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asocialbeauty · 2 years

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Schizoid personality symptomology.

Fear of humiliation

Shy and reserved

Feels like an outsider

Difficulty expressing anger

Constricted emotions

Passive and unassertive

Lacks social or romantic relationships

Denial of dependency needs

Appears to have little need for human closeness

Lacks social skills

Has difficulty making sense of people’s behavior

(constructed using Shedler & Westen, 2004)

A preponderance of neurotic features is likely to greatly reduce the chances that a personality disorder from the schizophrenia spectrum disorder is present (Clarkin et al., 2006). While neurotic level personality organization is marked by a coherent sense of identity and an ability to make strong investments in work and leisure, borderline level personalities are marked by an incoherent sense of self and others, and usually show marked difficulty investing in work and leisure (Clarkin et al., 2006). Borderline and neurotic patients also differ in their ability to manage reality testing, in how they handle and direct aggression, in their internal system of morals and values, and in the quality of their object relations.

While high-functioning schizoid characters may not always show identity diffusion and marked difficulty with reality testing, they are not prone to guilt, or to rigid inflexibility around moral systems as neurotic characters would be (Clarkin et al., 2006). Schizoid pathology is also marked by the use of mostly primitive defenses such as splitting, denial, and withdrawal over the more advanced defenses of the neurotic patient, such as repression, regression, displacement, and rationalization.

Borderline level patients also struggle to empathize with others, have difficulty with social convention, and show self-directed aggression. Internally, borderline level patients often have contradictory or rapidly shifting value systems that they have a difficult time putting into practice, and in severe cases, may appear to lack moral systems at all. Interpersonal relationships at the borderline level are often chaotic or troubled, a factor that is also reflected in confused sexual relationships, or frequently in the case of schizoid populations, a paucity of sexual relationships (Clarkin et al., 2006).

#szpd #symptomology #bordeline vs neurotic features #schizoid personality #schizophrenic spectrum #schizoid personality disorder #Spd #actually spd #szpd info #szpd insight #szpd post #szpd tag #actually szpd

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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"Can you multitask?"

Yes, actually. I'm losing my mind and chilling at the same time.

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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You must be confusing me with someone who gives a shit.

#schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #i dont have shits to give

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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Just made this real quick

#schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #personality disorders #cluster b #cluster c

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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I really miss 1999.

Back when I didn't exist.

#1999 #2000 #year #depressing memes #schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #mental illness

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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In a way I wish more schizoids would be active on social media so we can not care about anything together

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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Turns out that IP is more used as the equivalent of FP for schizoids. IP means "interest person". It also makes a reference to the IP address which is only further proof that schizoids are a bunch of hopeless stalkers (:

#schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #IP #interest person #favorite person #FP #stalker #hopeless #a joke #a half joke

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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One of the things I wouldn't wish for anyone is for their stupid comments to become viral screenshots shared around all social medias.

#idk what tags to add #idk what tags to put #dang #damn #viral #turns out I did put some tags

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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It shows how schizoid I am by the fact that I'm always playing with just one character in Sims and building not-so-small houses just to fit all the void.

#schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #sims #sims 4 #sims 4 gameplay

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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I heard that the equivalent of FP (favorite person) for schizoids is WP (wanted person). Not sure if it's true, maybe someone here can confirm/infirm. I'd appreciate :)

#schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #question #ask #answer #q anon #q answers #i need an answer

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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I genuinely love this explanations, it makes so much sense.

no pressure if you do not want to, but that sounds interesting and i would definitely be down to hear about szpd and bpd being two sides of a coin

ok so. apologies if this doesnt make sense i only talk about this with other crazy people, n also disclaimer i do not have bpd but half my loved ones do, but like. all personality disorders are just subgenres of cptsd, right? the concept of a personality disorder in of itself is a bit [grimaces] because it's like... it's a series of maladaptive coping mechanisms that u have baked so deep into urself as to be essentially irremovable but. people who have NOT done that need to watch how they talk about it. and like, how PDs as a diagnosis started as psychs looking at the end result of childhood trauma n saying 'well that's fucked up that shld be A Disorder' and then only later going wait. wait do you think they're fucked up for a reason????

but, anyway, PDs are cptsd. cptsd is when u experience ongoing trauma when u are not done becoming a person so it fucks up the process of u becoming a person. there's an argument to make that yknow show me a well-adjusted person but. cptsd isnt garden variety fucked up. cptsd IS more prevalent than most people want to admit but it is still like. lots of people do make it to adulthood and aren't rotten at the core. somehow my mother is one of them even. everyone has neuroses but not everyone compulsively ruins their own life any time it might improve.

so. so! lots of things cause cptsd! there are many ways to fuck kids up! and the thing about trauma is the severity isnt actually in The Bad Thing the severity is determined by how supported u are in the aftermath. people can go thru some real gnarly shit and be fine because they had the mental health equivalent of all their safety gear on. people can twist their ankle slightly just walking up some stairs n then never ever recover because no one lets them rest to heal it.

obviously, some people with bpd & szpd did in fact go thru some real gnarly shit. but my two sides of the same coin thesis isnt about the actual trauma. or it is but like. bpd & szpd are about feelings. bpd is too many feelings szpd is no feelings ever.

i dont wanna say bpd n szpd affect more neurodivergent people than other PDs cuz. a) i know almost fuckall abt most other PDs but well u see neurodivergent people tend to be traumatised, b) having Big Feelings as a kid isnt a neurodivergent thing. or, it is but i can say that cuz im neurodivergent n it's complicated. anyway what i WILL say is bpd & szpd start at the same point and that point is having Too Much Feelings

theyre two paths that diverge in the wood. bpd is deciding maybe if i embrace the feelings wholeheartedly i'll be able to control them??? (this doesnt work), szpd is deciding maybe i can destroy the feelings entirely (this also doesnt work). also, '''deciding''', no one wakes up n says Today I Will Pick This Maladaptive Coping Mechanism, this is smth u do gradually while still a child and then later u look back at ur childhood and go Oh Well. That Was Dumb Huh.

this is also imo why both bpd n szpd are so comorbid with derealisation/depersonalisation disorder, cuz the brain only has so many things it can do and dissociating is deceptively nice at first, and like. makes feelings go away! bpd is kinda a vicious circle of being triggered into dissociating then coming back then being triggered etc, szpd is What If I Lived Like This Actually.

anyway it's wild to me always that this is a ~hot take because there's this idea that bpd feelings are? only like that because of the bpd??? and maybe there's an argument that everyone's feelings are that strong at first n most people learn to modulate them but. that just rings so false to me. i learnt to modulate my feelings and ive been informed that's A Disorder. i think everyone has an emotional capacity & the upper limit of it naturally varies. i assume there are people out there who don't feel things as strongly as i do because lots of people sure act like it.

uhhhh in conclusion. bpd & szpd are both about having Well This Is The Worst Thing To Ever Happen And I Have To Die About It be basically your only reaction to anything bad, and choosing to cope with that in two very different ways. endless love to my borderline folks i could NOT live like that.

#asks #schizo spectrum #actually schizoid #actually szpd #schizophrenic spectrum #schizoid personality disorder #schizoid

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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I am a schizoid.

And yes, I can also laugh sometimes.

#schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #laugh #misconceptions #misinformation #myth #truth #facts

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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Visual representation of me, just exiting (:

#schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #void #the void #nothing #nothingness #life passing by

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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"It's all in your head"

Yeah, actually, my whole life is there.

#schizoid #cluster a #actually szpd #actually schizoid #mental health #schizoid personality disorder #schizophrenic spectrum #asocial #schizo spectrum #spd #fantasy world #daydream #dissociation

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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Me: "My memory is so fucked up."

Person: "How bad is it?"

Me: "How bad is what?"

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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The Schizoid Childhood - “You have no right to feel things.”

INTRODUCTION

Schizoid Personality Disorder is just a name for adaptations that this group formed to cope with their childhood. A common theme during a schizoid’s childhood is that their feelings and what they thought did not matter. Most also went through some form of abuse as well.

FEELINGS

WE HAVE NO RIGHT TO FEEL THINGS

Common phrases from parents:

“You have no right to be angry when I yell at you.”

“Stop crying or I’ll give you something to cry about.”

“No one cares what you think. I’m your parent, do as I say.”

“Why would I care about how you feel? I don’t want to hear about it.”

“You’re exaggerating.”

BEING TOLD WHAT TO FEEL

Common phrases from parents:

“You’re not depressed, you have a good life and we do so much for you. Be happy.”

“You can’t possibly be anxious right now. You deserved that punishment. Just calm down.”

Whatever emotion that was felt was wrong.

FEELINGS WERE DISMISSED

Common phrases from parents:

“Are you on your period or something?”

“You need to get more sleep. Someone needs to take a nap!”

“Maybe your medications are ineffective.”

“You’re just confused.”

Their feelings were always given a condescending explanation. They were told their feelings were not the cause of the psychological abuse they went through. Their feelings were caused by their periods, lack of sleep, and medication ineffectiveness.

END RESULT

The schizoid has essentially learned to shut down emotionally. They learned from a young age that their feelings don’t matter and won’t be taken seriously. And that expressing emotion would get them in trouble. They have trouble recognizing or feeling emotions due to being forced to shut them down while growing up.

Detachment from emotions

Flat or restricted affect

Limited capacity to express positive or negative emotions towards others

Chronic emptiness and numbness

Taking pleasure in few, if any, activities (anhedonia, avolition, apathy)

AUTOMATIC THOUGHTS

It is better for me to maintain my distance and maintain a low profile.

I shouldn’t confide in others.

I have no motivation.

I’m just going through the motions.

Why bother? Who cares?

ABUSE

On top of the feeling dismissal, the schizoid may have suffered through one or more of these things:

Psychological: gaslighting, interrogation sessions, dismissal of feelings, locking up the victim, sensory deprivation techniques, blame shifting, denial of abuse, intrusiveness and denial of privacy, emotional neglect (minimal, if any, affection)

Emotional: name calling, shouting, mocking, threats, intimidation, ignoring, isolating, humiliation

Physical: r**e, molestation, beatings, being thrown, being restrained (grabbed by the arms, held down, tied up), hair pulling, ear yanking, slapping, being spat on, ejaculated on, pissed on, torture techniques (e.g. chinese water torture)

END RESULT

The abuse is impossible to cope with. Schizoid adaptations are based on escapism and dissociation since they could not escape physically. The schizoid also begins to view friendships/relationships as intrusive, controlling, and enslaving.

Dissociation

Depersonalization

Escaping to a fantasy world

Lack of desire for social relationships

Little, if any, interest in sex

Consistent preference for solitary activities

Very few, if any, close friends or relationships

AUTOMATIC THOUGHTS

It is important for me to be independent and free of others.

It is better to be alone than to feel “stuck” with other people.

My privacy is much more important to me than closeness with people.

Relationships are messy and interfere with freedom.

Life is less complicated without other people.

END NOTE

The schizoid usually was not treated as a human being with the rights to feelings, emotional expression, privacy, or fair treatment. The classic flat affect, chronic emptiness, and lack of pleasure is due to them learning to detach from their emotions. Their strong emotions were unbearable, so they started suppressing them. The dissociation and escapism techniques are due to not being able to physically escape, so they learned how to mentally do so. Most schizoids have also formed a disinterest in people due to the belief that relationships are a loss of freedom and that other people are intrusive and controlling.

#schizoid #schizoid personality #schizoid personality disorder #actuallyschizoid #actually schizoid #szpd #schizoid pd #personality disorder #personality disorders #trauma #ptsd #abuse survivor

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asocialbeauty · 3 years

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Schizoid Automatic Thoughts

It is important for me to be free and independent of others.

I enjoy doing things more by myself than with other people.

In many situations, I am better off to be left alone.

It’s better to be alone than to feel “stuck” with other people.

I can use other people for my own purposes as long as I don’t get involved.

I am a social misfit.

Intimate relations with other people are not important to me.

My privacy is much more important to me than closeness with people.

Relationships are messy and interfere with freedom.

Life is less complicated without other people.

It is better for me to keep my distance and maintain a low profile.

I shouldn’t confide in others.

It doesn’t matter what people think of me.

I am not influenced by others in what I decide to do.

I set my own standards and goals for myself.

What other people think doesn’t matter to me.

I can manage things on my own without anybody’s help.

I’d rather do it myself.

I prefer to be alone.

I have no motivation.

I’m just going through the motions.

Why bother?

Who cares?

#szpd-info #szpd-insight #spd #szpd #schizo spectrum #actually schizoid #schizophrenic spectrum #schizoid personality disorder #actually szpd #schizoid

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