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belphegorlance · 5 days
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i've got seven missed calls and eight apologies in drafts and the thought of anyone wanting me makes me so afraid that i ask them to leave even when i want them to stay. inside my mind i am begging; please don't go— please love me anyways
grit, a poetry collection/ in image/ mayakovsky by frank o'hara/ sue zhao/ unknown / Ruth Madievsky, All-Night Pharmacy / gone girl, gillian flyn/ Cotton Candy on a Rainy Day, Nikki Giovanni / supernatural season 12 ep 22 (thanks @count-woe-laf) / I Put The Coffin Out To Sea by Lisa Marie Basile/ Sorry by Halsey/ Sorry by Halsey / unknown
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belphegorlance · 21 days
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🚨 Government Media Office:
On the Occasion of International Women's Day:
The "israeli" occupation killed 8,900 Palestinian women during the genocide and injured more than 23,000, with 2,100 missing and over half a million displaced..
On March 8, the world celebrates International Women's Day, honoring women for their achievements and struggle. However, Palestinian women continue to pay a heavy price for freedom and dignity. This global day comes to the Palestinian women, especially in the Gaza Strip, as a real example of women's humiliation, killing, shooting, torturing, and forced displacement rather than elevating and honoring them.
This global occasion comes at a time when the "israeli" occupation army kills Palestinian women in cold blood in the genocidal war it wages against civilians, children, and women, and at the same time, the world stands idly by, witnessing this grave violation against Palestinian women without moving a finger.
Today, we speak in numbers, as the "israeli" occupation army has killed 8,900 martyrs among women, injured more than 23,000, demolished hundreds of homes over Palestinian women's heads. More than 2,100 Palestinian women are missing, still under the rubble or their fate remains unknown as a result of this brutal "israeli" war. This war has made 60,000 pregnant women live a harsh and extremely difficult life, lacking the most basic healthcare and medical requirements. Among them are hundreds who have lost their sons, newborns, or unborn children due to bombing, fear, and "israeli" killing.
This occasion comes in light of the presence of over half a million displaced Palestinian women in the Gaza Strip living under extreme difficulties, unable to secure their minimum rights, including access to food, resulting in widespread famine across all governorates of the Gaza Strip, particularly in the Northern and Gaza governorates. They struggle to find food, medicine, and shelter amidst this brutal war, in addition to the dozens of Palestinian women detained by the occupation, facing physical and psychological torture, poor treatment, and humiliation amid a dreadful international silence.
Palestinian women are in dire need to defend their rights and life requirements rather than being killed, shot at, detained, and forced into displacement and migration, as the occupation army has been doing for over five continuous months.
On this International Day, we salute and commend the steadfastness of Palestinian women under the conditions of the genocide waged by the occupation and the difficult circumstances they endure, and we value their role in building the Palestinian society and bolstering its steadfastness.
Palestinian women have always been examples of steadfastness and determination, participating alongside men in various life aspects and making significant sacrifices for to achieve their rights, and the rights of their people and their children.
In light of what what Palestinian women are subjected to, we hold the American administration, the international community, and all relevant international organizations fully responsible for the genocide waged by the occupation against Palestinian women and the harsh conditions forced upon them by the occupation, with the world participating and with others remaining silent on this catastrophe.
We call on all the countries of the free world and the international community to work towards ending the "israeli" occupation, enabling Palestinian women to live in dignity and freedom. We demand their action to save Palestinian women from the ongoing crimes of the "israeli" occupation against Palestinian women, including killing, shooting, arresting, humiliating, torturing, and forcing them to leave their homes, cities, and residential areas.
Government Media Office
Friday, March 8, 2024
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belphegorlance · 2 months
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do any of my friends know the love I carry in every word i say to them. When I add too many words, drag on a joke that’s over, when I message them despite the fact the conversation barely ended five minutes ago? every word i speak is an intimacy that’s laced with outright adoration for them as people and all the little details that make them who they are. Do you know I love you? Do y’all know how much of you I try to commit to memory? How much I try to make you smile? do y’all know the love I feel for you?
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belphegorlance · 3 months
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i say i like tragedies and everyone’s all like ‘why do you like sad stories? are you depressed?’ and never ‘how was the catharsis? was the catharsis fun?’
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belphegorlance · 3 months
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“In a decaying society, art, if it is truthful, must also reflect decay.
And unless it wants to break faith with its social function, art must show the world as changeable. And help to change it.”
-Ernst Fischer.
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belphegorlance · 4 months
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that daughterhood feeling of slipping out of your body, trying on different bones, adjusting the marrow so that your mother might look at you, might love you enough. that daughterhood feeling of being simultaneously five and fifteen and fifty-five. of counting the rings of your spinal column to make sure. of being haunted by the vengeance of every version of you that didn’t make it out of that house alive.
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belphegorlance · 4 months
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DYING       FEELS       LIKE       FALLING       ASLEEP.
yellowjackets episode 10 “sic transit gloria mundi” (dir. eduardo sanchez) .. true blue (the record by boygenius: julien baker, phoebe bridgers, lucy dacus) .. dream state (no burden by lucy dacus) .. game shows touch our lives (the mountain goats), the return (2020) by rachel harrison
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belphegorlance · 6 months
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You are Jesus at his last supper. Which celebrities do you chose as your 12 apostles sitting around the table?
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belphegorlance · 8 months
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If I had one wish for Good Omens season 3 (other than for it to exist but that's not really a wish that's a carnal need) it's for Crowley to adopt Murel. They are a precious light in this world and Crowley canonically has a weakness for kids/innocence.
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belphegorlance · 8 months
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Aziraphale’s Choice, the Job Connection, and Michael Sheen’s Morality
I’ve had time to process Aziraphale’s choice at the end of Season 2. And I think only blaming the religious trauma misses something important in Aziraphale’s character. I think what happened was also Aziraphale’s own conscious choice––as a growth from his trauma, in fact. Hear me out.
Since November 2022 I’ve been haunted by something Michael Sheen said at the MCM London Comic Con. At the Q&A, someone asked him about which fantasy creature he enjoyed playing most and Michael (bless him, truly) veered on a tangent about angels and goodness and how, specifically,
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We as a society tend to sort of undervalue goodness. It’s sort of seen as sort of somehow weak and a bit nimby and “oh it’s nice.” And I think to be good takes enormous reserves of courage and stamina. I mean, you have to look the dark in the face to be truly good and to be truly of the light…. The idea that goodness is somehow lesser and less interesting and not as kind of muscular and as passionate and as fierce as evil somehow and darkness, I think is nonsense. The idea of being able to portray an angel, a being of love. I love seeing the things people have put online about angels being ferocious creatures, and I love that. I think that’s a really good representation of what goodness can be, what it should be, I suppose.
I was looking forward to BAMF!Aziraphale all season long, and I think that’s what we got in the end. Remember Neil said that the Job minisode was important for Aziraphale’s story. Remember how Aziraphale sat on that rock and reconciled to himself that he MUST go to Hell, because he lied and thwarted the will of God. He believed that––truly, honestly, with the faith of a child, but the bravery of a soldier.
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Aziraphale, a being of love with more goodness than all of Heaven combined, believed he needed to walk through the Gates of Hell because it was the Right Thing to do. (Like Job, he didn’t understand his sin but believed he needed to sacrifice his happiness to do the Right Thing.)
That’s why we saw Aziraphale as a soldier this season: the bookshop battle, the halo. But yes, the ending as well.
Because Aziraphale never wanted to go to Heaven, and he never wanted to go there without Crowley.
But it was Crowley who taught him that he could, even SHOULD, act when his moral heart told him something was wrong. While Crowley was willing to run away and let the world burn, it was Aziraphale (in that bandstand at the end of the world) who stood his ground and said No. We can make a difference. We can save everyone.
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And Aziraphale knew he could not give up the ace up his sleeve (his position as an angel) to talk to God and make them see the truth in his heart.
I was messed up by Ineffable Bureaucracy (Boxfly) getting their happy ending when our Ineffable Husbands didn’t, but I see now that them running away served to prove something to Aziraphale. (And I am fully convinced that Gabriel and Beelzebub saw the example of the Ineffables at the Not-pocalypse and took inspiration from them for choosing to ditch their respective sides)
But my point is that Aziraphale saw them, and in some ways, they looked like him and Crowley. And he saw how Gabriel, the biggest bully in Heaven, was also like him in a way (a being capable of love) and also just a child when he wasn’t influenced by the poison of Heaven. Muriel, too, wasn’t a bad person. The Metatron also seemed to have grown more flexible with his morality (from Aziraphale's perspective). Like Earth, Heaven was shades of (light?) gray.
Aziraphale is too good an angel not to believe in hope. Or forgiveness (something he’s very good at it).
Aziraphale has been scarred by Heaven all his life. But with the cracks in Heaven’s armor (cracks he and Crowley helped create), Aziraphale is seeing something else. A chance to change them. They did terrible things to him, but he is better than them, and because of Crowley, he feels ready to face them.
(Will it work? Can Heaven change, institutionally? Probably not, but I can't blame Aziraphale for trying.)
At the cafe, the Metatron said something big was coming in the Great Plan. Aziraphale knows how trapped he had felt when he didn’t have God’s ear the first time something huge happened in the Big Plan. He can’t take a chance again to risk the world by not having a foot in the door of Heaven. That’s why we saw individual human deaths (or the threat of death) so much more this season: Elspeth, Wee Morag, Job’s children, the 1940s magician. Aziraphale almost killed a child when he couldn’t get through to God, and he’s not going through that again.
“We could make a difference.” We could save everyone.
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Remember what Michael Sheen said about courage and doing good––and having to “look the dark in the face to be truly good.” That’s what happened when Aziraphale was willing to go to Hell for his actions. That’s what happened when he decided he had to go to Heaven, where he had been abused and belittled and made to feel small. He decided to willingly go into the Lion’s Den, to face his abusers and his anxiety, to make them better so that they would not try to destroy the world again.
Him, just one angel. He needed Crowley to be there with him, to help him be brave, to ask the questions that Heaven needed to hear, to tell them God was wrong. Crowley is the inspiration that drives Aziraphale’s change, Crowley is the engine that fuels Aziraphale’s courage.
But then Crowley tells him that going to Heaven is stupid. That they don’t need Heaven. And he’s right. Aziraphale knows he’s right.
Aziraphale doesn’t need Heaven; Heaven needs him. They just don’t know how much they need him, or how much humanity needs him there, too. (If everyone who ran for office was corrupt, how can the system change?)
Terry Pratchett (in the Discworld book, Small Gods) is scathing of God, organized religion, and the corrupt people religion empowers, but he is sympathetic to the individual who has real, pure faith and a good heart. In fact, the everyman protagonist of Small Gods is a better person than the god he serves, and in the end, he ends up changing the church to be better, more open-minded, and more humanist than god could ever do alone.
Aziraphale is willing to go to the darkest places to do the Right Thing, and Heaven is no exception. When Crowley says that Heaven is toxic, that’s exactly why Aziraphale knows he needs to go there. “You’re exactly is different from my exactly.”
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In the aftermath of Trump's election in the US, Brexit happened in 2018. Michael Sheen felt compelled to figure out what was going on in his country after this shock. But he was living in Los Angeles with Sarah Silverman at the time, and she also wanted to become more politically active in the US.
Sheen: “I felt a responsibility to do something, but it [meant] coming back [to Britain] – which was difficult for us, because we were very important to each other. But we both acknowledge that each of us had to do what we needed to do.” In the end, they split up and Michael moved back to the UK.
Sometimes doing the Right Thing means sacrificing your own happiness. Sometimes it means going to Hell. Sometimes it means going to Heaven. Sometimes it means losing a relationship.
And that’s why what happened in the end was so difficult for Aziraphale. Because he loves Crowley desperately. He wants to be together. He wanted that kiss for thousands of years. He knows that taking command of Heaven means they would never again have to bow to the demands of a God they couldn’t understand, or run from a Hell who still came after them. They could change the rules of the game.
And he’s still going to do that. But it hurts him that he has to do that alone.
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belphegorlance · 8 months
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love how she doesn't even bother to ask if crowley has a wife or girlfriend. one look at him and it's clear there is no heterosexual explanation for anything about crowley
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belphegorlance · 8 months
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"Almost every woman I have ever met has a secret belief that she is just on the edge of madness, that there is some deep, crazy part within her, that she must be on guard constantly against losing control - of her temper, of her appetite, of her sexuality, of her feelings, of her ambition, of her secret fantasies, of her mind.”
Elana Dykewomon, "Notes for a Magazine," Sinister Wisdom #36 (Winter 1988/89).
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belphegorlance · 8 months
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i love you hubble telescope i love you stars i love you universe i love you inherit poetry of humanitys great desire to see space i love you curiosity i love you people who treated curiosity as our own i love you laika i miss you laika i love you sky i love you moon i love you planets
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belphegorlance · 9 months
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belphegorlance · 9 months
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on the cruelness of fifteen
@/petrichara // the shape of a girl, joan macleod // @/cowboyvamplikeme // fifteen, taylor swift
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belphegorlance · 9 months
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Its a humbling experience when someone does not reciprocate the efforts you made for them. Reminds you how humans can truly be treacherous when its their turn to make the same kind of efforts. And no, not in a romantic way, in a platonic way. Which is worse i think?
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belphegorlance · 9 months
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on loneliness as hunger
olivia laing the lonely city (via @morepeachyogurt) \ rachel ingalls mrs. caliban (via @araekni) \ yves olade dark when it gets dark: “topograph” (via @muguetdemai​) \ victoria chang obit (via @feral-ballad)
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