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boyki11ing · 2 years
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//TW sh//
i saw sh scars on my friend today and the first thing I thought about was the fact that her's are worse than mine and not how to help her or something.
Why is this so competitive
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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Ì bent over and my partner touched my spine that was sticking out and said "wow that's really prominent! you need to eat more" I'm so happy
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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post nut clarity v2 : post cut clarity
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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Also I've been eating more, but it's lots of healthier food so ig thats good but now I need to work on eating small portions of healthy food as well
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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Oop sorry I haven't been to active I sort of forget to post
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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how can i eat a full course dinner at a restaurant but cry over a yogurt that had "too many" calories
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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unfortunately im very self aware
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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Also I always go through a vicious cycle of *mmm skinny* to *wait but I want to have muscle and be strong so I can't restrict that much* and then not even two days later go back to being anorexic
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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I swtg I have eaten under 1200 calories for 2 weeks straight and have somehow not lost any weight. I will
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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I have successfully had soup for the past two meals
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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Me with every other post I scroll past on ed Tumblr:
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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and its just like this every day
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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quick question: how the fuck do I get through the rest of my life like this
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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THINGS I WISH I KNEW BEFORE TOP SURGERY:
- If you have a caffeine dependency, you will experience withdrawal effects because you’ll most likely be too out of it for a couple of days after surgery to drink caffeine. The headache you get will mostly likely be a lot worse because of any prescription pain medication you’ll be taking. Acetaminophen (Tylenol) will be your best friend.
- Getting drains removed isn’t necessarily painful, but it is the most unnerving feeling ever, especially since they don’t do anything to numb you beforehand. I’m warning you now that you’ll most likely feel sick and potentially black out for a few moments. The feeling will pass quickly though, and the nurses are prepared for this.
- Your scars are going to look a lot bigger and messy when you first see them. This is because of swelling and surgical glue. After about 2-3 weeks the glue will crumble off, and the swelling will mostly go down, so you’ll be able to get a better look at how your chest/scars will actually look
- You won’t be able to reach most things you’d normally be able to after surgery due to both scarring and pain. It’s taken me 3 weeks just to be able to properly wash my hair because I couldn’t lift my arms high enough to touch the top of my head long enough.
- Your surgeon will probably ask you to stop taking your testosterone (if you’re on it) for 2 weeks before surgery, and 2 weeks after surgery. This is about a month without testosterone. Be sure to prepare for that in advance so you’re not surprised with any changes that might happen to your body. I know I got my period after 2 years of not having one because of this, so just be prepared so it’s not too big of a surprise and/or dysphoria spike
- You won’t be able to wear deodorant for about 2 weeks. It sucks, but as long as you’re able to shower frequently and change your shirt, you should be okay
- Get button up PJ sets. You can get them at Walmart. They are lifesavers, especially since you can’t really lift your arms or bend properly in order to take off normal shirts.
- Do not be alarmed if it looks like your nipple is falling off- it is just the scab I promise. Unless you smoke, you should have no fear about your nipples falling off. If you do smoke, talk to your surgeon about what to do well in advance to limit the risk!
- You won’t be able to drive for a hot second due to being on the pain medications, so make sure you have someone you trust to get you to and from places!
- Around the 3 week mark you’ll get a second spike of bad pain. This is because around this time is when you’ll be mostly back to normal routine, and moving around a lot more. Your body isn’t caught up yet, and so the soreness and the pain will be worse. This is normal, and unless the pain is unbearable, you shouldn’t have to contact your surgeon/doctor about any complications
- For any fellow poc, your nipples will most likely heal pink/light. This is fucking weird and I don’t like it, but I’ve heard they’ll eventually go back to normal over time. It’s most likely due to scar tissue
- When you go to put back on your medical binder with padding after you shower or take it off for scar cream, etc.: lay down to put it on. I promise you it’s so much easier than attempting to hold all the padding against your body and put on the medical binder without hurting yourself!
That’s all I got for now! I’ll add on if I remember anything else! Please remember that everyone’s surgery experience is different, im just illustrating some things that happened to me and might happen to others as well! Im only 3 weeks post op as well, so I’ll update if anything else weird happens!
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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justice for weird girls everywhere who are now strange boys but still weird girls at heart
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boyki11ing · 2 years
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my mom: you have to find different coping skills than cutting
me: so how about not eating
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