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annesthaeticc · 3 months

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lovers rock | sherlock x fem!reader

| Sherlock Holmes x Fem!Reader

| one shot , song fic

| 961 words

| 'because love can burn like a cigarette, and leave you alone with nothing...' What Sherlock and Y/N had was beautiful, but it crashed and burned.

A/N okay bear with me it's short, but hey it's something, right? testing the waters asi hopefully hopefully come back into writing. let me know what you think!

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“Such a small world,” you quietly said and watched as the air escaped your lungs, echoing your words. The party inside was loud, but not loud enough for the silence outside was piercing yet calming. And so, he heard you. Slowly, he turned to see who spoke and found your silhouette, your shape outlined amongst the trees and the pillars.

Slowly, he walked towards you. Yet another mistake he was about to make. For all the choices he made that involved you, it led to one.

One. Big. Mistake.

Sherlock heard his heart thudding. Crashing and breaking in every step he made towards you. You sat there frozen, your eyes unblinking, or at least trying not to blink for you feared that if you do so, he might disappear.

Just like he did back then.

Sherlock sometimes wished he never pursued you, but here he was, about to do the very same thing. He never learned.

“Indeed it is.” he replied, his very perfect presence now crowding over you. His shadow embraced you and your eyes finally blinked only to find he was still there, standing in front of you.

He was taller. His face is more defined. His curls, curled to perfection. His perfume was the same, or is it? His lips fuller, more inviting than ever.

Sherlock noticed this, and cannot help himself but do the very same. You were perfect in every shape and form, as the day he met you. He committed crimes before, but his favorite might be the one he is about to make; to kiss you.

Silence passed by the small distance between you and him and it was almost deafening. You were waiting for him to say something. Something along the lines of “I’m sorry I left you…” And he was doing just the same, waiting for the words like “I’m sorry I couldn't wait for you…”

“Best man leaving early?” you finally said, shyly asking. He nodded and looked away.

“What are you doing here?” he asked, cutting you off before you could even say anything.

“I was invited, well not just me really, Ian and I were…” your voice trailed off as your husband's name left your lips. Again, he nodded.

Ah yes, Ian. Sherlock knew more than you. He is decent enough, this Sherlock could guarantee. But not decent enough to leave you on your own for days, even weeks or months on end while he was traveling the world on some sort of opera tour. Sherlock didn't care enough to dig for more details.

All he knew was deep seated anger and sadness.

And this resonated through the walls of the second floor of 221B Baker Street for months. Your wedding invitation sent for him lay hopeless on his desk, waiting to be written on to confirm his invitation. He was about to decline after finally making a decision that went on for weeks, only to find out it was pointless to respond because your wedding was already done.

And so, he threw the invitation in the fire. He watched as the intricate paper got swallowed by the flames, melting into ashes, into nothing. He was mesmerized by it. How something could be nothing because of the burning flames.

He was shaken from his thoughts when he saw your hand, holding a packet of cigarettes. You were offering him one and Sherlock accepted. You sat down again on the bench and he followed, allowing a few inches between you.

Quietly, the two of you smoked. Avoiding glancing or talking. You were caught up in a trance and were shaken out of it when you felt movement. Sherlock stood up and stepped on the cigarette. His shoe dug into the grass as the last of the embers glowed.

“Going somewhere?” you asked.

“Home.” he replied, his voice deep.

“I could drive you.” you offered.

“No thank you. I’ll catch a cab.” he replied, slowly walking away.

“Sherlock, wait, please—” you caught up with him and offered to drive him once more. He declined and you almost gave up.

His figure faded into the darkness when you cried out, “Sherlock, I'm sorry.”

Tears flooded your eyes and you couldn't help. It fell from your eyes, flowing down your face. Everything was blurry and you felt your hands shaking from the nicotine and from the adrenaline of your apology.

“It's been 12 years, Y/N,” he replied. “Why are you saying sorry now?”

“Because…”

“You will not tempt me to play one of your games, Y/N. Not this time. Not ever again.”

“Sherlock, please,”

“I'm sorry? Is that all you could think? You left me, Y/N,” he cried. And now you see his face. Anger, despair, and longing painted his face,

“You left me first!” you accused him. He really did.

“And yet you couldn't wait for me, couldn't you? All the promises I made—”

“Were gone as soon as you disappeared, Sherlock.”

“Oh ye of little faith!” he said, his voice booming.

“Sherlock,” you breathlessly begged. “I'm sorry.”

Sherlock heard you, and saw your eyes. He hated you for marrying someone else, but what he hated most is seeing you cry. He pulled out his handkerchief from his jacket pocket and dabbed your face, wiping away the tears. He pulled you into his embrace, just like he did back then. When your cries died down, he pulled away then planted a kiss on your temple.

“We would never work out. You're happier with him.” Sherlock said.

“I realized that what he had, was all that it was. Nothing more, nothing less. We burned too fast until we became nothing, Y/N.” he continued.

“I loved you,” you whispered.

“And I did too. So much.” he said, his voice breaking.

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annesthaeticc · 7 months

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Hello! Hello!

mygoodness, it's been a while! i missed being here in this amazing space and for months i've been wanting to get back in the swing of things like i used to, so i'm giving it a shot :"D anyway! how about a quick life update?

- i had worked for 3-4ish months during summer, quit just before university started. i was hopeful that i could do both at the same time but the schedules were conflicting and so i had to choose my priorities

- saved up some (a bit) from my work and finally bought my dream shoes and a decent tablet that i could use in uni. adulting is real hard af

- aside from uni, i've been so busy with my new beau. four months together now and counting and i am going to run a few posts about this, you'll learn more about it in a while i swear. we've been keeping it semi private but goddamn, i am just in love with him, it's hard to keep it to myself sometimes

- about the fanfics, i am honestly still finding that lil spark of inspiration and motivation to finish them, especially my beloved Sweet November. updates should be up soon so watch out but i can't guarantee anything i swear.

SO YEAH. that's all for now, i guess <3 see ya'll later and much love to all of ya 💓

#anne rambles #i'm back!

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annesthaeticc · 7 months

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Darling, welcome back!🥰🥰

I was so happy to see your update just now (missed it on the 18th) but also saddened by the added news about the breakup. I've often wondered how you're doing, and I'm so glad you're living near uni now, because you both needed and deserved that!

It may appear that I'm not here--and you'll never see me in your notificaitions--because my shadow ban persists (while tumblr Support insists it's a 'glitch'). But please know you're in my heart and I'm forever wishing you the best of the best. 😘💗

omy hi!!! thank you so much for the love! and i'm doing just fine, i've finally got my hands on a decent tablet and got my tumblr working so i should be (hopefully) here more soon! i missed you too and i can't wait to get back on track with you guys! and i hope you're doing well too!

#anne answers!!#i'm back!

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annesthaeticc · 1 year

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idc what people say but men look better when they're down on their knees and eating tf outta me

#anne says hi #relationship stuff

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annesthaeticc · 1 year

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i am back in the dating scene and i started seeing this guy 2 weeks ago. we had a good date and spent a weekend together. and the s*x is amazing. i told him that i hate chatting online and if he wanted to see me, he should see me in person. he followed thru, only hitting me up once in a while to send cat videos. we've been so busy lately, especially him cause he's working.

the other night, i was feeling quite delicate and needed a hug. so i hit him up, asking where he is and if i could have a hug. turns out he's at his work site (which is at least an hour from where i live)

me: oh okay. take care and see you soon

him: how bad do you need that hug?

me: idk, i just need one

him: i'll be there in an hour

me: oh no. it's okay. you don't need to come, you have to work early tomorrow

him: i'm on the bike now, be on the way soon

he arrived 40 mins later and i told him he didn't need to come and didn't need to drive so fast (he's got a sexy ass bike like whew) and the first thing he did was to wrap his arm around my waist the moment i walked towards him. oh lord. he eventually gave me a hug and sometime in the evening asked me what i was thinking about. told him the reason why i needed a hug. he listened to me and when i finished, he pulled me in for another hug.

#relationship stuff #oh lord watch me get fooled again

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annesthaeticc · 1 year

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idk why but i get so giggly after sex. and he noticed this, so he asked me:

him: why does your laugh sound different after sex?

me: *laughs*

him: see? it sounds different

me: different how?

him: i don't know it's just a different kind of laugh

me: a different good or a different bad?

him: different good, it sounds cute *smiles*

#relationship stuff #oh lord watch me get fooled again #yas i love my heart getting broken

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annesthaeticc · 1 year

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that's right guys, i posted a chapter of Sweet November in AO3!

#anne says hi #anne says something #sweet november #dr strange fanfiction #dr strange x oc #annesthaeticc

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annesthaeticc · 1 year

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i am once again awashed by that familiar feeling of being overwhelmed. like everything is happening all at once and i need to direct my energy to everything. and it's happening all so fast! goodness! like literally 2 weeks ago my boyfriend broke up with me. i took a week off at school at took rest at home. and once i got back, i got accepted and offered a job.

im tired but im grateful. few are privileged enough to study, whilst i got to study and to work at the same time. it's going to be a draining journey, but hey! it's an opportunity im not going to miss.

(oh and guess where im working, points to those who'll get it 😉)

#anne says something #anne says hi #anne rambles #anne shares stuff #hello ya'll

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annesthaeticc · 1 year

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i think i gave him an existential crisis XD well he said his feelings for me didn't develop the way he wanted it. i guess it is what it is 😭

hello!

first of all, i would like to say hello. how are you guys doing? i missed you all! i'm sorry i've been so inactive, life got in the way these last few months and i can't wait to share to you all how have i been doing.

secondly, thank you ❤️ while i was away i sometimes check my notifications and i see that some still read my stories and give em hearts. thank you so much for that! ily all ❤️

while i was away, i got so busy with life. i am now living closer to uni, just a few steps away from the campus gates and i've been living away from my parents for a few months now.

i am now in a relationship (can y'all believe that? i can't believe it myself too!) i'm now dating someone and we're still in that phase so i've been spending lots of time with him.

i'm now taking my last semester for my second year in studying psychology, four more semesters and i'll be done yay!

i'm marginally happier now. i ended and started a new year with hope. my beau is one of the reasons why and of course, i'm away from the stress at home so there's that.

lastly, i wish i'll be back in the writing scene soon. GOD I MISSED WRITING SMUT. but i can only hope for now cause uni is taking too much of my time. and i missed interacting with y'all! writing and talking to you guys helped me cope so thanks so much for that.

imy all and let's all talk soon! (if you read this, say hi in the replies!)

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annesthaeticc · 1 year

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it's so funny how i would start singing a taylor swift song but stop mid melody or mid lyric cause i remember my ex was a swiftie lol

#anne says hi #anne rambles

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annesthaeticc · 1 year

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update! he broke up with me :") *sighs*