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Modern!Azriel Headcanons
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Modern! Azriel/ Navy Seal! Azriel x reader
Wordcount: 900ish
Warnings: annoying drill sergeant, couple curse words, not super gendered (like one mention of a dress)
A/N: az is a cutie in this one too :)))
Modern!Azriel who grew up in the same trashy neighborhood as you and cass and rhys. 
Modern!Azriel who was determined to make it out despite what his shitty father and half-brothers had to say about it. 
Modern!Azriel who was somehow top 10 in your graduating class despite missing like half of junior and senior year to work and help his mom pay the bills. 
Modern!Azriel who got a 1500 on the SAT and a 96 on his ASVAB (Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery) test. 
Modern!Azriel who knew that his best chance out of the hood was the military (also probably not the best way to work out all his anger)
Modern!Azriel who convinces cass to join him and they both enlist in the battle buddy program together. (they both deploy together so they always have a homie to rely on)
Modern!Azriel who is a fucking 6’4” unit and is recruited by the navy bc he’s massive and a genius and secretly speaks like 5 languages (bc his mom is an immigrant and they’re like that) 
the drill sergeant just about dropped and foamed at the mouth at the sight of azriel and cassian (drill sergeant goes on a tangent about finally getting some “real sailors” and the rest of the unit literally hates them bc yeah he’s right they don’t compare)
Modern!Azriel who (alongside cassian) gets asked to apply to seal school and they graduate with some of the highest BUD/S scores the navy has ever seen (his mom is super proud and makes him mole de pollo bc its his favorite and she loves her son and his friends)
Modern!Azriel who makes it to captain in six years instead of the average nine bc he’s just that good
Modern!Azriel who always remembered you as his kind coworker from his trashy minimum wage dishwashing job in high school and definitely not as his friend’s cute younger sister.
Modern!Azriel who remembers every time you brought him dinner and badly lied about how you hated to waste food and didn’t know what to do with the leftovers so he wouldn’t feel bad about eating it (bc times were tough in HS and he really wasn’t eating enough at all)
Modern!Azriel who just kind of slowly blinks at you when him and his unit walk into the museum that you’ve been working at. 
Modern!Azriel whose chest tightens with something strange when your whole face lights up after recognizing him. 
Modern!Azriel who has only had casual flings (mostly bc he was always away for work) but feels his heart drop to his feet when you press your lips to his left cheek and give his arms a little squeeze. 
Modern!Azriel whose whole body relaxes when you pull him into a hug. who’s knees almost give out when you rub your manicured hands up and down his biceps and whisper about how you missed him–how you were worried about him. 
his whole team will harass him later about his reaction and beg for the details behind your history because even though they’re navy seals they’re really just chismosas on the inside. 
Modern!Azriel who is seriously so confused as to how you (someone who was so kind and loving) could be involved in counter-terrorism.
Modern!Azriel who is shocked when you explain to him that the art world is full of criminals and that terrorists especially love to use expensive art as methods of payment for whatever horrible acts they want to commit. 
Modern!Azriel whose chest puffs with pride when he hears you tell your boss that you have full faith in his unit and their abilities bc “azriel isn’t the kind of man who lets people down”
Modern!Azriel who is supposed to be paying attention to the baroque painting on the wall but can’t take his eyes off of you in your beautiful, floor-length, velvet gown. 
Modern!Azriel who takes out two things in one night: a secret terrorist cell and you to dinner. 
Modern!Azriel who realizes he hasn’t been able to have a serious relationship bc he’s been in love with you this whole time (read: since he was literally 9 years old and you told him he had the prettiest eyes in the world)
Modern!Azriel who wears the matching bracelet you got him every single day. especially when he’s deployed bc a photo of you might actually be too dangerous for the field
Modern!Azriel who never tells you exactly what he does just that he’s the captain of a navy seal unit bc its classified, but you still worry (especially bc you’re a historian and can almost immediately tell where he’s been in the world based on the souvenirs he brings you)
Modern!Azriel who almost bursts into tears when you tell him you love him first bc he’d  been struggling to get the words out for weeks
Modern!Azriel who gets to experience softness from someone other than his mother for the first time in his life
Modern!Azriel who is in a healthy, positive relationship with someone who loves all of him including his flaws. 
Modern!Azriel whose partner teaching him about emotional maturity and communication and slowly walks with him down his healing journey
Modern!Azriel who is pathetically in love with his partner and can’t wait to start their life together. 
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azrielslostshadow · 5 months
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Modern!Azriel Headcanons
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Modern! Azriel/ Navy Seal! Azriel x reader
Wordcount: 900ish
Warnings: annoying drill sergeant, couple curse words, not super gendered (like one mention of a dress)
A/N: az is a cutie in this one too :)))
Modern!Azriel who grew up in the same trashy neighborhood as you and cass and rhys. 
Modern!Azriel who was determined to make it out despite what his shitty father and half-brothers had to say about it. 
Modern!Azriel who was somehow top 10 in your graduating class despite missing like half of junior and senior year to work and help his mom pay the bills. 
Modern!Azriel who got a 1500 on the SAT and a 96 on his ASVAB (Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery) test. 
Modern!Azriel who knew that his best chance out of the hood was the military (also probably not the best way to work out all his anger)
Modern!Azriel who convinces cass to join him and they both enlist in the battle buddy program together. (they both deploy together so they always have a homie to rely on)
Modern!Azriel who is a fucking 6’4” unit and is recruited by the navy bc he’s massive and a genius and secretly speaks like 5 languages (bc his mom is an immigrant and they’re like that) 
the drill sergeant just about dropped and foamed at the mouth at the sight of azriel and cassian (drill sergeant goes on a tangent about finally getting some “real sailors” and the rest of the unit literally hates them bc yeah he’s right they don’t compare)
Modern!Azriel who (alongside cassian) gets asked to apply to seal school and they graduate with some of the highest BUD/S scores the navy has ever seen (his mom is super proud and makes him mole de pollo bc its his favorite and she loves her son and his friends)
Modern!Azriel who makes it to captain in six years instead of the average nine bc he’s just that good
Modern!Azriel who always remembered you as his kind coworker from his trashy minimum wage dishwashing job in high school and definitely not as his friend’s cute younger sister.
Modern!Azriel who remembers every time you brought him dinner and badly lied about how you hated to waste food and didn’t know what to do with the leftovers so he wouldn’t feel bad about eating it (bc times were tough in HS and he really wasn’t eating enough at all)
Modern!Azriel who just kind of slowly blinks at you when him and his unit walk into the museum that you’ve been working at. 
Modern!Azriel whose chest tightens with something strange when your whole face lights up after recognizing him. 
Modern!Azriel who has only had casual flings (mostly bc he was always away for work) but feels his heart drop to his feet when you press your lips to his left cheek and give his arms a little squeeze. 
Modern!Azriel whose whole body relaxes when you pull him into a hug. who’s knees almost give out when you rub your manicured hands up and down his biceps and whisper about how you missed him–how you were worried about him. 
his whole team will harass him later about his reaction and beg for the details behind your history because even though they’re navy seals they’re really just chismosas on the inside. 
Modern!Azriel who is seriously so confused as to how you (someone who was so kind and loving) could be involved in counter-terrorism.
Modern!Azriel who is shocked when you explain to him that the art world is full of criminals and that terrorists especially love to use expensive art as methods of payment for whatever horrible acts they want to commit. 
Modern!Azriel whose chest puffs with pride when he hears you tell your boss that you have full faith in his unit and their abilities bc “azriel isn’t the kind of man who lets people down”
Modern!Azriel who is supposed to be paying attention to the baroque painting on the wall but can’t take his eyes off of you in your beautiful, floor-length, velvet gown. 
Modern!Azriel who takes out two things in one night: a secret terrorist cell and you to dinner. 
Modern!Azriel who realizes he hasn’t been able to have a serious relationship bc he’s been in love with you this whole time (read: since he was literally 9 years old and you told him he had the prettiest eyes in the world)
Modern!Azriel who wears the matching bracelet you got him every single day. especially when he’s deployed bc a photo of you might actually be too dangerous for the field
Modern!Azriel who never tells you exactly what he does just that he’s the captain of a navy seal unit bc its classified, but you still worry (especially bc you’re a historian and can almost immediately tell where he’s been in the world based on the souvenirs he brings you)
Modern!Azriel who almost bursts into tears when you tell him you love him first bc he’d  been struggling to get the words out for weeks
Modern!Azriel who gets to experience softness from someone other than his mother for the first time in his life
Modern!Azriel who is in a healthy, positive relationship with someone who loves all of him including his flaws. 
Modern!Azriel whose partner teaching him about emotional maturity and communication and slowly walks with him down his healing journey
Modern!Azriel who is pathetically in love with his partner and can’t wait to start their life together. 
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azrielslostshadow · 5 months
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Modern!Azriel Headcanons
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Modern! Azriel/ Navy Seal! Azriel x reader
Wordcount: 900ish
Warnings: annoying drill sergeant, couple curse words, not super gendered (like one mention of a dress)
A/N: az is a cutie in this one too :)))
Modern!Azriel who grew up in the same trashy neighborhood as you and cass and rhys. 
Modern!Azriel who was determined to make it out despite what his shitty father and half-brothers had to say about it. 
Modern!Azriel who was somehow top 10 in your graduating class despite missing like half of junior and senior year to work and help his mom pay the bills. 
Modern!Azriel who got a 1500 on the SAT and a 96 on his ASVAB (Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery) test. 
Modern!Azriel who knew that his best chance out of the hood was the military (also probably not the best way to work out all his anger)
Modern!Azriel who convinces cass to join him and they both enlist in the battle buddy program together. (they both deploy together so they always have a homie to rely on)
Modern!Azriel who is a fucking 6’4” unit and is recruited by the navy bc he’s massive and a genius and secretly speaks like 5 languages (bc his mom is an immigrant and they’re like that) 
the drill sergeant just about dropped and foamed at the mouth at the sight of azriel and cassian (drill sergeant goes on a tangent about finally getting some “real sailors” and the rest of the unit literally hates them bc yeah he’s right they don’t compare)
Modern!Azriel who (alongside cassian) gets asked to apply to seal school and they graduate with some of the highest BUD/S scores the navy has ever seen (his mom is super proud and makes him mole de pollo bc its his favorite and she loves her son and his friends)
Modern!Azriel who makes it to captain in six years instead of the average nine bc he’s just that good
Modern!Azriel who always remembered you as his kind coworker from his trashy minimum wage dishwashing job in high school and definitely not as his friend’s cute younger sister.
Modern!Azriel who remembers every time you brought him dinner and badly lied about how you hated to waste food and didn’t know what to do with the leftovers so he wouldn’t feel bad about eating it (bc times were tough in HS and he really wasn’t eating enough at all)
Modern!Azriel who just kind of slowly blinks at you when him and his unit walk into the museum that you’ve been working at. 
Modern!Azriel whose chest tightens with something strange when your whole face lights up after recognizing him. 
Modern!Azriel who has only had casual flings (mostly bc he was always away for work) but feels his heart drop to his feet when you press your lips to his left cheek and give his arms a little squeeze. 
Modern!Azriel whose whole body relaxes when you pull him into a hug. who’s knees almost give out when you rub your manicured hands up and down his biceps and whisper about how you missed him–how you were worried about him. 
his whole team will harass him later about his reaction and beg for the details behind your history because even though they’re navy seals they’re really just chismosas on the inside. 
Modern!Azriel who is seriously so confused as to how you (someone who was so kind and loving) could be involved in counter-terrorism.
Modern!Azriel who is shocked when you explain to him that the art world is full of criminals and that terrorists especially love to use expensive art as methods of payment for whatever horrible acts they want to commit. 
Modern!Azriel whose chest puffs with pride when he hears you tell your boss that you have full faith in his unit and their abilities bc “azriel isn’t the kind of man who lets people down”
Modern!Azriel who is supposed to be paying attention to the baroque painting on the wall but can’t take his eyes off of you in your beautiful, floor-length, velvet gown. 
Modern!Azriel who takes out two things in one night: a secret terrorist cell and you to dinner. 
Modern!Azriel who realizes he hasn’t been able to have a serious relationship bc he’s been in love with you this whole time (read: since he was literally 9 years old and you told him he had the prettiest eyes in the world)
Modern!Azriel who wears the matching bracelet you got him every single day. especially when he’s deployed bc a photo of you might actually be too dangerous for the field
Modern!Azriel who never tells you exactly what he does just that he’s the captain of a navy seal unit bc its classified, but you still worry (especially bc you’re a historian and can almost immediately tell where he’s been in the world based on the souvenirs he brings you)
Modern!Azriel who almost bursts into tears when you tell him you love him first bc he’d  been struggling to get the words out for weeks
Modern!Azriel who gets to experience softness from someone other than his mother for the first time in his life
Modern!Azriel who is in a healthy, positive relationship with someone who loves all of him including his flaws. 
Modern!Azriel whose partner teaching him about emotional maturity and communication and slowly walks with him down his healing journey
Modern!Azriel who is pathetically in love with his partner and can’t wait to start their life together. 
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azrielslostshadow · 5 months
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NAVIGATION
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Hola a todos! Welcome to my blog and this cozy corner of the internet <3 I hope you enjoy :)))
MASTER LIST
COMMUNITY GUIDELINES
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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azrielslostshadow · 5 months
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MASTER POST
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Welcome to my library! Stay as long as you would like :)
GUIDE: suggestive (*), angst (^)
Azriel
i see you
love meter
lemon dreams [1], [2], [3]
modern!azriel headcanons
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azrielslostshadow · 5 months
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Modern!Azriel Headcanons
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Modern! Azriel/ Navy Seal! Azriel x reader
Wordcount: 900ish
Warnings: annoying drill sergeant, couple curse words, not super gendered (like one mention of a dress)
A/N: az is a cutie in this one too :)))
Modern!Azriel who grew up in the same trashy neighborhood as you and cass and rhys. 
Modern!Azriel who was determined to make it out despite what his shitty father and half-brothers had to say about it. 
Modern!Azriel who was somehow top 10 in your graduating class despite missing like half of junior and senior year to work and help his mom pay the bills. 
Modern!Azriel who got a 1500 on the SAT and a 96 on his ASVAB (Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery) test. 
Modern!Azriel who knew that his best chance out of the hood was the military (also probably not the best way to work out all his anger)
Modern!Azriel who convinces cass to join him and they both enlist in the battle buddy program together. (they both deploy together so they always have a homie to rely on)
Modern!Azriel who is a fucking 6’4” unit and is recruited by the navy bc he’s massive and a genius and secretly speaks like 5 languages (bc his mom is an immigrant and they’re like that) 
the drill sergeant just about dropped and foamed at the mouth at the sight of azriel and cassian (drill sergeant goes on a tangent about finally getting some “real sailors” and the rest of the unit literally hates them bc yeah he’s right they don’t compare)
Modern!Azriel who (alongside cassian) gets asked to apply to seal school and they graduate with some of the highest BUD/S scores the navy has ever seen (his mom is super proud and makes him mole de pollo bc its his favorite and she loves her son and his friends)
Modern!Azriel who makes it to captain in six years instead of the average nine bc he’s just that good
Modern!Azriel who always remembered you as his kind coworker from his trashy minimum wage dishwashing job in high school and definitely not as his friend’s cute younger sister.
Modern!Azriel who remembers every time you brought him dinner and badly lied about how you hated to waste food and didn’t know what to do with the leftovers so he wouldn’t feel bad about eating it (bc times were tough in HS and he really wasn’t eating enough at all)
Modern!Azriel who just kind of slowly blinks at you when him and his unit walk into the museum that you’ve been working at. 
Modern!Azriel whose chest tightens with something strange when your whole face lights up after recognizing him. 
Modern!Azriel who has only had casual flings (mostly bc he was always away for work) but feels his heart drop to his feet when you press your lips to his left cheek and give his arms a little squeeze. 
Modern!Azriel whose whole body relaxes when you pull him into a hug. who’s knees almost give out when you rub your manicured hands up and down his biceps and whisper about how you missed him–how you were worried about him. 
his whole team will harass him later about his reaction and beg for the details behind your history because even though they’re navy seals they’re really just chismosas on the inside. 
Modern!Azriel who is seriously so confused as to how you (someone who was so kind and loving) could be involved in counter-terrorism.
Modern!Azriel who is shocked when you explain to him that the art world is full of criminals and that terrorists especially love to use expensive art as methods of payment for whatever horrible acts they want to commit. 
Modern!Azriel whose chest puffs with pride when he hears you tell your boss that you have full faith in his unit and their abilities bc “azriel isn’t the kind of man who lets people down”
Modern!Azriel who is supposed to be paying attention to the baroque painting on the wall but can’t take his eyes off of you in your beautiful, floor-length, velvet gown. 
Modern!Azriel who takes out two things in one night: a secret terrorist cell and you to dinner. 
Modern!Azriel who realizes he hasn’t been able to have a serious relationship bc he’s been in love with you this whole time (read: since he was literally 9 years old and you told him he had the prettiest eyes in the world)
Modern!Azriel who wears the matching bracelet you got him every single day. especially when he’s deployed bc a photo of you might actually be too dangerous for the field
Modern!Azriel who never tells you exactly what he does just that he’s the captain of a navy seal unit bc its classified, but you still worry (especially bc you’re a historian and can almost immediately tell where he’s been in the world based on the souvenirs he brings you)
Modern!Azriel who almost bursts into tears when you tell him you love him first bc he’d  been struggling to get the words out for weeks
Modern!Azriel who gets to experience softness from someone other than his mother for the first time in his life
Modern!Azriel who is in a healthy, positive relationship with someone who loves all of him including his flaws. 
Modern!Azriel whose partner teaching him about emotional maturity and communication and slowly walks with him down his healing journey
Modern!Azriel who is pathetically in love with his partner and can’t wait to start their life together. 
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azrielslostshadow · 5 months
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COMMUNITY GUIDELINES
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Hey guys!
REQUESTS: OPEN (but pls be aware i'm in college and things are starting to pick up rn)
So I have a couple ground rules about my writing:
I do not normally write smut (mostly bc i'm bad at it)
I will ABSOLUTELY NOT write smut for real people (ex. barry sloane) or minors (i'm not gonna be aging anyone up either)
my page is a place to come and relax, so just please be kind when interacting with my blog ( also i'm quick asf w/ the block button)
I will write for the following fandoms:
ACOTAR
COD: MODERN WARFARE
MARAUDERS
PJO
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azrielslostshadow · 5 months
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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Hi guys!! If you clicked this link then that means you think I'm worth learning about so thank you! :)
I've decided to make this a bulleted list so that it's easier later on if I want to add something new lol
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE ORCA WHALES THEY'RE THE MOST PERFECT ANIMALS ON THE WHOLE EARTH
i'm 19
i study art history and religion at my university
i'm mexican-american and i love love love my culture <3
i'm the oldest of four
my favorite color is brown (bc honestly its just so comforting)
i love learning new languages (rn its french and um... yeah i'm just gonna leave that there babe)
i'm a huge Hozier/Noah Kahan fan.
i'm also a swiftie (yo where tf can I get my own travis??)
my biggest pet peeve is when people pronounce the n in thank you (seriously it triggers something animalistic in me like just thinking about makes me want to literally smash my computer on the floor rn lmfao)
also i'm a proud seaworld anti!! FREE MY WHALES!! TILIKUM IS THE REAL VICTIM!
anyways... i also want to travel the world (pls if u know how and its cheap i would love u forever)
I'm a casual kpoppie but i used to listen more and would love to talk about it w/ people
also kdramas (and cdramas especially) are so so good and cute!!
my little sister is my favorite person in the whole world and i would give up every one of my dreams to make hers a reality.
i got into university in London but ended up going to some random state-side school to make my mom happy (i'm tempted to drop out and run away)
i tell everyone i'm a remus girl but really i think i'm a james girl and i can't admit that bc james and lily break my heart every second of the day
the best movie ever created is A Little Chaos by Alan Rickman (seriously its amazing and my comfort movie and if u like bridgerton this is like a calmer/ slower version w only one love interest and a super kind but also girlboss! female lead who falls for her boss who seems cold, but is actually a sweetheart and u will love it)
I want to move to mexico and reconnect with my roots for a year
i think that percy jackson is seriously the greatest man ever written
percabeth and peraltiago are my favorite fictional couples
okay i think thats good for now.... I'll update later when i think of something cool
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azrielslostshadow · 11 months
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Lemon Mousse
Word Count: 2264
Author’s Note: sorry for the wait lovelies. you know how it goes with finals and work and everything else that life throws at you. should i continue this series? lmk what you think. 
pt.1, pt.2
“Huh, I figured you might not be back for a while.” 
azriel’s head shot up at the sound of your voice. you were beauty and grace and light and love and oh gods you were looking right up at him. “w-what?” did he seriously just stutter? he’s the shadowsinger! he shouldn’t stutter or panic. especially not in front of a faerie who probably couldn’t even care less about him and what he does outside of buying lemon-flavored pastries that he doesn’t actually eat. 
“well, I just assumed that you wouldn’t be coming in since the High Lord announced his trip to the Summer Court?”
of course! for the last few months, whenever azriel’s come in he’s ordered extra pastries just to talk to you longer, and when you asked what they were for he had said something about sharing them with feyre and rhys. 
“oh- well yes of course, but they aren’t set to leave until tomorrow so i thought i’d stop by.”
he watched as you tilted your head, brows furrowed and a pretty pout on your lips, “i must be mistaken then. i thought feyre said they were meant to leave today?”
“change of plans. something about a meeting rhysand had forgot.” azriel was a terrible fae. lying to a beautiful shop owner all because he was to afraid to ask her to dinner. he figured he should muster up the courage soon before she found out that he actually hated lemons and sweets. 
“well, besides the lemon tarts- is there anything else i could get you?” azriel had never seen you look so dim. 
“anything new for me to try?” azriel wasn’t even going to eat it, but he wanted to make you feel better. you always lit up when you talked about your treats. 
“just the mousse.”
azriel was shocked. you normally made it a point to be kind, oftentimes going out of your way to get him out of his own shell. “i like mousse.”
he was hoping you might engage in the lighthearted, flirty banter that you usually did, but was disappointed when you only let out a small huff of acknowledgment and moved to grab the dessert. you gave him his total, a tense smile, and sent him on his way. 
he felt like his heart had been squeezed out of his chest- like he had done something wrong. especially when you didn’t even try to stop him from tipping. 
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“now i’m no genius-”
“coulda told you that myself, cass.”
“but i think she knows about your little crush.”
once azriel returned to the house of wind, he immediately told cassian and nesta what happened. he thought they might be able to help, but clearly he was wrong.
“first of all.” he began, “there’s no way she knows about my crush. i happen to be the fucking shadowsinger thank you very much.”
his brother chuckled, “so you admit that you have a crush?”
“i admit that you’re a pain in the ass.”
“oh gods.” nesta was losing patience with the spymaster, “this is seriously starting to get so pathetic, azriel.”
“i don’t know what i did! or if i even did anything? we barely know each other, she- she could be upset about anything!”
“except you know her well enough to know something is bothering her?”
“anybody with eyes could see that she wasn’t okay! it wasn’t something special.”
“you should go check on her.”
azriel looked at nesta like she’d grown a second head, “what?”
“go right before she closes.”
“nesta, i already went once today! if i go again she’ll think something’s up.”
“oh what? like that’s a bad thing?”
“yes!”
“wait,” cassian’s face scrunched up, “i thought you liked her?”
“he does.”
“so what’s the problem?”
“he’s scared she’ll like him back.”
azriel sulked into the couch cushions, “i’m right here.”
“we’re well aware.”
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regardless of how annoying the couple was, azriel still found himself outside the brightly colored shop five minutes left before closing. choosing to ignore his nerves, he pushed past the doors and into the bakery. 
“i’ll be right out!” you called from somewhere in the back. 
azriel figured this conversion would go one of two ways: 
      a. you’d kick him out for bothering you about something personal or
      b. you’d actually want to tell him what was bothering you.
either way he supposed it was best if he just swapped the sign to closed and locked the doors, then he made his way past the counter and into the kitchens. 
it was exactly how he had envisioned it to be. warm and inviting albeit a little chaotic. Flour covered the countertops, a couple of dishes were in the sink, and the floors needed to be swept, but it was entirely you. 
“oh-?”
azriel turned and you might as well have ripped his heart out of his chest, “love?”
your eyes were red and your mascara had smudged beneath your lashes. it was clear you’d been crying and he’d give anything to make sure you were never burdened with tears ever again. 
“sorry, az. i’m actually just about to close so if you don’t mind-”
“what’s happened?”
“i’m sorry?”`
“are you okay?” he meant to ask the question kindly, but it seemed to him that he’d failed when you immediately began to sob, “gods, i- i am so sorry! i didn’t mean to upset you!” carefully, he moved closer to you, hands spread out like you were a wild animal he didn’t want to spook.  
“no- you didn’t i-i just,” you took a deep breath again and before he could ask another ridiculous question, you were crying again. 
“oh, love.” he moved closer before he immediately stepped back again. he didn’t want to frighten you or make you any more uncomfortable than he already did. 
but then you began to cry harder. 
he was unsure of what to do. stepping away made you cry harder, which is what he figured should have happened if he moved closer. you were shaking, trying to hold yourself together and all he wanted was to just hold you. so he gathered up all of his courage and prepared himself in case you pushed him away, and moved to wrap his arms around you.
he half expected you to scramble away from him. azriel knew he was a rather intimidating faerie, he was taller than most, his wings were wide, his hands were terribly scarred, and his whole demeanor normally screamed run away now if you want to live. he assumed if he was lucky you would freeze, but still let him hold you. 
instead, the second he touched you, you wrapped your arm around his middle, burying your head into his chest, and gripped his shoulders like you were afraid someone might tear the two of you apart. 
for a moment azriel didn’t move, shocked that you actually wanted him. 
once he recovered, however, he placed his arm around you, one hand on your hip and the other on the top of your head, bringing you closer to him. 
the two of you stayed like that for a few minutes, holding each other tightly in the lemon-filled kitchen, until you lifted your head from his chest, tears dripping down the sides of your cheeks and an, “i’m sorry.” leaving your lips in a defeated whisper. 
“don’t be.” he moved to wipe away your tears, cradling your face in his large hands, pride surging trough his veins when you leaned into his palms. “if you’d like, we could talk about it?”
you began to pull away, “it’s dumb. nothing really.”
azriel was a lot of things, but stupid was not one of them. he had been trained to see through a lie, and you were clearly inexperienced in the art of deception. he pulled you closer before you could hide away from him again, “no, it’s not.”
you took a moment to gather yourself, wringing your hands, eyes bouncing around the room at anything that wasn’t the illyrian warrior before you, “does feyre hate me?”
“what?” this was the last thing azriel thought would have upset you. feyre absolutely adored you! she spoke of you often to the inner circle. 
“i just- i just want to know if i’ve done something to upset her. she was the first friend i made in velaris and now she never comes in anymore!”
azriel wasn’t sure what to do. he’d taken feyre’s place as your regular so that he could talk to you, but he never thought it would hurt your feelings. “she doesn’t hate you.”
“well, clara from the night shift has been telling everyone she does. that she got tired of my lemons and only sends you in out of pity!”
“the night shift? the bakery down the block?”
“yeah- with that horrible gray brick!” you grumbled, “her whole building looks like a fucking cinderblock with no personality whatsoever.”
he couldn’t help but lt out an amused snort- he’d never seen you angry before. he thought you looked quite like a mouse, “it is rather ugly isn’t it?”
“with horrible pastries too! i’ve never had such a bland, powdery scone in my life! i’m not sure why our high lady would ever prefer that to mine.”
“she doesn’t.”
“azriel. she hasn’t been here for months. most of my customers came in because they thought she loved my desserts. now business is slow, except for when you come in and your fangirls follow-”
“fangirls?”
“they always come in after and ask what you’ve ordered and get the exact same thing! i’ve had to start lying to them- you know i can only make so much of every treat!”
“love-”
“look if feyre really prefers clara’s treats, she really doesn’t need to send you in to make me feel better okay?”
“she’s never sent me in here.” 
you froze at his words, “what?”
“well, except for the first time.” azriel wasn’t about to ruin your friendship with feyre or your business just because he was afraid to admit his crush. 
“what the hell are you talking about? you get a lemon tart almost everyday!”
“i wanted to see you.”
“azriel-”
“i hate lemons.” azriel let out a breath at his admission. when your brows furrowed and you could only blink at him he began again, “and sweets. but i wanted to see you again, so i convinced feyre to let me come in for her.”
“i don’t-”
“i was too nervous to ask you out to dinner and i didn’t want to ruin my chances of getting to see you again so i kept it to myself. i’m sorry i made you feel like you lost your friend. i’ll tell feyre that she can come in again and I won’t bother you anymore.” azriel turned to walk away from you and out of the bakery when you grabbed his wrist, preventing him from leaving in embarrassment. 
“you hate lemons?”
“i ugh- yes.” he looked to the ground like a child being reprimanded by their mother. He couldn’t focus not with you touching him. and especially not when you moved your fingers from his wrist to grip his hand in both of yours, bringing it to your chest, and pulling him closer to you. 
“you came in every day to buy lemon-flavored pastries when you hate sweets and lemons?”
“yes.”
“and then you basically paid me double every single time?”
“yes.”
“because you were afraid i might say no to dinner?”
“well when you put it that way-”
before he could defend himself, words tumbled out of your mouth in a rush, “i was thinking about adding on to my menu.”
“what does that have to do with-”
“a new drink menu.”
“i’m not following.”
you smiled up at him, “bitter coffees, protein shakes, limeades, maybe something themed around the inner circle?”
“love-”
“maybe infused milks too? for nyx of course.”
“i really don’t-”
“you’d have to come in, you know- to try them?”
azriel realized that you were giving him an opening. you wanted him to keep coming in, you wanted to see him again. but you weren’t pushing him away or forcing him to ask you out if he wasn’t ready. 
“yeah. i would, wouldn’t i?”
he watched as you let out a soft sigh of contentment, “walk me home?”
he couldn’t think of something he would enjoy more than walking you home, “of course.”
he watched as you finished closing up shop, leaving the dishes for one of your employees in the morning. then as the two of you began walking away from the yellow bakery, you looped your arm through his and smiled before leaning in to whisper something in his ear, “you could’ve asked me out the first time you came in, I would’ve said yes- still would.”
“yeah?”
“mhm.”
after that the two of you walked in silence for a while- comfortable, not forced. 
eventually you stopped in front of an old building that azriel thought fit you perfectly, “yours?”
“yeah. thanks for walking me home, azriel.”
he scratched the back of his neck, “anytime.”
you squeezed his hand before walking up the steps and unlocking the door then you paused, “azriel?”
“yes?”
“my door’s always open.” you turned to him one last time, “dinner’s usually around eight, and i’ve got this nasty habit of making too much food for one person ya know?”
he smiled brighter than normal, grateful that you were the one to make the first move, “well, we wouldn’t want all that food to go to waste now would we?”
fin
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azrielslostshadow · 11 months
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i want to write an az fic where the reader just gets him so high he just giggles like a little kid
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azrielslostshadow · 11 months
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sorry for being awol i was committed for a bit lol
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azrielslostshadow · 1 year
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let me just say i just started the ultimatum on netflix and its is MESSY!!! and all i can think about is how good it would be to have an acotar inspired fic for it… azriel and elain and lucien and gwyn and eris and oh my god im plotting
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azrielslostshadow · 1 year
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this is so fucking precious.
(and this work is giving me an idea for lemon dreams… new menu items, anyone?)
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Rhys, Nyx and Feyre - A Court of Thorns and Roses
Artist: @b_kinkyk
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azrielslostshadow · 1 year
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attention, please
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summary - az wants attention and you just want to read
word count: -1k
a/n: just fluff my friends, kinda suggestive language but nothing r rated
You were quite content, sitting quietly in bed with your new romance novel, until he decided that wasn’t okay.
For a midweek day it had been relatively quiet around Windhaven. Feyre was at her art studio, Rhys providing her “company”. Nessa and Cassian were “training” and who knows what Mor, Amren and Emerie were doing. Azriel had dropped off some food for Cassian, per the Warlord’s request, and had come back to try and find you.
You’d spent the most part of the day hidden away in the library, with your new novel - completely captivated between the pages. However, when Az had gone to see Cassian you had moved to the comfort of your shared bedroom, with Az, for a more relaxing reading spot.
That’s where Az had now found you, laying on the bed on your front with your book before you, twirling your legs in the air.
“There you are.” Az announced himself, as if he’d been looking millennia for you. Well, technically that had also happened.
“Here I am.” You smiled at him, before returning to your book.
“No greeting kiss for me?” He asked, wandering from the door to you.
“Well you’re all the way over there.” You exaggerated.
Suddenly Azriel appeared next to you, climbing on the bed to the side of you. Before you could speak, he had placed his strong arms on either side of your head and manoeuvred his body so he was hovering over yours.
“Az.. What…” You laughed, before getting cut off his Azriel’s lips on the side of your neck.
His body pressed against yours and you could feel every hard part of his body. Some parts incredibly harder than others. His body never crushed yours though. It was a challenge for him to not completely let himself lay on you and focus on really providing you pleasure.
“Now I’m all the way over here.” He said, kissing your exposed neck some more and more and more.
“You…” You struggled to focus on the words on your page.
“I?”
You pushed your body up so it completely pressed against Az’s. He groaned against the place between your shoulder and neck and the small vibrations made you smile with delight.
“I’m reading. Go away, you pest.” You laughed, trying to push him away with the force of your hips since your hands were protecting your book at all costs. Your book came before all else. Your beloved.
“I’m certainly not going away if you keep pushing up into me like that, now, am I?” He rhetorically asked, biting down on the skin on your neck to mark you.
“Azzz…” You whined.
“Y/NNNN.” He replied with the same tone.
“I wanna read.” You pouted, flumping back down on the bed. You laughed when Azriel completely flopped down on top of you, making your slightly winded from the heavy Illyrian force. “You bastard.”
“I love you too.” He kissed your neck again. Once, twice and then a third.
“You’re so annoying.” You laughed, not being able to actually bring yourself to be mad with him.
“Is it so wrong of me to want to love on my mate? Hm?”
“It is when your mate is reading. Everyone knows to never come between a girl and her book.” You explained, dropping your book on the floor after you’d slipped the bookmark between the pages. The bookmark that Az had gotten you as a gift.
“Do you love the males in your books more than me?” He asked, his face still tucked between your neck and shoulder. One of his hands was tracing the skin on your arm lightly, making your eyes flutter closes with relax.
“I’ll never love anyone more than I love you. I promise.” You turned your head to the side and was met with his face close to yours. You saw a slight smile on his face, his dark curls falling slightly over his eyes.
“Good.” He smiled more before leaning in to kiss your lips this time and you gladly met him in the middle.
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azrielslostshadow · 1 year
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lemon meltaways
Word Count: 880
Author’s Note: hey guys! thank you so much for all the love on lemon tart! i think i want to continue to include scenes with the inner circle. i just know that watching azriel fall into a good and healthy love means just as much to them as it does to me <3
pt.1, pt.3
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azriel didn’t even like lemons. 
still, he stopped by the little bakery that specialized in lemon desserts. all of which were currently staring back at him through the display case, while he tried to pick the one he might hate the least. 
“back so soon?” he jumped when he realized you were right behind him. certainly not because you were flashing that pretty smile up at him. 
azriel figured he should at least make it look like he was in your bakery for some reason other than to see you again, “yeah. I- I uh really liked that lemon danish from yesterday.”
you smiled even wider, “thank you! I actually just adjusted my danish recipe so it’s nice to hear that someone enjoyed them!” 
“it was really good!” azriel was a liar. he hated that danish and ended up giving it to nesta, “the lemon tarts too. feyre loved them.”
“thank you…?” 
“azriel.” he told you as you moved to wipe the table behind him down. 
“oh. you’re feyre’s brother-in-law right?”
azriel felt something warm bubble up in his chest as being known as someone’s brother, rather than the feared shadowsinger of the night court. “yeah, that’s me.” he offered you a small smile, feeling shy. 
“well, azriel, what can i get for you today? cakes?”
azriel feared he may have lost his touch when he practically turned cherry red at the thought of you remembering yesterdays conversation. 
“just a lemon tart for feyre.” he realized he shouldn’t waste your product, since everyone else seemed to like them so much. 
“not feeling sweets today?”
he felt his chest tighten when he saw the absolutely precious pout lying on your lips, “no, that’s not it at all!” what is wrong with you? “it’s just that i’m in a rush today! and i wouldn’t want to end up wasting something you spent so much time on and-”
mother above, you were laughing again
“it’s okay, azriel.” you glanced up at him with a soft smile, “just the lemon tart, right?”
azriel wasn’t ready to go. he just wanted to hear your voice again, “anything quick?”
“hmm?” you hummed at him.
“let’s say you were going to be busy. what would you pick?” anything to hear your voice again. 
“again? you’ve placed an awful lot of trust in me recently, azriel.”
“you’ve just got that kinda look.”
“look?”
“yeah. Like someone, i could trust.”
 you blinked, then smiled, “well if i was looking for something on the go, i would get the lemon meltaways.” and gestured towards small coin-sized cookies at the far end of the display case. “They’re a butter cookie with lemon zest and a lemon flavored icing.”
“are they any good?”
you let out a small huff, “i wouldn’t sell you something that wasn’t good.”
“i’ll take some.”
the shadowsinger watched as you moved gracefully, placing the cookies into a small bag and then putting them into the bag with the lemon tarts, “give feyre my love, yeah?”
“course.” he moved to grab his wallet when you stopped him again.
“oh, no. absolutely not. you paid last time even after i told you not to.”
“no, last time i tipped.”
“yeah. twice as much as you would have normally paid!”
“well you deserved it.” azriel nodded stubbornly, “those were delicious.”
“thank you, but no. it’s my treat.”
you were persistent, azriel would give you that much. “fine. at least let me tip?”
“if it’s a small one.”
“fine.” azriel dug into his wallet, looking for the appropriate bill, before practically bolting out the door with a wave and a, “have a good day!”
you might be stubborn, but he was the shadowsinger and he knew how to get what he wanted. especially if it was paying the pretty cashier exactly what she was owed and then some. 
he couldn’t help but chuckle to himself when he heard to small huff you let out at his antics. 
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“stop for something sweet again brother?”
azriel really was tempted to remove cassian’s head from his neck. “maybe.”
the general laughed, “you could always ask her out you know?”
“yeah,” started nesta, “instead of buying food you don’t even like.”
“keep talking and i won’t share with you anymore.” azriel slipped into the seat next to the high lady, “here feyre, for you.”
“thanks, az. you didn’t have to do that.”
“he didn’t do it for you, feyre.” cassian clapped him on his shoulder, “he wanted to see your pretty friend again.”
“maybe i wanted to try something new!”
“from the lemon-flavored bakery? when you hate sweets and when you especially hate lemons?”
“i’m sure i’ll find one i’ll like.”
“before or after they figure out your little crush?”
“do me a favor and jump off something real high, yeah?” azriel huffed, pushing his brother off of him.
“you do know that we can both fly right?”
“maybe i’ll get lucky and you’ll forget how.”
“go ahead then, try your lemon-flavored treat.”
“maybe i will!”
“i’m waiting?” cassian tilted his head, as he and the rest of their little family watched azriel hesitantly lift the cookie to his mouth.
the inner circle couldn’t help but to laugh fondly at the illryian warrior, who so clearly did not like his lemon-flavored treat, “uh- hey nes?”
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lemon tart
word count: 1297
azriel x gn!reader
authors note: azriel is cute when he panics. cassian loves to mess with him too. look out for future parts!
pt.2, pt.3
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azriel was gonna kill cassian. 
how could the general of the night court, the man responsible for the high lords' armies actually be so forgetful?
cassian told him it was something about a new mating bond, which azriel knew was ridiculous, cassian and nesta have been mated for 100 years already. he probably just wanted to sleep in with his wife, something azriel figured he would also want if he knew what it was like to be mated to someone. 
either way, he was still pissed off. 
it was also unbelievable that the only thing feyre wanted to eat during her second pregnancy were lemon tarts. lemon tarts specifically from the new bakery the high lady was obsessed with, Lemon Dreams. 
she could have anything in the world and she chooses lemon tarts?
azriel was really reconsidering how he felt about his High Lady. 
he supposed the place was cute… in a country farmish sort of way. it wasn’t really his style, but he supposed he could see the appeal. calming jazz played in the background, while daisies were lay scattered across dark wood counters, and the coffee and berry aroma’s filled the air. it seemed so out of place compared to the dark blue’s, purples, and blacks that normally filled the spaces of velaris’ cafes. 
“anything you’re looking for specifically?” a voice broke out from behind the counter and azriel’s heart fell to his feet. 
there you stood, bright and beautiful and smiling up at him, and oh gods you were beautiful… and speaking right at him! what did you say again? “huh? oh sorry, i-i just completely zoned out, what were you saying again?”
You blinked at him once… twice… and then you giggled at him and azriel thought that if could bottle it up and carry it with him, he might never have to go to majda for healing ever again. 
“its okay. must just be one of those days right?” you clearly carried the sunshine in your smile, otherwise the shadowsinger wouldn’t have to turn away when you made eye contact. 
“yeah,” was he actually out of breath right now? great mother, he was pathetic.
you made your way further down the counter before turning to him again, “so are you looking for something specific?”
“yeah, my friend she wanted a couple of lemon tarts? you have those right?”
“which ones was she looking for?”
“which one?” azriel was confused. isn’t there only one kind of lemon tart?
“yeah, i have lemon-mint, lemon-berry, original, lemon and cream, and i can make specialty tarts for future orders if she’s looking for something in the future.”
it was then that azriel realized why this bakery was called Lemon Dreams. the display trays were filled with lemon desserts. “wow, uh sorry. i didn’t realize that there were so many kinds of lemon tarts… original i guess?”
“original?” 
“yeah! that should work… i hope?”
“hmm…” you started, “who’s it for?”
“what?” there was no way you could know who wanted this lemon tart! velaris is a busy city, you could hardly ever know all the people in your own neighborhood. 
“is she a regular? i remember all of my customers.”
“all of them?”
“every single one! just give me a hint, i think i could figure it out.”
azriel pondered for a moment. it wasn’t like he was putting the high lady a risk… if she really came here so often you probably knew her. and you looked terribly cute, with those hopeful eyes staring into his, “she’s pregnant.”
“feyre?” 
he blinked.
you clapped your hands together, lit up and full of joy, “seriously? i almost thought i was gonna get it wrong!”
“how- how could you possibly know that?” he was shocked. there had to be many pregnant faes who loved lemon tarts!
“i’ve never met someone so passionate about lemon tarts quite like our high lady.” you began pulling various lemon tarts into a bag, nodding towards his left, “she made me that painting right there.”
azriel turned to see a painting of a field of lemon trees under the night sky. it looked exactly like the work he had seen in feyre’s studio a few weeks before. “i didn’t realize you two knew each other.”
“she says this place inspires her. sometimes she brings her sketchbooks and drinks tea in here for hours.”
“really?” 
“oh yeah! honestly, i think she does it to try and get more people in here. i was kind of dying before she started coming around.” 
“really? but it's so… peaceful here.” azriel couldn’t imagine people not wanting to be in this bakery. he wanted to be in here all the time (mostly just to see you smile but regardless he wanted to be there). 
“it’s not very night courtly is it though? i mean that’s fine! but i can see why some might be hesitant to stop by. for you?”
azriel realized you had probably been waiting for him to add to the order, but he couldn’t think of anything he wanted more than to see you smile again, “what’s your favorite?”
“my favorite?”
“yeah. i’ll take whatever you like the most.”
your eyes light up, “cake or pastry?”
“pastry now, cake next time.” azriel couldn’t even believe the words coming out of his mouth. 
“lemon danish?”
“is it your favorite?”
“today it is.”
“it changes?”
“every day.”
“well then, i guess i might need to come back and see what else is good?”
you handed him the bag of lemon-flavored treats, “you should.” azriel reached in his pocket to pay you but you stopped him before he could, grabbing his hand and moving it away from his pocket and towards his chest, “it's on the house.”
“what? no. i should-”
“any friend of feyre’s is a friend of mine. you can pay next time.” before azriel could argue any more, you had already walked back into the kitchen leaving him alone at the counter. still he dropped a rather large bill in your tip jar, determined to pay. 
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he walked back to the house of wind with a smile on his face, only for it to be replaced by a scowl when he saw cassian and nesta lounging on the couches with the rest of the inner circle. 
“you’re late, brother.” 
“cas if you don’t shut it i’ll rip your wings off.”
cassian visibly flinched at the threat, but still looked toward the bag of goodies, “whatcha get for me?”
“nothing,” azriel slapped his hand away, “you’re not pregnant are you?”
“i could be if you loved me more.” 
the group erupted into laughter as he handed the bag to the high lady, “for you, sister.”
she began digging through the bag, “thanks, az! i can’t tell you how much i’ve been craving these.”
“it’s all she asks for.” sighed rhys, voice tired from his mate’s antics and new love of lemon tarts.
“oh, what's this?” feyre lifted a pastry into the air.
“mine. sorry, i forgot to take it out.”
“is that a lemon danish?” mor exclaimed, entirely perplexed as to why the shadowsinger knowingly purchased a treat, let alone a lemon-flavored one. 
nesta scowled, “why are you freaking out over a lemon danish?”
“because azriel hates lemons?”
“you hate lemons?” asked, feyre.
“he’s hated lemons for as long as i can remember!” cassian jumped up, “cute cashier or something?”
“i like lemons!” argued azriel. 
cassian just gave him a look, “then take a bite.”
“fine!” the shadowsinger argued, before sinking his teeth into the treat, immediately regretting the decision. It was entirely too sweet, too sour, and just not at all something he liked. His face twisted, clearly not enjoying the dessert, while his brothers cackled at his misfortune. “i hate you both.”
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lemon dreams
azriel doesn’t even like lemons. He does however like the lemon bakery owner’s smile.
a series in which azriel finally falls in love with an emotionally available fae woman, who happens to love lemons. 
part one ,  part two, part three
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