working in hospo + having an ed = STRESS

back on my bullshit (:

i had to come back... literally have gotten SO BIG... like this is the biggest i have ever been and i looked at myself in the mirror today and could have died... i used to be so fucking skinny... dude food is cancelled. i need to sort my shit out. im going to be tiny again soon. 

sometimes I really wish I had someone to talk to about it… i thought I was okay but today i remember how much this shit fucking sucks

5 days of 500 cal max. LETS GO!

shout out to celery <3

anyone else OBSESSED with watching food videos? like it’s all i can think about but it’s never been this bad before lol

i have to put all my energy into loosing weight and being skinny… i only want to think about loosing weight… anything is better than this sadness…

does anyone else really struggle to lose chin fat? it seems no matter how much I lose, I still can’t get a sharp jawline?? help!

starting a 40 hour fast, wish me luck! i have to work after that so probably gotta break the fast before working!

can I live off oat milk and coffee for the rest of my life? stay tuned.

Nuvonu

I’m 29 hours into my fast... im proud of getting this far but it’s getting hard... just need to get through tonight! then tomorrow ill break it with coffee (: wish me luck!

maybe he would love me if i was skinny... 💔

i’m so fucking done with food. ugh.