Steve, you grinned, “Some guy confessed his undying love for someone on here. Cheesy, right?” 
“Baaaabe,” Steve groaned, pressing his forehead against your shoulder as his cheeks flushed.
“I’m teasing, baby. I love it. I think my heart is going to explode every time I see it. I’m going to cherish this forever.” 
Steve’s hand moved, palm cupping your bicep to squeeze it gently, “It’s true, you know. I love you to the moon and back again. ‘M glad you like the book.” 
Pressing your head into Steve’s chest, you leafed through the next few pages, murmuring before you started reading aloud, “I love you, too, baby. And again, and again, and again.” 
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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so steve harrington?
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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If Stranger Things was set in a modern timeline

Steve Harrington would be a Swiftie.
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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As a 20 year old i get very uncomfy when NSFW fics pop up on my screen for the kids of stranger things.
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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i love you outer banks fic and i would love to know when you updating
Hi anon!
thank u sm!
if you’re referring to the re-write
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I have the next part almost finished but i’ve been having a little hard time finding the motivation to finish.
it’s a reoccurring problem i have with fanfics.
I have so many ideas and i start them and i don’t know where they should go or i don’t have the motivation to feel like writing.
i’m so sorry. I’ll continue it one day, hopefully soon.
i was thinking about re-watching outerbanks to get me back in a summer mood.
maybe that will spark inspiration.
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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Do you think the third book in the good girl's guide to murder triology is worth reading?
honestly yes.
i loved the series.
the third book did kinda disappointed me, especially the ending.
I did like how the third book tied the whole story together. it’s very clever in my opinion.
i won’t say why because *spoilers*
but it’s a good easy read!
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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“Eddie and Steve literally only knew each other for a day, they don’t like eachother. stop shipping them.”
Boy if y’all don’t shut your homophobic ass up.
They went to the same high school together.
Were in the same grade together at least once.
They know each other.
Might not be friends in school but they KNOW who each other are.
As someone who relates to Eddie in the sense of being an outsider in school, I still knew who all the people in my grade even if u wasn’t friends with them.
They knew each other, so pinning for the other can happen.
stop using their lack of prior friendship as an excuse for them to not be shipped.
Let people ship them if they want too.
I rest my case.
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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NOW WHO IS THAT?!
ALSO WHERE IS STEVE ROBIN AND DUSTIN?!
ALSO THE BATS?!?!
WHY IS THERE TWO WILLS?
suffer brothers really gotta stop playing with our emotions..
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caitlyn-winchester · 2 years
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Why must migraines come at the worst possible time?
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