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bittersweet264 · 3 months

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i need an older man right now please:(

message me if u don’t judge my love<3

#did/lg kink #daddy dd/lg #ickydolly #p3rv lover #p3rvl0ver

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bittersweet264 · 1 year

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I live in denial.

Me: I don't have an eating disorder

*binges*

*purges*

*restricts*

*repeat*

Me: I couldn't possibly have an eating disorder

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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The best motivation imo to stay on my diet is toxic friends.

The ones that can never stop themselves to say the most outrageous things about your body and pick on the ugly things you never seem to notice.

But they do.

They can’t Unsee it and neither can I.

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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Hey I haven’t been posting for a while since it has been summer for me and I’ve been binging the whole break:/

Tho I’m back now.

School has started and (yes I binged and gained weight) I’m still not as fat as I used to be and I’ve been getting compliments on how I’m prettier now and I kind of feel like it too… sometimes.

I’ve lost over 23kg over these past few months and if I drop another once again, I might even be considered beautiful.

- Dais

#th1nz🎀#i wish i was thinner #i wanna be th1n #tw ana thoughts #tw ed vent

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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I fucking relapsed and now I’m staying home from school.

Life’s amazing. It’s so unfair that it is amazing. How can it be so fucked up?

All I want is to be beautiful.

Why is that so hard?

Some people can eat and still manage to lose weight, while even if I look at a cake I’d fill up like a balloon.

Pound by pound, it just keeps on Adding on. To be fat and ugly in a world where beauty is the complete opposite. I might be making a mistake by starving, and I might even die. However I don’t care. I’d rather die being known as the beautiful girl than the ugly one, no one even knew about. It’s a wicked fate.

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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AHHH!!

My mom won’t buy me a fucking scale because “it’s bad for me” like letting me eat away my whole life and turning me into a fat pig isn’t bad for me.

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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neurotypicals will say they have adhd and then demonize or belittle the traits of it that aren’t quirkifiable

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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Ive lost weight but I still feel fatter than ever:/

#sk1nn¥ is pretty #fat and ugly #th1nz🎀#i wish i was thinner #th1n$po #i wanna be th1n #bing3 eating #bingepurge #tw ana thoughts

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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Accidentally told my psychiatrist about my Ed (I made a joke) and now I have to act like I’m going to recover:(

But on the “bright” side I’ve lost 20kg over the past 8 months:) I do think that I could’ve done better but easier said than done :/

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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God really was experimenting when making me.

How do I have a fear of vomit while having bulimia?

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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The day I can finally see my collar bones and my rib cage

I’ll be happy

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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I was at a carnival yesterday with my school and it was really fun as I did not eat for the whole day (besides beverages since it was really hot) but I’ve noticed how much easier it is to starve when you’re outside than at home when food is all you think about.

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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I’m never going to reach my gw because of this uncontrollable urge to eat away my feelings.

I wish I was like the other depressed teens that loose a bunch of weight.

. Or I am, for a few weeks and… I get results.

The numbers finally go down and Everyone is proud of me.

I am proud of me.

Until I decide to spoil myself a little. I earned it after all. But instead eat for a family of 15 pigs.

One bite and I suddenly lost count.

One slip up and I’m back to misery.

Years has gone by and I still can’t do it.

It’s the same old routine:

Eat emptiness for breakfast, anger for lunch and sadness for dinner.

But I’m nice, I’m sweet.

I can’t let myself go to sleep without having dessert.

My specialty, crying myself to sleep.

I am a pig.

(I wrote this in a rush and I really needed to vent. So I’m sorry if it doesn’t make any sense:/)

#bittersweetdiar¥#th1nz🎀#fat and ugly #sk1nn¥ is pretty #th1n$po #i wish i was thinner #i wanna be th1n #bing3 eating #bingepurge #tw ana thoughts #4norex1c #4n4 vent #4n4 thoughts #4na diary #4n4 blog #tw 4n4

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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THANK YOUU!!

You’re a lifesaver:)

My biggest fear is getting loose skin:/

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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I just came up with the best idea to keep me busy from eating on summer break…. Studying!!!

And also I’m just plain stupid so I’d have to study anyway.

#only pr0 for myself #sk1nn¥ is pretty #meanspø #fat and ugly #th1nz🎀#i wish i was thinner #th1n$po #pr0 3d

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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Meanspø just cause

why the fuck are you thinking of eating when you should be fasting? You’re fat and lazy get up go for a run, do some exercise. If you think just by wishing you were thin it’s gonna get you somewhere, newsflash it won’t . You have to put the work into it and you’ll see the result so drop that pizza slice or burger or whatever you have and get your shit together NOW YOU FATTY. Thin is beautiful, being fat isn’t, that’s just disgusting.

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bittersweet264 · 2 years

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I am literally my biggest enemy. Like why do I binge and then look at th1n$p0s.

#sk1nn¥ is pretty #pr0 3d #fat and ugly #th1nz🎀#i wish i was thinner #notprojustusingthetags #i wanna be th1n #th1n$po #bingepurge #bing3 eating #tw ana thoughts

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