@14-crush made its first post five years ago today. making this silly little thing changed my life in a way i dont think i ever couldve expected... even though i cant go back to the way things were when i was 15, im so glad it's still loved. thank you. <3

also a redraw of this art from 2019 :) i've gotten a lot better since making this but this old thang is still special to me.

i don't listen to much snail's house anymore (mostly because lo-fi isnt really my jam so much these days haha) but i went back and listened to Scenery (the album the lyric in this drawing is from) and it was a little nostalgic in a way...

“Everything’s gonna be okay from now on. You’ll see.”

That’s what she told me. I didn’t have any real reason to believe that, but, for some reason… I felt like I could trust her. For the first time in a very long time, I believed that freedom was possible for me. Something about that smile just made me feel safe, somehow.

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Some of you might know this already, but 14-Crush actually started out as a longer comic I’d post on main about Agent 8 stumbling upon Dedf1sh (Who we now know as Ahato Mizuta)’s “work room,” and becoming curious about her. She plays the Inkantation to see if Dedf1sh would react at all, and to her surprise, she does. She panics, thinking she’s going to be killed for disobeying the “purpose” Tartar assigned her by regaining her own emotions and free will thanks to that fabled “Heavenly Melody,” so Eight has to quickly try and calm her down. She tells her all about the tests she went through, the stressful escape she endured, and most importantly, the end of Tartar, the phone that had put them both through all this. Dedf1sh eventually agrees to come along with Eight to the surface, wanting to see for herself that Tartar is broken, and, if she can… take her life back, after spending so long in solitude.

I wouldn’t say this is the full version of what I had in mind way back then (honestly, I’ll never have the patience to make something as long as what I wanted to do for that comic), but it’s an excerpt of a part that’s been stuck in my mind for this long.

It’s been four years since I made 14-crush. I made this on sort of short notice (I procrastinated on the thing I really wanted to make for the anniversary, but hopefully that’ll be done soon…?) but I’m still pretty happy with how it’s turned out. Thank you for keeping this little blog I made and loved in your memories. I’m very lucky, I think.

so in another unexpected twist of fate it seems she/they dedf1sh is just also regular canon now HAHAH wild

hehe

it'd be really funny if because of side order agent 8 x dedf1sh started becoming like. an actual popular fandom ship and not just a 14crush thing. Let it be known i was ahead of my time

14-crush is briefly touched upon in this video :) very interesting watch, check it out if you get the chance!!

Ok!!! Copyright issues solved!!! Here’s the video!!! https://youtu.be/9qiRWJ30dyg?si=qWM4umfbz7hcd3U9

about that direct.... LOL

subconscious inspiration is a funny thing

If you don't mind me asking what's the uhh. origin of agent fwee

if i recall correctly i think she technically started as an inside joke of my sister and i saying "agent 3" in like, a silly babyish voice?? but in 2018 (about a month or so before i made 14 crush) i made these little joke doodles of agent 3 during class.

she wasn't at all tied to 14 crush until someone had a silly idea that just. happened to line up almost exactly with fwee as a concept, so i brought her up and showed my followers the art above.

people liked her a lot so i ended up keeping her as part of this semi-canon state where i think she exists in the 14 crush universe but she'd never have a real tangible role in the blog (maybe she wouldve had a cameo at some point if it kept going, who knows)

she got a lot of fanart with different designs attached (since the original drawing of her was just agent 3's octo expansion look with a silly face and red ink) so i decided i should give her her own (rather simple and easy to draw) design in 2019 (lifting the color scheme directly from Strange Klug from puyo puyo lol)

and thats where she's at now! just a silly gal who is either just a weird teenager or an immortal all powerful being or anything in between. up to you.

(her birthday art from 2019, 2020, and 2021 respectively. looks like i missed last year... sorry fwee)

ok so im one day late, but i’ve had this yearly reminder on my phone for years now for the anniversary of the creation of agent fwee. i think she turned four or five yesterday. im not entirely sure but i can’t bring myself to remove that reminder so do with this info what you will XD

wow!!!!!!! belated fwee birthday

three outta four little guys done yeah baby

wanna just wish a very special happy pride month to anyone who's ever told me that Crush was at all meaningful in their journey to discovering they're LGBT+ in some way. because i hope you guys know i think about those messages/comments all the time and it makes me wanna cry a little bit (in a good way of course!!!)

be safe and love yourselves folks. and thank you as always for keeping crush in your memory :)

💖💙💚💛

i feel like everybody else's interpretations of dedf1sh makes them so cool and aloof and punk and i'm jusg sitting here like. hello this is ahato she's my little thingy. she is slightly scared but she is loving and doing her best to find the good in every day. she loves cake and smoothies and her best friends

i feel like everybody else's interpretations of dedf1sh makes them so cool and aloof and punk and i'm jusg sitting here like. hello this is ahato she's my little thingy. she is slightly scared but she is loving and doing her best to find the good in every day. she loves cake and smoothies and her best friends

finding myself wishing the shirt w/ blue hoodie gear was a zip-up instead of a pullover so i could style it like this on ahato…….. its cute i think

Put together a quick form as a sort of interest check for a potential online shop. It’s sort of a way for me to gauge what my audience is into bc these polls I’ve been making have made me realize I have… no idea… so if you’re at all interested in potentially supporting me I’d appreciate if you filled it out! ^_^ 

i ended up liking the agent 8 design i scribbled the other day so i drew them again witg a few minor changes teehee

14-crush’s “canon” isnt ever going to be developed much further than where it ended off so im just gonna preemptively mark the dlc as non-canon to Crush entirely. whatever horrifying thing happens to agent 8 in side order you can consider happened to this guy instead