…And please remember that you were beautiful before he told you that you were.

Thank you so much for this, h-allo.  (via hannahtaylorofficial)

I feel so alone, so ostracized. It's like I'm not even here. All my friends talk to each other, right over me. I'm not important to you people. You only treat me as a friend when it's just us two together and there isn't anyone else better around for you. 

I know I made my sacrifices, knowing full well the costs. Cut out my social life to improve my academic life and health. I know I chose the right path but it doesn't feel like it's enough. I see everyone else around me perfectly happy. They're all smiling and laughing more than I could ever hope to. They're all getting into relationships or going to prom together. Is it so bad to want the same? I guess I'm just too damn picky huh. 

I don't know what I'm feeling. It's my low self esteem wanting more. I guess after I got a taste of what it was like to actually have someone like me, I started to get cocky. Now that it's gone, I want it back. I don't even have feelings for them. Yet, I want them to love me. I don't know. I probably just want to feel like I mattered to someone, that someone thought of me for once. That someone actually genuinely tried to make me smile and happy. I miss it. But I am cursed to not reciprocate to those who do show such affection. It's a cruel, cruel world isn't it? 

I know that someday I should be able to find someone, but I just really wish that someday would come now. I know I don't need someone else to make me feel like a whole. I know that I should learn to love myself before I love anyone else, but I just want it so badly. Just look at everyone else! They're so fucking happy. And that's all I want. I don't care if it isn't all that it seems, I just want to fucking smile because I'm happy not because I'm faking it.

I feel so worthless in an environment where I am surrounded by people who love each other, and only each other. 

You know how people buy drinks for girls in bars? Why can’t people do that in book stores? Like if I’m looking at a novel in Barnes and Noble and some person walks up to me and strikes up a conversation and offers to buy the book for me there is a lot better chance of that working out in their favor

I still check on you.

if you’re in love then you’re the lucky one because most of us are bitter over someone

Youth - Daughter (via you-mean-nothing-to-me)

Though I didn't like you back, it isn't particularly a great feeling to not be wanted anymore.

There’s like a million different ways to say ‘I love you’ ‘put your seat belt on’ ‘watch your step’ ‘get some rest’ ..you just gotta listen

idk (via teaa-spoon)

I ruined it before you could.

six word story  (via einhorny)

You know whats fucking scary? The fact that I could literally change my life at any moment. I could stop talking to everyone that makes me unhappy. I could kiss whoever i want. I could shave my head or get on a plane or take my own life. Nothing is stopping me. The entire world is in my hands, and I have no idea what to do with it.