I'm gonna take a little break from posting here, I'll be available on my main @theblurrxdface

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Dear followers, happy holidays to those who celebrate one around this time, let us not forget the most universal one tomorrow - my own birthday. Sorry I've been MIA, this account is very much still running, i just got a new job and I'm drowning in uni work at the same time. However, I will never permanently leave any of my accounts (unless it's due to a terrible unforseen circumstance) without saying something first. So you can otherwise always assume I'm coming back eventually.

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Reminder: I'm happy to chat but I miss so many replies, what can I say, there's many notes coming in and I have adhd... Just send me a message instead or head over to my main @theblurrxdface which is much quieter and I'll see you.

As always, I share stuff about ADHD that I want to, usually that I find amusing or relatable, this doesn't make it part of the diagnostic criteria for ADHD, mean it's exclusive to ADHD, or that it should be taken overly seriously.

Even an infographic with informative stuff, is still not an official source of medical info, you shouldn't take it as such. I get 2 types of responses to my posts very often

- I relate to this so I think I may have adhd.

- This is wrong/simplified/exaggerated/doesn't apply to me

For the first one, I'm not gatekeeping adhd or memes from you (please enjoy them at your leisure) - but, if you're concerned you need to seek out a professional opinion. Yes, I'm aware not everyone is in a position to, but at the very least you need to be looking at proper medical sources to understand the condition, and not a meme which could apply to neurotypicals and/or people with a multitude of other conditions too.

For the second one, I think I've covered that. This blog has the word dump in its name largely because I started it to dump all the adhd stuff I keep coming across and saving and to put it somewhere. I did not think it would reach 1k and tens of thousands more notes on some posts. It's lovely that it has, it still doesn't make it an official source of anything.

As always, I share stuff about ADHD that I want to, usually that I find amusing or relatable, this doesn't make it part of the diagnostic criteria for ADHD, mean it's exclusive to ADHD, or that it should be taken overly seriously.

I use this app called Do It Now (which regardless of what I'm gonna say I still recommend cos it had many functions which work for me) that allows you to set yourself tasks like an RPG that reward XP and coins for yourself and level up. It's a good way to get you to do list of chores and work and feel rewarded.

The xp and coins are mostly meaningless they just help your brain feel rewarded and that's good enough, but your avatar will level up with xp and the coins... Well the coins let you buy rewards. You can set your rewards. This is where my brain hits a wall in many ways. Remember when your parents maybe gave you a reward chart and you got a prize at the end for doing everything? That was great, but what if you had to buy the prize or make the prize yourself? That defeats the purpose, especially when you can do it any time. So sure, I can set up in the app that it costs me 500 DIN coins to get a new videogame but then it'll also cost me the 20€ the game costs so I haven't earned it I've just put off buying it. Doesn't work for me. Do any of you use DIN? How do you make use of the coin/reward set up?

This hits so incredibly hard, thanks OP for the perspective

I know this is uninteresting for most people, and yet I have to put it out there because I'm so devastated.

This person has since revealed she thought I was never her friend, like *not ever*, but rather someone with ulterior motives spending time with her at her mother's request most likely to spy on her. I am friends with her mother, I know her and her mother because I work with her mother, that's no secret. Neither of us are evil though. Like holy shit, even if her mother was and I somehow missed it, I would never agree to pretend to be some lady's daughter's friend to spy on her wtaf.

Now I get that it sounds like paranoia and she may be mentally unwell, but why the actual fuck did she pretend to be my friend if she thought I was spying on her. She was therefore being equally fake in her own mind. Except it was real for me and that's crushing. The last thing she said to me when we saw eachother before she went away, was that I was a truly beautiful person on the inside and out. No one other than my partner has ever said anything so lovely to me and I've thought about it throughout the summer. I now find out she did not at that stage or any stage consider me anything more than a spy and was just "being nice" and saying made up things.

I never thought I'd tell a story about someone thinking I was a spy, holy shit. Nor would I imagine someone thinking I was a spy would hurt this badly. I do feel genuinely awful for her POV if she genuinely thinks that it must suck too but I can't get my head around how she has acted like my friend.

I thought at 22 I'd be better at making friends, maybe this is an ND thing, maybe I'm just personally fucking terrible and that's why it's so easy to believe I'd do something so heartless. But it's getting hard to bear the non stop social failures since childhood.

I guess this is the RSD, but I'm really low rn. Someone I thought was a friend has been avoiding me and dodging my suggestions to meet up, and then I saw she blocked me on social media. Honestly feels like I'm back in school drama again and it's stupid but upsetting and triggering.

It really frustrates me because I found out that it's likely because she thinks I was checking up on her (while she travelled alone this summer on the other side of the world) on behalf of her mother who she has issues with. Which is not true. I stayed in touch and asked how she was a few times out of very genuine concern, not to play any stupid spying games I have nothing to do with. I'm so over false accusations and other people's middle school level drama and yet the rejection and incorrectness still stings and goes round and round in my mind. Sorry for the vent.